What the.......?!

HEECHUL GOT MARRIED!



































































... on the drama "Loving you a million times"...

++saykoji89++
++I almost got a heart attack++

Today, I had the laugh of my life... Please people, Heechul is NOT a girl. A friend of my uncle wanted to get to know me because I put Heenim's picture as my Facebook profile pic. He called Heenim an "awek cun" (beutiful and hot woman).

I can't see why ppl call him that when he is just as manly as other guys. huh~

Everyone to themselves.

++saykoji89++
++my taste is men are..++

Merry Christmas Everybody!!!!

++saykoji89++
++Is there such things as Santa?++

Super Junior's English Name

I just got to know this a few days ago. Suju members all have their own english names. I'll go from seniority.

Teukie - Dennis Park
Chullie - Casey Kim
Hannie - Joshua Tan
Yesung - Jerome Kim
Kangin - Jordan Kim
Sungmin - Vincent Lee
Eunhyuk - Spencer Lee
Siwon - Andrew Choi
Donghae - Aiden Lee
Shindong - Matthew Shin
Ryeowook - Nathan Kim
Kibum - Brian Trevor Kim
Kyuhyun - Marcus Cho

++saykoji89++
++I have really become emo these days++

Hankyung, Kajima!

I am writing this journal entry after I had cried a lot today...


I'm shocked as well as sad... I'm really depressed. It might not sound important to you as it is to me...



Hankyung is leaving Super Junior and the statement was out just a few hours ago. They're waiting for the official statement from SM, but the rumor is not a rumor anymore. They had already interviewed his lawyer and he says it's true. His cyworld entry is as confusing as it is and Kyuhyun already let is heart out on his cyworld.



I am crying and I do not when to stop... The tears are falling down by itself even if I don't wanna cry...


++saykoji89++
++whatever it is, I hope you change your mind++

Can't these guys get anymore hotter?

Yeah, so just when you thought the guys of Super Junior is HAWT enough, they come up with new pictures that shows that they're hotter. Guys, if you get any hotter, I'm seriously gonna melt.

My Heechul, my experience. Gawd, he looks so cute in this pic.

Hyukjae ah, after you're done with that bunny, do you mind giving it to me?

Lol, Hannie. You couldn't be anymore handsome is it? Now I know why they call you China's prince. Ah, I wish I had those boots but unfortunately, they don't sell them in Malaysia...


++saykoji89++
++ah, why are there drool all over the place++

My Top 5 Songs for the Week

1. Puff the Magic Dragon by Kyuhyun of Super Junior


2. Hallelujah by Big Bang


3.Superman by Heechul and Jay


4.Energy by Inoue Marina


5. Sorry Sorry - Answer by Super Junior

Getting old...

This is how I felt at the beginning of the year. I was so happy and without a care in the world. I felt that I am innocent in everything I do.




This is how I feel now. I feel really old with my birthday coming up in a few months, but somehow still do not know how to act my age. Ah, with all the aches in my back.

++saykoji89++
++Is that a wrinkle I see on my face?++

Pi.A.No

PI:
Yesterday my family went out for Pizza. We wanted to try the new place called Sans Fransisco Pizza. When we got to the place we order everything else but the PIZZA!

A:
After we ate, we returned home and I sat in front of lappie, open Facebook and dA.

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No no no no no...... HA!



++saykoji89++
++I must be really bored to do this++

Super Junior

I just heard the latest single from Super Junior. Not really latest, but quite new. These are the singles I'm talking about.

Sorry Sorry - Answer

Neorago (Rearranged)

I really like the new Neorago version. I'm falling heads over heels with it and I'm finding the download link now.

Today, I showed the video that made me fall in love with Super Junior to Kyoko and her sister. I think she might interested in Super Junior soon. You might wonder what video is that.
I'm proud to say that it is....


"Intimate Note" (Miss Intimate)

That was the first time I saw Heechul. I took around 2 months to finally fall in love with him.

Anyway, I'm really side-tracking now. So be sure to hear the two songs, OK?


++saykoji89++
++Merry Christmas everyone++

Global Warming or Freezing?

Recently, do you guys realize that it is getting colder and colder? I watched a documentary about it and they blamed it on global warming and climate change. GLOBAL WARMING???!!! Shouldn't be global freezing?

On my right hand side of my desktop has a weather teller, and everytime I look at it, I feel like finding another blanket. I know it is supposed to be winter now, of course it's cold. But in Malaysia? All I know is Malaysia has only 2 types of weather. Non-stop rain and overdosed heatness. Seriously, last night in Kuala Lumpur was 22 degrees celcius. That is the same as my Air-cond temp.

Could it be that there might be a possibility of snowing in Malaysia soon???

++saykoji89++
++Hiding under a thick blanket now++

My Best Buddies

Guys, have you noticed the weather change? It's getting colder everyday. My hands can get really cold as if I just walked out from a air-conditioned room even if I'm just laying down on my bed drawing comics. Brr... Climate change sucks!

The weather worldwide has also dropped down. According to my trusty weather teller, it says that in Dublin the temperature is 9 degrees and in Wonju is below 4!! Sometimes I feel really lucky to be staying in a tropical climate country, but that is not stopping me from moving to the East Asia.

Actually, I wanted to introduce to the readers my two best friends, Kaizu and Kyoko. You guys have probably heard a lot about them but never see them right? Well, I looked hard for their pictures but I have finally found it.



This is Kaizu. The one I owe my "To Be Blamed" list. Seriously, when I talk with her, the only topic we talk about are boys. Not your normal average looking boys, but the good-looking EAST Asian guys. Oh, and not to forget Teme and Dobe also.



And this my friend, is Kyoko. Kyoko is Kyoko. That's all I got to say. She is extremely nice and helpful but on one condition. Don't make her mad.... you'll regret it. But other than that, she is one totally awesome friend a person could ever ask for.

For more information about these two people, you can check out the KsK blogsite, but don't be suprised if it's full of nonsense.

++saykoji89++
++Just met the both of them++

Take Over

Dear readers, if you think this is Sayko whose writing the entry, you are terribly wrong!

Today, this blogsite, I shall take over. And by I, it is me, Harusawa Kenji. (cue: evil laugh)

The reason I decide to ttake over today is because that idiotic Sayko is having her friends over today. Oh, I can just imagine them going "kya, kya" over little stuff and Kyoko will go like


"I'll never know why you guys go kya kya over something like this"
(shudders from remembering Kyoko's evil look)

Ah, I'll be surrounded by squealing fangirls all day. Sucks to be me!

++HarusawaKenji++
++Can we switch places?++

Nothing to do

Guys, I am really really bored. I have nothing to do these days. (Although my mom keep pestering me about cleaning my room that I already think is clean enough) Sometimes I really wonder what is it like to be an idol...

An example of a Dol+I

Kenji: Yah, you can never be an idol but you can sure become a *Dol+I.
Me: Shut up or I'll never draw you again!
Kenji: ... but I'm just telling the truth...

*Dol+I means someone who is really weird

Heenim's part in Sorry Sorry. I always wait until this part before I change to the next song.

Right now, due to my boredomness, I am practicing the 'Sorry Sorry' moves.. I think I have done a great job of imitating, but when I look into the mirror while dancing,

....

Let's just forget about the whole thing shall we. Never ever EVER dance in front of anybody!
It kinda look as idiotic as this dance.

++saykoji89++
++I need to lose weight++

To laling

I know you won't get to see this on dA, and even if you did, it's probably a long time from now. So I just post this here for you to see, since I can't send it to your phone... enjoy..

P/s--> This OC's name is Sonny Xanadu. The name I got from Heechul's musical play, Xanadu. And yes, Sonny is his role... Go figure.

++saykoji89++
++Stop drawing random OC++

Dedicated to Kenji

Yeah, my guilty concience has finally caught up to me. Not to mention the sound of Kenji's voice screaming in my head when I drew another random OC. He goes like this,
"Yah, sayko, if you have so much time drawing another random OC, draw me instead!!!"

So, here I am trying to make it up to him, before I forget how to draw him forever...

Harusawa Kenji, he can be called my second genaration character. My first one was Rockey... I created Kenji when I was 15 years old, so he has been with me for 5 years now... Happy 5th aniversary, Kenji! Anyway, Kenji's concept is actually my ideal prince. Good looking, witty, and has a dark personality. (That is why he keeps bugging me to be drawed) Kenji's fullname is REALLY long. He goes by Maxiwilliam Kenji Thomas Alexander Anderson Harusawa. He was born in Lincoln Hospital, Washington on the 26th of October 1989. (actually he was born in my head on I don't know when). Although he should be 18 this year, I decided to make him forever 18. It doesn't have to mean that he should grow old with me...

I got the concept of drawing Kenji when I was in form 3, Kenji's real name at that time was suppose to be Konzen Douji. (That's why he has that guy's type of chara) I changed it to Kenji because Konzen doesn't sound too Japanese, and Kazuya Minekura might sue me for plagarism. So I changed it to Harusawa Kenji. If you see closely, Kenji is actually a name derived from Konzen Douji. How clever of me...

This post is actually supposed to be longer but I'm really lazy to tpe so, I'm gonna skip a few paragraph...

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and, we arrived to the facts you probably don't know about Kenji before I post up the pictures...

1. Kenji is a lefty. But he can be right-handed whenever he wanted to.

2. Kenji's birthday is actually the birthday of a boy I had a crush on when I was in school. I wanted to change the date, but whenever I set it to a new date, I seem to forget it.So, 26 october it is....

3. Kenji hates the color PINK. Just like me...

4. Kenji's occupation is a manga-ka. He has his own studio and his helper Seishi, a junior in his school. Don't ask me what his debut manga is, because I don't know...

5. Kenji has a total of 12 piercings on his face ONLY. 5 in his left ear, 3 in his right, 3 on his left eyebrow and one on his tounge. Don't ask me about other places. I only know about those.

6. When I first craeted Kenji, I made him allergic to girls. But I cured him by giving him a girlfriend, Kimie. I wanted to learn to draw girls too, that's why I gave him a girlfriend. Otherwise, he probably be gay.

7. Last unknown fact, Kenji was suppose to have a TWIN brother. What happened to him? His twin brother is actually Heiji himself. I just demoted Heiji to be his younger brother instead. But that explains why Kenji and Heiji's name are quite similar. Maxiwilliam Kenji and Maximillian Heiji.

Now, for the pictures!!!!

These are the early stages of Kenji. And the comic is a drawing I did of him the first time.


This is a comic I did of him once I've cured his allergies to girls.

So far, this is the best picture of him that I have ever drawn...

These are all my other favourite pictures of Kenji that I draw now. He is very different from when I first drew him.. Sob, my Kenji's all grown up....

++saykoji89++

++hoping not to draw anymore random OC++

Bored

The story behind these pictures...

I drew this based on a picture of Heechul in his endorsed clothing by SPRIS. The jacket is supposed to be in black color. But since it doesn't look like Heechul, I decide to call it Hwechel. Haha..

And the small pic? It goes like this...

Kenji: Yah, you have so much free time is it?
Me: What makes you say that?

Kenji: You keep drawing all these new OCs.
Me: I guess so... I'm bored...

Kenji: But how come you never took your time to draw me?
Me: ...

Kenji: Yah, answer me you rat!
Me: Because you are getting harder to draw, with all those earrings, and you eyes...

Kenji: YOU CREATED ME THAT WAY!!!!
Me: .... I'm just lazy... (=.=)

This is a drawing I did when I saw the SuJu-M, Super girl Vid. I really like HAnkyung and Heechul together... I have a story for this too...

HC: Yah, Hankyung, I'm hungry... Faster, faster!
HK: Arrasso..(I know) (while cooking fried rice)

KI: Hyung, annyeong! Ah, Hankyung-hyung is cooking Bejing fried rice is it? Smells so delicious..
HC: Ah, teukkie, yongwoonie, come come. Hankyung is making fried rice. Come and join us. Yah, Hankyung! Faster, my stomach is grumbling...

HK: Idiot...
ET: Hankyung, fighting... Just be patience with this guy...

And the story to go with this one...

HC: I'm home! Yah, I'm hungry! Hankyung, I'm hungry!
HK: (watching TV) There is Ramen on the table help yourself...

HC: Kekeke.. Thanks, Geng.
HK: (turns to Heechul) You're... Yah, Kim Heechul!

HC: What? I want to eat!
HK: Yah! You cut your hair again?! I thought you went for drama shooting!

HC: I did. Then on the way back, I dropped by the hair salon. What do you think?
HK: I think you are an idiot. How short do you want it to be?

HC: As short as Kibummie's.
HK: Retard.

HC: Yah, Hankyung! Don't cuss.
HK: You are the one that thaught me to cuss.

HC: I did not! Even if I did, it's only for your knowledge. Not for you to cuss me...

*HC-Heechul, HK-Hankyung, KI-Kangin, ET-Eeteuk

++saykoji89++
++I must stop reading fanfics++

100 Q&A as stolen from HCKiseki

I took these questions from HCKiseki.com, which is Heechul's Official Fan Cafe by the way. The way he answers are so funny that I think I might try to answer it as well. Yeah, and if you count, it won't reach 100 Questions because there are some questions that I feel sensitive about... Anyway, enjoy.

Name : Nur Sharain
Birthday : February 14th
School : Which one? I went to many schools.
Residency: My parents house
Family : 5 people including me
Personality : Very weird
Good Qualities : I never bother people
Bad Qualities : People say I have not enough interest in my surroundings
Hobbies : Sleeping, drawing, eating, sleeping again
Religion : Islam
Height : The shortest among my siblings
Weight : The lightest among my family
Bloodtype : Is this important?
Shoe Size : Too lazy to go look
Favorite Genre of music : Anything Asian including their classic songs
Favorite Singers : Takuya(UVERworld), 김희철, Inoue Joe, Yui
Favorite Season : Autumn, cause it’s not too hot and hot too cold
Favorite Food : Okonomiyaki and Gulai Pucuk Paku
Place I want to go : South Korea’s Kangwondo’s Wonju.
My ideal : I like someone with East Asian looks
My worries as of now : What should I do during the holidays?
First Love : My mother
Alcohol Tolerance : I don’t drink
Drinking Habits : See above.
Most important friends : Kaizu and Kyoko
Prized Possesion : 1:Lappie. 2:Handphone 3:Taku 4.Me
When I look the best : When I smile
When I look sexiest : How should I know?
Hairstyle as of now : Tied up to one side.
Clothes you are wearing right now : A blue t-shirt and shorts
What’s in your pocket : My room key
First time drinking : Never
Favorite colors : Blue, black and recently Red
Thing you want from your significant other : A handphone
Age you want to get married : 26
What you do when you’re home alone : turn on the music and/or sleep
Habits : I like to play with the pillow tips before I sleep
Highest placement in school : 1st place in the whole grade. When I was in elementary school, I always get in the top 10.
Difference between men and women : Women can wear skirt and pants. But if a man wore a skirt he’d be hearing more than an ‘idiot’ from people.
If you were born again, man or woman : Me
What you think you were in your previous life : A person
If the person you loved cheated on you :I’ll kill the person he cheated with
Favorite at Karaoke : N Sync “It’s gonna be me”, Jinbara “Cinta Pantai Merdeka”
What you want to do when it rains : Sleep
If you were on a deserted island what you take : Can I say Heechul?
How many kids : 2, twin boys.
Who do you want to see the most right now : Super Junior
Favorite snacks : Pocky (chocobanana), Hello Panda
Allowance : Whatever my mom give me
Favorite restaurants : Kenny Rogers
To be dumped or do you dump : Both are also equally sad.
Why did you write the answer to the question above : Cause it’s true
What I want right now : A black SGH-G400 handphone
When do you think you’ve grown up : I don’t want to grow up
Country you want to go to : South Korea
What you think about other people : I really couldn’t care less
What would you do if you confessed to a boy : Blush, I guess?
Place you want to go with your other : Water park
Ideal vacation spot : A place that is quiet but not secluded and has civilization
Favorite TV show : Gag Concert.
Thoughts when you’re in rain : I can’t think . I’m too busy sleeping.
When I fell happy : When I go visit Kaizu
Most recent movie watched : A Walk to Remember on my friend’s PC
Movie watched with the most feeling : Sorry, I Love You
Could you marry someone else for the person you loved : Depends
What you want to do for the person you love : Love them?
I want to die when : My time comes
You think you’re a player : I’m too lazy to be one
If you found 100k in the road : … I wonder why no one took it?
When you were most hurt : when I overheard my mother talking to my grandmother on how she cared about me less compared to my brothers.
I hate guys that : think they are really perfect
I hate girls that : acts like a bitch
If you were to become invisible : I’ll go stalking. No one would discover me! Keke..
When someone makes you mad: I keep it to myself and make sure I pay them back with the same thing.
Favorite saying : You laugh at me because I’m different, I laugh at you because you’re all the same.
If someone you met for the first time were to ask for you number : I’d ask ‘why’
Nicknames : Sayko, Shara, Ain
First thing you do in the morning : Open my eyes
Jinxes : You want me to make one?
The most important thing in the world : Air
When you were happiest : In primary school
When you were saddest : In high school
Last thing you want to say : I’m finished! Yeah~!

++saykoji89++
++really bored now++

10 Things You Need to Know About Me

10. I hate PINK. I hate it from the bottom of my heart. I will only like pink when there is peace in the Middle East which is very unlikely.

9. I may look shy at first but I really am not. I just believe that first impressions are important. You wouldn't want to be friends who is crazy when you first met them, do you?

8. I support YAOI. I don't care what other people says about it as long as I get my daily dose of Bishies. But the thing is, I am still in fact straight. I plan to get married when I am 26 and I want to have 2 children preferably twin boys.

7. I can have mood swings even when it is not at that time of month. So, when I start whiplashing you, please don't give me the statement,
"Is it that time of month?",
if you don't want to be hit by a chair.

6. I love literature. Maybe not classic literature, but I enjoy reading and music. So far, my best record of reading is the Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix. I finished the whole book within 3 hours. I listen to various types of music and I hate people who critics other people's genre of music.

5. My stuff is my stuff. I don't like people touching my stuff without permission. And I especially wouldn't like if someone just act like what's mine is theirs too. Fuck them. When I feel like sharing I'll let you have it. But do not simply treat my stuff like something picked up from the roadside although it might look like it. These people will initiate my random mood swings.

4. Whoever or whatever I decide to like is definitely up to me. You may critic once in a while, but don't expect me to change. Never say to me,
"why do you like GAY guys?"
or
"how come your choice of guys are always lousy?"
or even
"you think that guy will like you back is it, if you put his picture as your phone theme? He doesn't even know you."


I will definitely answer back to you,
"Why, are you jealous?"
OR...
I could just kick your ass for that.

3. When I hate someone, please never try to be nice to me ever again. It's hard for me to hate someone, but once I hate you, that's it. I'll hate you forever. I have a few people on my hate list already. Various ages from young until old. For these people who I shall not name, go die. I can live without you in my life. I don't see you guys as humans anymore. You guys are lower than dirt in my eyes.

2. I love my friends. But I love my best friends more. I can be friends with everyone (except those who already made their way to my hate list) but not everyone can be my best friends. So far I only have 2 best friends that I will trust until the day I die. It's not that I don't trust anybody else... Okay, it's because I don't trust anybody else. I have been backstabbed more than other people's share on it. I don't like to use people, I don't like people using me to their advantage. So, when I say I only have 2 best friends, please don't tell me
"Yah, I use to be your best friend in school. You forget about me already is it?"
It's not that I forgot you. ischeIt's just that best friends to me means more than just hanging out during lunch period or doing mives together. Please respect that.

1. I am one hell of a procrastinator. Enough said.

++saykoji89++
++getting to know you++

BFF

Today I want to share with the netizens about my two best friends. Laling a.k.a Kaizu and Hun a.k.a Kyoko.

First let's start with Kaizu.

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Real name: Sharifah Zanariah

Nickname: Chepa, Kaizu

D.o.b: 2 May 1989

Hobby: Drawing and reading

Interest: Fanfic, anime and manga

Let's just say I never met anyone that shares as much similarities as me. She is smart and beautiful and REALLY tall. I think she is taller than me, or is it the same? I couldn't tell because she is thinner than me. Her drawings are incredibly awesome. If you don't believe me, check out her dA. She is very fun to be with and never makes you feel bored.

Laling and I, we both like the same things, but very opposite of each other's taste. How should I describe this.... Let me give you a few example..

We both like SEAFOOD but I like SQUIDS and she likes PRAWNS

We both like NARUTO(ANIME) but I like SASUKE and she likes NARUTO

We both like HETALIA but I like JAPAN and she likes ENGLAND

We both like JROCK but I like GAKCT and she likes HYDE

...see what I mean......

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Real name: Nur Farahin

Nickname: Paien, Kyoko

D.O.B: 18 July 1989

Hobby: Reading

Interest: Fanfiction

Kyoko.... I known her for quite sometime but there are things about her that remains a mystery to me. Seriously. All I know is there is a scary side of her that you wouldn't want to mess with. I like to hang out with Kyoko. I remember someone asked us,

"Korang kawan dari kecik ke? (Are you two childhood friends?)"

Both of us burst out laughing that day. We were really close and it seems like we have known each other for such a long time. But actually, on that day, I just got to know her for like 1 or 2 weeks. Funny indeed.

Whenever I was with Kyoko, I really feel brave... Like I have the courage to do stuff. I still remember one incident during my matriculation days. We were studying late nite and suddenly one by one our stuff starts to dissapear. We search all over and couldn't find it. Then, suddenly she yelled out,

"Senang lah korang main sorok-sorok barang. Korang tak ada exam esok, kitorang ada!"
(Easy for you guys to hide our stuff. You don't have to take exams, we do)

And when I pick up one pillow, all our stuff was there. So, we continued studying and heard someone crying loudly. It was like a small child crying when they did not get what they want. If I was alone, I would probably hid under a pillow. But Kyoko, she totally said something that makes me feel braver.

Kyoko is someone who speaks her mind. When she doesn't like something, she straight-forwardly says so. I wish I could be like her...

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Next time I shall tell how the 3 of us met each other.

But to tell you the truth, the 3 of us are really close to each other, but we never went out together, I mean all three of us. It is always a two-some outing. And we never took pictures together either. And to say we are best friends....

No, really. We are best friends. But when we meet each other, we don't bother to take pictures together. We just chat and talk.

++saykoji89++
++I miss my best friends++

Marriage

Right now it is 1.47 am in Malaysia. And the tempreture of Wonju is 6 degrees. (so cold)

Many of my friends' siblings are getting married this upcoming months. Ah, school holidays are the perfect time to get married they say...

Even my best friend from school said her brother is getting married. Congratz.

Hearing this really makes me think....

AH, I WANT TO GET MARRIED TOO....

When I was young, I didn't think marriage was important. I even told my mom I don't want to get married.

Oh, how I was a child back then....

I planned to get married when I am 26, which means I have another 6 years of being a bachelor. Must live life to the fullest then...

And people, you should know that I do not dream of getting married to a actor or singer. Those are hopeless dreams. But if I do, than it's fate...

++saykoji89++
++should sleep by now++

Hair today, Gone tomorrow

I really need to cut my hair when I get back. My hair is really long now, and thinking about it, I think the last time I cut it was last year. And now it is already so long...

I wanted to cut of my fringe (the one that I kept from 2007). I think the last time I had a short fringe was when I was in standard 6.(primary 6/grade 6) Back then I had it was because I wanted to hide my scar. I was so sensitive about it last time.

I had the scar ever since I was 4 I think. I got 6 stitches on my forehead because yours truly was really hyperactive when she was in kindergarten. I remembered one of the teachers told my mother that she thought I was a mentally incapable child a.k.a retard. If I could see her again I would really ask her, "what made you say that?"

Anyway, I got the scar during recess time in the kindergarten when I was four. At that time I was playing with the rusty slides because the swings were full. (I really like swings)

And suddenly the fated bell rang, which means we have to return back to our respective classrooms as quickly as we can.

But being the way I am then, I played a little longer than others until a teacher was telling us to come back inside the house. I walked in a fast pace (Running of course, there is no walking in a small children's dictionary) and suddenly....

A small boy in my class put his foot in front of me. When I fell he went back into the class. Unfortunately for me, I fell on the sewer lid. At first I didn't really feel anything except a sudden urge to curse. Than...

Drip... Drip... Drip...

Blood started trickling down my forehead. I was like "Oh, shit. What is this red stuff? It's making my uniform dirty..."

I covered my head and went back into the classroom like nothing had happened. Well something did happen and there was a huge evidence on my uniform.

The teacher asked me what happen since I came into the classroom late and all messed up with blood, and covering my forehead. I told her I fell and when she removed my hand from the forehead, blood was starting to fall more.

It was the first time I saw a person become so pale...

The teacher took me to the doctors and I had my forehead stitched back together. I remember going back to the hospital for follow-ups since the cut I had was quite deep. I didn't know that it was so serious back then...

Anyway, afterwards I became really sensitive with my scar. I did not want anyone to see it so I hid it under my fringe. I goes on until I was in primary 6. When I entered my secondary year, I had no choice but to show it since I was wearing the hijab...

But suddenly now, I want to have a fringe again... I having my hair cut really short... Ah, can't wait to go home...

++saykoji89++
++playing with my hair..++

My Top 5 Songs for the Week

5. Don't say Goodbye by EVE

4. Sorry Sorry by Super Junior

3. First Star (Chobyeol) by Kim Heechul

2. I Hope (Barae) by FT Island

1. Lies by BigBang

My sis, Ramy (Ilah)

Today I did something I haven't done in a long time. I searched my nickname on the net.
There are like 2090 results that contains the word 'saykoji89', but most of them are bullshit.
But then, when I was scrolling through the results, I found out that my pet sis (who is also like a sis I never had) has a blog... and so I went and take a look....

Jjang jjang....

God, it was all pink. Just like her Twitter page. Seriously, I can't remember seeing so much pink in my life. (oh wait, I think I have). I don't think that she will know I visited her blog though.

I read through all of her post and well, I don't really think she has changed much. She is still the happy-go-lucky girl on the outside but very sensitive inside.

Anyway, I miss her. I wonder if I get to see her again, will I be the same as I was before or will I be awkward. Or probably just act all insane as I am with Kaizu and Kyoko?

I don't have the answer to that. I really don't. Because I have changed a lot. And by a lot I really mean it.

I'm not the type that keep everything to myself anymore, now that I have two really best friends in the whole world. The one I couldn't imagine I could live without. The three of us are nutcases but all in very different ways.

I notice something about me a few while back. My hands keep shivering like I was hypo on sugar or something. But, nevertheless my sugar intake is normal. (for me)

Maybe this is because I'm growing older day by day. Sometimes I feel like I have a Peter Pan Complex. I don't wanna grow old.

Growing old means responsibilities. Responsible and me don't go in the same place. I am more to I-don't-give-a-f*** kind of attitude.

Ah, I'm really hungry. Now, I shall descend into the hallways looking for potential suckers to mooch ramen off them... ah, somehow this sounds so wrong. Let me rephrase that. I'll be going to a juniors room and ask meggi from them. There much better.

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++All about Korean++

Differences

I don't know why, but i would really like to post this up because I feel like it. Just don't ask me questions and I will tell you no lies....

The one that is always be updated on new Korean songs and dramas, Kaizu
The one that will only know a new song or drama has come out after more than one month, Sayko

The one that will go all out to get what she wants, Kaizu
The one will goes for extreme measures for a short while then suddenly pfft, Sayko

The one that gets to see all the cute-cute doctors in the hospital, Kaizu
The one that imagines the hot doctors all the time, Sayko

The one that will order 'Nasi Goreng Udang' all the time, Kaizu
The one that is allergic to Udang, Sayko

The one that always goes for the happy go lucky and adorable uke, Kaizu
The one that always goes for the cold-blooded seme, Sayko


Next time I'll write about Kyoko, but meanwhile, just bear with this....

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++really losing it++

Naruto new OP and ED

This is Naruto Shippuden's new and latest OP and ED. The OP was amazing that for a second I forgot that Sasuke was silly and stupid because he looked pretty AWESOME in that vid.
The ED, well words can do you no justice. I almost cry watching the vid and the translation of the song is... well... TOO MANY IMPLICATIONS!!!!!! Damn you Piero people!!!

Update

When I'm typing this up, it's already 2:31 am in Malaysia. My fingers are really numb and I'm really freezing my ass off. No, people, Malaysia has a tropical climate and it does not go any lower than 26 degree celcius here. But someone, SOMEONE, changed my air conditioner's temp to 20 degrees. I'm so cold but I'm not willing to get up and turn the thing off. I'll just wait for someone to turn it off tomorrow morning.

I was on a call with my friend the other day and we recap a few things that happen when I was still in my school days.

Friend: I still remember the first time you came to our school. So quiet and so 'skema'.
Me: LOL. The hell I was. I don't know anyone there la at that time.
Friend: But later on you became one of the noisiest in class. Never thought this person is the same as the one transferred earlier.
Me: What to do? First impressions are important you know.
Friend: Impressions my ass. I tell you, you were so quiet back then, I thought you were a two-goody-shoes type. Never scared of people calling you two-faced ah?

Seriously, yeah I'm quiet when I meet new people. If you talk to me, I'll answer only what was asked. Never more. This only happens with people I'm awkward with. I'm still awkward with a few of my classmates especially those in part 5 students. I rarely talk to them unless it's important. But with Kaizu and Kyoko, I'm all but quiet with those two.

On the entertainment side, I really want to watch SuJu performed in Malaysia but people say they won't be here till next April. Even if they were here, I can't go watch them anyway's because I have my finals at that time... Ha~ I really wanted to see Heechul in person and would do almost anything to meet him. I learned a few Korean words and I'd like to travel to Korean if possible. I tried making my own Kim Bap but don't ask me how it turns out....

Anyway, I'm getting awfully sleepy right now, but I still wanted to watch more Heechul videos... Chances are, the laptop is going to watch me sleep.... huhuhu...

++saykoji89++
++watching my future husband doing gags with Hankyung++

Latest update

I got bored of updating my blog in dA, so I'm updating it here. Right now, my latest craze is still Heechul. I don't even care if anyone even call Heenim names anymore, beacuse I know in my heart that I love him for who he is...

Anyway, I have been terribly busy this week with my upcoming proposal. Now that it is all done, I feel so free. Free of all the burden. Maybe now I can find the time to draw. I keep making out story lines in my head, but never actually draw them..

lalalala....
I dunno what else to say...
All I know is....

































I'M STALKING HEECHUL NEXT YEAR!!!!

++saykoji89++
++gone nuts++

My Self Suicide

Seriously guys, I have to stop watching all these variety shows. These shows are going to be the death of me one day. My sides still hurts from last night laughter. I love the laughter, but i hate the pain after. And luck have it, my lecturer in my class today made a few really funny jokes. I tried hard not to laugh, but I have really low willpower. So, all that came out was a combi of ssukso(one sided grin) and a laughter.

wwww (=w=)v

Other than that, the latest news about me is I am really hooked on Heechul. Don't ask me why. But I just really am. But somehow I am really dissapointed because my friends keep saying bad things about him. One friend call him gay and another called him
'half made faggot'. When I hear this I might laugh with them but inside I kinda hurt inside. So there are ANTI-FANS here in Malaysia too...

Is it so bad for me to like asian idols? LOL, I feel like laughing so hard thinking about me liking those western Idols. BsB? Westlife? LOLOLOLOL!!!!!! If it is about idols, I adopt the Japanese motto when they took Malaysia, "Asians are for asians".
Damn right they are. And I booked Heechul for myself. Hahaha....

Anyway, my finals are coming up.

Sad to be an Entertainer

Currently, I have to say that I am head over heels with Super Junior's Kim Heechul. Not only he is very good looking, but he is ultimately crazy and happy-go-lucky too. Or so I thought. Most people know Heechul from his ongoing craziness and pranks. I dare you to look at him once and say, "this is so not my type.."(girls only)

Heechul oppa while he is modeling for NOR clothings. I should get one also..

Ladies, This is as cute as it gets.

Anyway, I wanted to get to Heechul's mini homepage and see what he has written out. Unfortunately, he has shut down (or closed) his HP because there are this so called 'anti-fans' that keep threatening his family and friends. I know Heechul love his family and friends more than anything. There are also rumours saying that right now, he is in depression. I've been into that state before, and let me tell you guys that life doesn't look so good from that point of view.

Is it really a wrong thing to do by being an entertainer? All they did was entertain us. Even if there is someone out there who hates Heechul or any other artist, can't they keep their mouth shut? People don't exist in this world just to make YOU happy. You should really consider other people feelings. There is this one post by Heechul that makes me wanna cry reading it.

After I came back a little while ago, I turned on the internet

and typed in the name 'Kim Heechul'

it might seem funny but.. I haven't searched for my name

before.. almost never..

how should I put it.. it seems unbecoming and..

except for game sites, I don't go on the internet..

Also, it's better not to read any internet posts at all..

is what I thought..

because I received so much insults against my family

when I first debuted(-┏)

Then about 4 years? It's been more than 4 years..

for the first time in a long while, I read various posts

posts about me.. related search items.. new stories..

surprising posts..

I went into blogs.. pictures of me that I didn't know about..

incidents related to me..

It made me think.. I really receive a lot of love

It's difficult to say thanks.. I was someone who was

embarrassed even to just hear the words, but..

even though it made me squirm a bit..ㅋ I thought..

folks are gracious enough to like me a lot

And through other people, I visited various cafes

Because my password is always changed..

it's difficult for me to join using my own

The saddest thing is that even if I change my phone number,

everyone seems to know (the new number) within 24 hours..

Anyways, the thing I realized after visiting all sorts of cafes..

there are a lot of people who really dislike me also..

is what I thoughtㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Even from an early age, I was a kid who divided people's

opinions (likes and dislikes) so.. I laughed a bit

'Even getting older, nothing's changed'

Today was a day that I didn't have any energy so

I feebly read posts about myself..

There were a lot of posts that made me frown, but

there were also posts that made fun of me and yet still

contained some senseㅋㅋ

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(regarding rumors that have been floating around)

There were nicknames that had originality

and some that were experts of language..ㅋ

That's not to say that they were good(-┏)

It made me feel bad, but it was a bit humorousㅋㅋ

If I say that it's true, are you going to say that it's true..

and if I say it's not true, are you going to say it's not?^-^

(in response to those who wanted him to respond to the rumors)

I opened up both the fan cafe and anti cafe at the same time

and went back and forth from one to another ..

before I could get a sense that I liked or disliked something,

the one thing that came to my mind

'Being alive in itself is really something to be happy about..'

why.. you know the feeling.. being really happy just to be

breathing..

I want to be able to go on a trip by myself..

a place with a mountain where a river flows..

There are often times when I look at the clouds moving

above the sky and stare blankly without a thought

and times when I stare intensely at the hands on a clock..

lately I've been doing that a lot

I no longer have any pictures to post on my minihompy..

and it's been a long time since I've taken a self-camera pic..

Having to change my password often.. getting hacked..

I thought of getting rid of my hompy..

Oftentimes I talk to my fans about this and that

I guess it's something obvious, but..

they absolutely won't let me get rid of it(-┏)

My childhood friends have gotten married and..

have cute babies.. now I have kids who call me uncle^-^

'Who am I going to get married to in the future..',

'Am I going to be able to get married..'

I don't know when, but the feeling of loving someone has

faded

my heart beating faster.. butterflies.. heart being cold..

all those feelings have disappeared..

Drinking soju at home alone

because I don't like places with a lot of people..

Smoking a cigarette after quitting.. then quitting..

then smoking.. then quitting again..

Getting older and wiser..

doesn't always seem to be a good thing

My eyes which should look to the future

keeps getting entangled in only reminiscence..

There was a book that I was writing while carrying

around my laptop

The title 'Sellectice and His Friend Karrion'

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

It contained things I wrote when I was young and

things that I thought about

Of course, it all disappeared when I got in the accident..ㅋㅋ

I like writing so much so that it's still a dream of mine

Saying that I have a 'dream'..

it seems somewhat awkward and a bit silly

Right now

I've been writing this post for nearly 3 hours..ㅋ

listening to this song and that..

looking outside then looking at Heebum..

Right now Choi Jae Hoon-nim's

'잊을 수 없는 너 (You Whom I Can't Forget)' is playing

I bought this latest album too.. Choi Jae Hoon-nim whose

songs are extremely touching..

별리 (Separation), 안녕 (Goodbye), 널 보낸 후에 (After Letting

You Go), 마지막 비 (Last Rain), 슬픈 운명 (Sad Destiny)

etc. etc..ㅠ_ㅠ

FT Island's '사랑하지마요 (Don't Love)' is playing nowㅋㅋ

Every time I meet Hongki, I always ask him to sing thisㅋㅋ

Difficult incidents, sad incidents, depressing incidents,

hurtful incidents, wounding incidents..

Even though it's a life overflowing with pain..

I would like you to always smile^-^

Heechul oppa, please don't be depressed anymore and return to your old cheerful self. And when Super Junior comes to Malaysia next year, I'll be there to support oppa. We can't really stop what people are saying about us but we certainly don't want people to talk bad behind us... So guys and gals, think about it....

++saykoji89++
++In supporting Heechul++

Long Time No See

Hey blog,
Remember me? Your owner? The one that always write and post silly and emo stuff to you? Well, sorry I didn't post as much nowdays. You see, being the sayko I am, I like to sign up for the silliest stuff and ignore all the old things online. Right now I am just focusing on one site which is my dA account. But I promise I'll get back to you soon, since I am not going to get tired of dA, but I am getting tired of facebook. Sorry again dear blog. Love you..

Yours Truly,
SAYKO

++ignoring other sites for dA++
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WTF???

Ah, sebenarnya aku nak kuar dis Saturday tapi disebabkan keadaan yg tidak mengizinkan, aku kena pikir balik 2, 3, 4, 5 kali... Aku nak tengok Harry Potter!!!! Ah, my laling Draco.... Oh, selsema babi, kenapa lah ko melanda negeri melaka dulu. huhuhu... melalut x tentu hala...

Mind Your Language

I have been reading my past post, and I wonder. How come recently, my language are quite vulgar. Vulgar as in really bad. I think it all started because I can't stand with 'that person' I hate most. And since I'm not saying it to her face, might as well go all the way to curse her. People might say,

"..you're just a coward, go tell it to her face..."

Telling it to her straight? Then what, she'll cry to her mom because I said such words? So not worth the trouble of me being scold. She is such a crybaby and a bitch is I might add. She thinks she's so preety but she's not. She thinks she is being so majestic cause she is friends with 'anak dato'? I don't give a fuck. Aku pun ade kawan ngan anak dato' gak, tapi x de pun prangai aku macam kau.

I don't get it? Why do people want to be jelous of others? It doesn't bring them any good. If jelousy was for a good thing than, I don't mind.

AHHHHH!!!! THINKKING ABOUT HER WILL MAKE MY BRAIN ROT!!!!! Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. Ahh.... Pasta~~~!!!

++trying to not make my brain rot++

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Lappie Cleaning Time!!!

Well, usually every few months, I would turn my lappie inside out to to some spring cleaning, though it is not always during spring. In this few days, my lappie keep crashing so i decided, i need to make space so my virtual memory wouldn't be so high. (don't ask me what i'm talking about, coz i don't have a clue) So, here I go, with a cute chibitalia costume, to clean my lappie's hard disk.

kya, kya, time for cleaning....

While i was cleaning, I just noticed, no wonder my lappie always crashed. I only have around 560Mb left of hard disk space. I know I have been downloading a lot of videos and songs lately, and don't even try to ask whether is it legal or not. Whoever does not know, my lappie is a very, very old model, Acer Travelmate 240, and I am proud to have it and if possible do not want to replace it. I have 2 very good reasons for that. The first one is because it's durability is really high. It has already withstand a lot of falls from the bed and being soaked in water. Right now, it is working perfectly well. The second reason is I am very lazy to transfer 20Gb worth of anime and manga to another lappie. it will take a very long time.

Anyway, since I only have about 560Mb left, I went to my folder to see what is taking up so much space. My guess is the songs but I was wrong. It was the videos. Last month I just deleted 4 of my favourite anime to make space for Hetalia but I had a lot of space left. What I'm trying to say here, actually cleaning my lappie is a useless act because I will clog it up with all my otaku-ness.


++peace out, y'all++
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Latest Obsession

Yes dear readers. I have found my latest stalking object. It's Inoue Joe. Wonder how I get so obsessed over him? I wonder. All I know is Kaizu is tired of hearing my squealing about him, so I post it up here. I really think his face looks too familiar.

I like all his song. Some raises the spirit, and some just made me cry...

But I what I really like is his sense of fashion. Wayyy cool.... Kakkoi...

This is what made me fall in love with him...

he's so cute in this pic. I tried to draw kenji in his clothes. currently in the inking process. when I'm done, I'll post it up here.

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++it has been a long time since i post up anything++