Paranoia

Have you ever been paranoid of something? Like heights or closed spaces? Well if it's just being scared, it would be phobia. But what I'm trying to say here is when you are scared of that thing and becomes delusional. That's what you call paranoid.

You see these few days, I have this unusual paranoia of doppelgangers and mirrors. Everytime I look at them i feel so... scared...

This is all that stupid show's fault. Stupid people looking at their doppelgangers in the in the mirror.

I hated mirror since I was small and I blame that on a local magazine called Gempak. They showed they to see ghost at night and being the innocent child I was back then, I did the stupid peel the apple in front of a mirror at midnight. I was so scared that I can't look into a mirror for years...

Now I'm scared of doppelgangers too. My uncle saw one of himself when he was in his office. My friend saw one of mine when in school. I once had an interaction with a doppelganger but never did I see the face. Only the voice...

Uh, I wanna forget this whole shit quickly!!!

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++they say when you see your own doppelganger, don't follow it++

Last~

These 2 weeks will be my last week of holiday~ Then it's on towards a new semester~ I'm trying to draw a sasunaru implied artwork. I have the bases but so lazy to do the details.

But when I heard the song "will be alright" by KAT-TUN, I felt energized. Besides, it has been quite sometime since I last submit a proper art to dA~ So, I'll try to finish it by the end of the week!

Oh, and my quote for this time around is

"Please tell me how to heal these wounds without tears"

This is taken from KAT-TUN's new song No More Pain (N.M.P), Junno and Ueda's part~

So wait for my new artwork on dA.

Till then~

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Lol, really epic ShiZaya pic..

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You know~

I used to have someone I really look up to. I really, really admired her when I was small. She taught me about almost everything. Whatever she did, I wanna do it as well. But it turns out that now she's different. In a lot of ways. I don't know what to do when I see her again. I have been thinking about it these few days. What am I gonna say. How am I gonna act?

Well, I will be myself, and if she still likes me for who I am, I'll be glad. If not, I don't even give a fuck. I don't have to make her like me, it's not like I'm gonna see her everyday of my life... So be it.

On a totally unrelated story, I might have pushed a lil too much button on Waru on dA. right now, all I can do is accept my fate as it is for whatever is coming for me~

I can see it now, he might be burning me alive or drop that shitbomb on me~ * shudder*

It's been a few days since I got to take my usual afternoon nap and I am getting grouchy. Whenever somethings annoy me I feel like flinging them to the wall. So far, the victims of my PMS is my phone, a few books, my pencil and my sketch pad. I need to take a nap~

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++major headache from lack of napping++

I have a jealous Kenji in my Hands~

Sigh, what to do. Kenji is really mad at me for falling fob the giant Pikachu~

Huhuhu, I'm sorry Kenji. You know that you'll always be number 1 in my heart!

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++kenji will forever be in my heart ++

Outing~

Today I went out wif Kyoko and Ann. Played bowling, window shopping and apparently, I found new ideas for girl's outfit. (not that I draw girls much often). I took pics wif a giant PIKACHU~ (Kenji will be so jealous of me)

me and my giant loving Pikachu~ Can we take it home, please~

Ah, I want to go out wif laling and kyoko so I could take purikura. Kyoko said we can do the purikura when laling is there~

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