Itsuka kanarazu koto wa wasurena

This is the PV for UVERworld's single Itsuka Kanarazu Koto wa Wasurena which if literally translated would mean "Don't forget that you will surely die one day"

This song is one of my favourite songs from UVERworld after Kami Atsume and before Hakuchuumu... Anyway, credit goes to ambersubs for subbing the video. Enjoy~

++saykoji89++

++UVERworld always comes out with a song that goes with my mood++

Giving all the fuck

Wow, I am amazed by some people who doesn't know the word responsibility. You must have led an easy life. Anything that burdens you, dump it. Pass it to someone else. Leave the project. Wow, just.... wow...

I am not saying that I am the most responsible person on earth. I'm not even close. But here's the thing, I don't ditch it last minute. Yes, there are a lot of things that I've fucked up in my life. But I faced the damn thing until the end of the fucked up thing even if I know it will fail for sure. Why? Because I feel that it's not fair for me to give up easily when others have to face the failure.

Yes, I have been given a position that scares me if I fail, and yes, I did fail the position epicly. But the thing is I didn't gave up. And I was also given stuff that I hated and terrified of to handle. Yes, I was afraid but I took time to adjust and went on with it. Scared as hell, yes. Project complete, yes.

So I am really, really impressed with people who can leave whatever their working on without a single fuck. Impressed, I am but annoyed when they bitch about it to their other friends. Bitch, do you even think what shit you left for others who have to handle? You, my friend, deserve a clap, in your face, with 2 cymbals...

++saykoji89++

So fucked up

My life at the moment is a big bowl of crap. Although it might not seem like it but that is exactly what I'm feeling right now. I want to scream, cry, throw something at someone, punch them till I feel better but somehow I can't bring myself to do anything... And yes, I also felt like cutting myself like I used to do but I promised myself not to. Cutting is kinda like a drug, at first you do it only a bit but sooner or later you'll get addicted to it and I'll be back at square one.

I am so fed up with everything that I can't even cry even if it hurts so much. Everyday I smile, I laugh with others but somehow it's all on the outside. On the inside, it still hurts. It's painful. I'm surrounded by people yet I feel very lonely. And that is the worst loneliness of all.

Currently everything pisses me off. Even things that I normally don't give a fuck to. But the thing that pisses me off the most right now is that everytime I try to get a proper sleep, there would be these annoying noises that will wake me up. Fuck those. I hate myself for unable to ignore all those noises and just continue to sleep like normal people would.

Moral of the story: I just need some proper fucking sleep before I drive myself insane.

To Kaizu and Kyoko

I need this book

Seriously....

Oh so true

But you can never be too careful so you come up with all this creative names to confuse him even more, just in case he's reading your blog.

Been there,

Done that,

Still doing it~

++saykoji89++

++damn flu++

Genius~

'So long as we maybe;

Till the time we separate,

Always be with me.

You must never

At all forget your duties towards me.

While I am far,

Always think of me,

Yet still managing the house,

For me.

Rest assure that till the time you get,

Old, I will watch over you.

My time,

My strength, will be for us both for,

Ever.'

++saykoji89++

++I love daddy++

I don't know why I still do this..

This is exactly how I feel when I get a text from someone I hardly knew or someone I like... I'll type and delete, then typed again and delete it again and the process goes on until I feel like the reply won't make me sound like some idiot psychopath or some bastard with sticks up their ass.

Usually the ones who'll get replies without me needing to edit and 'tapis' my text is my family and laling and kyoko since they already knew my crazy randomness, Even my mom say, if I start acting normal, something is wrong with me.

But for everyone else, especially the one I'm awkward with, yes, I'll stare at the text for 15 minutes trying to think of a proper response. The less awkward I am with you, the faster you'll get my replies..

++saykoji89++

++I'm anti-social++

The lies teachers told us...

Half-assed doodles

This are the doodles I did during the holidays.. I'm so lazy to use the scanner thus I only took using my phone camera. (My dad's actually) So... enjoy?

++saykoji89++

++so lazy to edit the pics++

No updates...

Not much update for today, but I'll just upload whatever doodle I did during this holiday break....

....tomorrow.

It's not that I don't want to upload it, it's just that the scanner is in my parents room. So, I'll scan it tomorrow, and post it up tomorrow. If I don't.... I'll will never eat PB&J ever again...

++saykoji89++

++I failed my mission++

My name according to Urban Dictionary

LOL, I didn't know people with the same name as me has this kind of characteristic? But I like the first definition, there's a bit of truth in there... I think..

++saykoji89++

++In so much pain++

Differences between now and 10 years ago

Because I was bored to the point of dying, I managed to recover my past diaries that I have been keeping ever since I was still an elementary kid. When I compare them, it's funny to think how much I have changed over the past 10 years. Here are a few examples:

Bedtime

10 years ago: The latest is by 11 pm but I'd be asleep by 10pm.

Now: 3 am would be the earliest.

When I'm bored:

10 years ago: I take a pencil and paper and let my imagination flow.

Now: Internet.

Communicate with friends:

10 years ago: Hours and hours on the phone using the house line.

Now: Facebook, Twitter, etc

Going out:

10 years ago: As often as I could.

Now: I rather stay home.

Opinion of guys:

10 years ago: FRIENDS!!!

Now: Is he gay?

Opinion of girls:

10 years ago: Bitchy

Now: Sluts and whores

Swear words:

10 years ago: Stupid, idiot etc

Now: Fuck!

So, how have you change? I know I seem to change for the worse but all that is a part of growing up right? Right? Ah, who cares? Look at all the fuck I give. (which is none by the way) Till then, cheerio good sir~

++saykoji89++

++I'm trying to act like I'm a Brit++

Homaigod...

I was searching for a good book to read just now and I found my diary that I kept in 2006. So I decided to read it and see what are the moments I had in 2006. It turns out that I used to have a boyfriend... Shocker that. Where was I during the entire relationship? Not kidding, I didn't remember a single thing.

According to my diary, I knew him somewhere in February 2006 and we broke up somewhere in May 2007. He gave me a lot of stuff (which I can't remember) through postage since I was in Labuan and he was in Shah Alam at that time, and I kept all his PosLaju slips in the diary...

Apparently, I was the one who broke up with him because according to my diary, I was bored with him. Is that the reason I forgot him completely? Because he bores me? Oh God, I do that to people?? Luckily I kept those memories in my diary, if not I would probably have forgotten about him till God knows when...

Human minds are really capable of doing something we never thought of doing. Then mind, please help me erase the existence of this certain guy. I'm bored of him too...

++saykoji89++

++Pijo, I'm so sorry++

Please understand me

True story

Oh my heart...

I miss someone.. But at the same time, I don't think I miss him that much and yet I think of him all day... But it is not like I miss him all that much... But I can't get him of my mind...

WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO???

++saykoji89++

++please stop trolling++

p/s: Laling, it's penguin if that is what you're wondering.

You know what...

FUCK MY LIFE!

..sekian, terima kasih.

++saykoji89++

++why the fuck??++

I've experienced this before....

This makes me think

True Story

Story of my life

How true

100 Truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:

* Last beverage: Milk
* Last phone call: Laling
* Last text message: Twitter
* Last song you listened to: Numb by Linkin Park
* Last time you cried: Few nights ago for no reason

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Dated someone twice: Hah??
* Been cheated on: Not sure...
* Kissed someone & regretted it: Kiss my brother and he regret it.
* Lost someone special: Yes.
* Been depressed: Always, whenever I'm not high.
* Been drunk and threw up: Nope, never drank alcohol.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOUR:
Blue, Orange and Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2011):

* Made a new friend: Yes
* Fallen out of love: Yes
* Laughed until you cried: A few times
* Met someone who changed you: Yes
* Found out who your true friends were: Yup
* Found out someone was talking about you: Not this year coz I don't give a damn
* Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes, on the cheek
* How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: around 95%
* How many kids do you want?: 2
* Do you have any pets: My lovely, lovely red-eared sliders
* Do you want to change your name: Not for the time being, but I do want to change my nickname
* What did you do for your last birthday: nothing, literally.
* What time did you wake up today: 1 pm
* What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting
* Name something you CANNOT wait for: To get my own car
* Last time you saw your Mother: Just now
* What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: None
* What are you listening to right now: Music on my lappie
* Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes
* What's getting on your nerves right now: Something that I can't say here
* Most visited webpage: Facebook
* Whats your real name: Nur Sharain
* Nicknames: Sayko
* Relationship Status: Single but not available
* Zodiac sign: Aquarius
* Male or female?: Female
* Primary School?: SRK Sri subang Jaya 2 & SK Bandar Sunway
* Secondary School?: SMK Bandar Sunway, SMK SS17, SBPI Sabak Bernam, SM Sains Labuan
* High school/college?: Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, UiTM Shah Alam, UiTM Melaka Kampus Lendu, MMU
* Hair colour: Black wit kinda brownish
* Long or short: Short
* Height: Last check 170cm.
* Do you have a crush on someone?: At the moment?
* What do you like about yourself?: My randomness.
* Piercings: None
* Tattoos: None
* Righty or left: Now righty.

FIRSTS :

* First surgery: When I was six, but it was a minor one.
* First piercing: None
* First sport you joined: Badminton
* First vacation: The first one I remember is to Langkawi.

RIGHT NOW:

* Eating: Just ate homemade corn-in-cup
* Drinking: Nothing
* I'm about to: Tweet something
* Listening to: No Air by Jordin Sparks
* Waiting on: ....something

YOUR FUTURE:

* Want kids?: sure
* Get Married?: duh... see above.
* Career?: Animator

WHICH IS BETTER:
* Lips or eyes: of course both
* Hugs or kisses: both
* Shorter or taller: Taller
*Older or Younger: Older
* Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
* Nice stomach or nice arms: I'd say arms.
* Sensitive or loud: Someone in the middle
* Hook-up or relationship: Scandal~
* Trouble maker or hesitant: Someone who's not boring.

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Kissed a stranger: No
* Drank hard liquor: Not in my lifetime
* Lost glasses/contacts: Lost it... then found it... then lost it again...
* Sex on first date: Hell no
* Broken someone's heart: I don't know
* Been arrested: Not yet...
* Turned someone down: I think so..
* Cried when someone died: I'm not heartless
* Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

* Yourself: Sometimes
* Miracles: Probably
* Love at first sight: NO.SUCH.LUCK
* Heaven: Yes
* Santa Claus: No
* Kiss on the first date: No
* Angels: The real angel


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

* Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Yes?
* Did you sing today?: YES!!!
* Ever cheated on somebody?: Yeah..
* If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: My school days
* If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : None, apparently last year sucks
* Are you afraid of falling in love?: Not really...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY
Fly Me to the Moon

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
S.O.S

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Solo

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fall For You

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
4 in the Morning

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Today is Gonna be A Great Day

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lemon Tree

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Day You Went Away

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ghost of You

10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
I Don't Wanna Know

It's kinda funny

I just finished crying for no apparent reason. Now that I think about it, it's kinda funny... I was laughing and all and suddenly my mood drops. All of the sudden I feel sad and started crying on my own.. If other people saw it, they might think I'm nuts...

Actually, I'm just trying to cheer myself up but failing epicly. I might go cool my head in the showers if this feeling doesn't go away soon...

++saykoji89++

++I feel empty++