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Guys, for the time being I decided to deactivate my facebook since it's becoming too distactive and my finals are coming up.

Please contact me through this blog and deviantart.

Minna-san, Gomen!!!

++saykoji89++

++I had to do it++

Wounded

This is a song by Good Charlotte entitled "Wounded"

Lost and broken,
Hopeless and lonely.
Smiling on the outside,
and hurt beneath my skin.

My eyes are fading,
My soul is bleeding.
I'll try to make it seem okay,
But my faith is wearing thin.

So help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open,
And I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me sew them up.

I only wanted a magazine,
I only wanted a movie screen,
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed.
And now my mind is an open book,
And now my heart is an open wound,
And now my life is an open soul for all to see.

But help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open and I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me,
So you come along,
I push you away,
Then kick and scream for you to stay.
Cuz I need someone to help me,
Oh I need someone to help me,
To help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open,
And I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me sew them,
I need someone to help me fill them,
I need someone to help me close them up.

Hear the song here.

++saykoji89++

++somehow I kinda relate to this song++

What the hell is his problems???

*I am about to use very vulgar language in this post. You have been warned*

I am really upset right now that I feel so sick. I feel like I'm gonna barf any moment due to this unreleased tension. What the hell is his fucking problem?! If you have a fucking attitude problem, go jump off a building or something.

What is so wrong with my hobbies. So I like to draw and play games, is it wrong? Is it a sin? Is it so disgusting that you have to make that ugly facial expression? Why is it that everything I do, you never seem to get tired of making fun of it. Just because I have dreams and ambition, and you rather throw your life down the drains, it doesn't mean that my dreams are ridiculous.

I might seem like I don't give a fuck about what you just said but it really hurts me deep inside. Are you happy knowing that I cried myself to sleep almost every night? Are you so happy that you make my life seems so fucking miserable?

I know I used to give a damn about what people say about me, but I feel like I'm cracking and breaking down. I just like to wonder if I died will all of them be a little happier? I won't be an eyesore to them any longer. If this was it, wouldn't it be better if I die?

I really feel like breaking down. I don't know how much longer I can stay like this. Having friends might be helpful, but how far can a friend help you? It doesn't help either if you are the black sheep of the family. I know my family loves me despite the way I behaved but I can feel their annoyance when I do something bad. And I don't know why I keep stretching their patience. Why I am like this? Just where did I go so wrong?

I feel really, really sick right now. I can feel my stomach's churning all around, I feeling like throwing up, I feel so cold and hopeless. I don't want to care anymore. Just let the fucking world move on, and see if I care.

I want to run away. Away to a place where it's thosand of miles away. Would anybody notice if I'm gone? Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?

It seems...

Lately it seems that I might be doing nothing with my artworks. That is SO not true. I'm concentrating on this single artwork that I'm not doing anything else for the time being.


I haven't even post this picture up in dA because I wanted to post the complete picture with color. The thing that has been getting me so long to color it is that when I used the Photoshop on my friends PC (don't ask where's mine), it tend to close so suddenly that I can't get a chance to save my work.

So, it's like I have to the same thing over and over again which is a bitch. At times, I just close the whole thing. So, that is why it's taking me such a long time. But I promise to try and finish it up soon.

BTW, a random question here, what would be of Super Junior when there is no more Hankyung? And will all post about Hankyung will be deleted on SuJu's fan page? Will they post anymore updates on Hankyung?

++saykoji89++
++...++

DO NOT

DO NOT assume that we're friends if all we ever did was talk a few times.

DO NOT assume we're buddies if we only share a few things in common.

DO NOT assume I like you even if I am being nice to you.

DO NOT assume you know me when you don't even know half of the truth about me.

DO NOT assume I'm a lessie when I walk holding hands with another girl.

DO NOT assume I'm gay when you see me drawing two guys together.

DO NOT assume I'm tough even if I look tough on the outside.

DO NOT assume I'm sane when you don't know what is going on in my brain.

DO NOT assume I don't care when I ignore things.

DO NOT assume I like the ways things are even when I don't complain.

DO NOT assume that I hate things even when I do complain.

DO NOT assume that I'm okay even if I don't cuss you back for cussing me.

and furthermore...

DO NOT assume that I trust you even if you are the closest person to me.


++saykoji89++
++why do people keep assuming?++

Is Hankyung Coming Back???

I'm so excited when I read this. Is he coming back to SuJu? Or is he just back in the entertainment world? I don't effing care because the hopes alone made me smile like I never smiled before!

This was taken from Hankyung's cyworld message but he already deleted it...

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“Wait for me to return, hehe~~~When I have time, I’ll be back… I love you all!!! Take good care of yourselves!!”

* the message is no longer in his cy

cr: hangeng cyworld
trans: ydnim @omonatheydidnt livejournal
reup by stalker93@sapphirepearls.com

reup by saykoji89.

++saykoji89++

++don't worry hankyung, I will be waiting for your return with 12 other angels++

Naruto 486 Spoiler

I saw this spoiler at 3.30 in the morning and I have already cry my heart out last night.
I can't wait for the manga to be out this week and I'll cry again but I'll be happy.
And Masashi just have to stop his unfocused ramblings.

You guys might wonder what I'm talking about right?
It is the spoiler for Naruto Chapter 486 that is due to come out on the 11th March.
It has been verified but I don't know how far the truth is.
All I know is that I enjoy the tears.
Kekekeke.... On with the spoiler....

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More yaoi than this........Warning Naruto 486 spoiler

Naruto: I get it, if we fight seriously now we'll both die.
Naruto: You're a friend! That's why I'll shoulder your hatred together with you by dying with you.
Sakura cries upon hearing this.
Sasuke: You don't understand anything about pain - I won't die - you alone will die.
Kakashi: You must become Hokage so let me take care of Sasuke!
Naruto: "I can't become Hokage if I can't even save a single friend! I'm going to fight Sasuke!!!"

what kind of option is "I'll kill Sasuke and die myself, as well"


++saykoji89++
++Being happy and sad at the same time is my speciality++

p/s---> Hankyung is saying to wait for him. Is he coming back???!!! I'm so excited!!!

New Hairstyle

Hey, this is sayko saying hi after a short hiatus due to a few reasons. (lazy actually)
But look at the pic below....

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Recognize this guy? He is actually Kenji. I just change his hairstyle for the better. But I had to put up with his non-stop nagging about why I changed his hair-do. I swear he can nag like a woman....

Anyway there this short sketch I did of him wif KsK... the dialogue goes like this...

Kenji: Hey guys, what do you think o my new hairstyle?

Kaizu & Kyoko: ....

Kenji: come on, be honest...

Kaizu: Banana!

Kyoko: Octopus sausage!

Kenji: .....why did I have to ask them.... (depressed)



So, now he's nagging me to change back his hairstyle. But he have to wait now that I'm busy with exams and sasunaru artworks. Be happy with your 'Char Gundam' hairstlye. kekekeke....

++saykoji89++
++I can be so evil sometimes++