Fuck This

I have no idea what just happened. Okay, maybe not just happened, and maybe it's been dragging on for quite sometime now. I can't bitch at twitter, since some people will call it spamming with my mood swings. And I can't post it on facebook doesn't seem private any longer. I can only rely on my blog then.

Anyway, I was scrolling through FB just now and I found this comment left on a page by one of my supposedly friends on fb. When I read it, I was like "what the fuck?". I know it may or may not seem to target at me or my clique of friends but seriously, what the fuck?

Call me over-thinking or paranoid but I have a feeling there is a conspiracy somewhere. I get the feeling that people seem to think I hate them. When I want to hate, I'll hate. But for now, I don't see any reason to hate anyone. Even when I say I hate you, it's in a playful tone. If I really hate you, I wouldn't give a fuck about you.

And yes, I am random. I have mood swings. Happy? Wanna know why I have mood swings? Want to know why I am random? It's because I have ADHD and Bipolar. Have no clue about that, go google it. If you can read this why not google it, I have no time explaining to the likes of you. But, wait. Even if you did read about it on google, you would know how it feels, asshole. Cause you don't go through it.

You never did feel how it's like to cry for no apparent reason. You never did feel how it's like to be so alone in the most crowded place. You never know how it's like to have blades tearing your skin when you prefer physical pain rather than emotional pains. You never did feel what it's like to smile when all you want to do is cry and go rampage. You never did feel what it's like to be me. And yet you people fucking judged me. I never judged you.

Yes, I'm being emo, but who the hell cares. This is just crossing the boundaries. Even I have my limits to where I can tolerate this bloody thing. I don't give a damn if you're reading this or not, but I just want you to know, fuck you. Thank you for being the ultimate hypocrite. I have never expected that from you. Job well done. If you're being a hypocrite, I can be one too.

I don't hate people without a reason and this, my friend, is a good enough reason for me.

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Halloween event

My Halloween night with the ghost house event rolling on. This is me and my club prez. Guess which one is me~ Hint: I wear a hoodie~ hahahahaha~

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY (although it has passed)

++saykoji89++

++tired and sick++

Itsuka kanarazu koto wa wasurena

This is the PV for UVERworld's single Itsuka Kanarazu Koto wa Wasurena which if literally translated would mean "Don't forget that you will surely die one day"

This song is one of my favourite songs from UVERworld after Kami Atsume and before Hakuchuumu... Anyway, credit goes to ambersubs for subbing the video. Enjoy~

++saykoji89++

++UVERworld always comes out with a song that goes with my mood++

Giving all the fuck

Wow, I am amazed by some people who doesn't know the word responsibility. You must have led an easy life. Anything that burdens you, dump it. Pass it to someone else. Leave the project. Wow, just.... wow...

I am not saying that I am the most responsible person on earth. I'm not even close. But here's the thing, I don't ditch it last minute. Yes, there are a lot of things that I've fucked up in my life. But I faced the damn thing until the end of the fucked up thing even if I know it will fail for sure. Why? Because I feel that it's not fair for me to give up easily when others have to face the failure.

Yes, I have been given a position that scares me if I fail, and yes, I did fail the position epicly. But the thing is I didn't gave up. And I was also given stuff that I hated and terrified of to handle. Yes, I was afraid but I took time to adjust and went on with it. Scared as hell, yes. Project complete, yes.

So I am really, really impressed with people who can leave whatever their working on without a single fuck. Impressed, I am but annoyed when they bitch about it to their other friends. Bitch, do you even think what shit you left for others who have to handle? You, my friend, deserve a clap, in your face, with 2 cymbals...

++saykoji89++

So fucked up

My life at the moment is a big bowl of crap. Although it might not seem like it but that is exactly what I'm feeling right now. I want to scream, cry, throw something at someone, punch them till I feel better but somehow I can't bring myself to do anything... And yes, I also felt like cutting myself like I used to do but I promised myself not to. Cutting is kinda like a drug, at first you do it only a bit but sooner or later you'll get addicted to it and I'll be back at square one.

I am so fed up with everything that I can't even cry even if it hurts so much. Everyday I smile, I laugh with others but somehow it's all on the outside. On the inside, it still hurts. It's painful. I'm surrounded by people yet I feel very lonely. And that is the worst loneliness of all.

Currently everything pisses me off. Even things that I normally don't give a fuck to. But the thing that pisses me off the most right now is that everytime I try to get a proper sleep, there would be these annoying noises that will wake me up. Fuck those. I hate myself for unable to ignore all those noises and just continue to sleep like normal people would.

Moral of the story: I just need some proper fucking sleep before I drive myself insane.

To Kaizu and Kyoko

I need this book

Seriously....

Oh so true

But you can never be too careful so you come up with all this creative names to confuse him even more, just in case he's reading your blog.

Been there,

Done that,

Still doing it~

++saykoji89++

++damn flu++

Genius~

'So long as we maybe;

Till the time we separate,

Always be with me.

You must never

At all forget your duties towards me.

While I am far,

Always think of me,

Yet still managing the house,

For me.

Rest assure that till the time you get,

Old, I will watch over you.

My time,

My strength, will be for us both for,

Ever.'

++saykoji89++

++I love daddy++

I don't know why I still do this..

This is exactly how I feel when I get a text from someone I hardly knew or someone I like... I'll type and delete, then typed again and delete it again and the process goes on until I feel like the reply won't make me sound like some idiot psychopath or some bastard with sticks up their ass.

Usually the ones who'll get replies without me needing to edit and 'tapis' my text is my family and laling and kyoko since they already knew my crazy randomness, Even my mom say, if I start acting normal, something is wrong with me.

But for everyone else, especially the one I'm awkward with, yes, I'll stare at the text for 15 minutes trying to think of a proper response. The less awkward I am with you, the faster you'll get my replies..

++saykoji89++

++I'm anti-social++

The lies teachers told us...

Half-assed doodles

This are the doodles I did during the holidays.. I'm so lazy to use the scanner thus I only took using my phone camera. (My dad's actually) So... enjoy?

++saykoji89++

++so lazy to edit the pics++

No updates...

Not much update for today, but I'll just upload whatever doodle I did during this holiday break....

....tomorrow.

It's not that I don't want to upload it, it's just that the scanner is in my parents room. So, I'll scan it tomorrow, and post it up tomorrow. If I don't.... I'll will never eat PB&J ever again...

++saykoji89++

++I failed my mission++

My name according to Urban Dictionary

LOL, I didn't know people with the same name as me has this kind of characteristic? But I like the first definition, there's a bit of truth in there... I think..

++saykoji89++

++In so much pain++

Differences between now and 10 years ago

Because I was bored to the point of dying, I managed to recover my past diaries that I have been keeping ever since I was still an elementary kid. When I compare them, it's funny to think how much I have changed over the past 10 years. Here are a few examples:

Bedtime

10 years ago: The latest is by 11 pm but I'd be asleep by 10pm.

Now: 3 am would be the earliest.

When I'm bored:

10 years ago: I take a pencil and paper and let my imagination flow.

Now: Internet.

Communicate with friends:

10 years ago: Hours and hours on the phone using the house line.

Now: Facebook, Twitter, etc

Going out:

10 years ago: As often as I could.

Now: I rather stay home.

Opinion of guys:

10 years ago: FRIENDS!!!

Now: Is he gay?

Opinion of girls:

10 years ago: Bitchy

Now: Sluts and whores

Swear words:

10 years ago: Stupid, idiot etc

Now: Fuck!

So, how have you change? I know I seem to change for the worse but all that is a part of growing up right? Right? Ah, who cares? Look at all the fuck I give. (which is none by the way) Till then, cheerio good sir~

++saykoji89++

++I'm trying to act like I'm a Brit++

Homaigod...

I was searching for a good book to read just now and I found my diary that I kept in 2006. So I decided to read it and see what are the moments I had in 2006. It turns out that I used to have a boyfriend... Shocker that. Where was I during the entire relationship? Not kidding, I didn't remember a single thing.

According to my diary, I knew him somewhere in February 2006 and we broke up somewhere in May 2007. He gave me a lot of stuff (which I can't remember) through postage since I was in Labuan and he was in Shah Alam at that time, and I kept all his PosLaju slips in the diary...

Apparently, I was the one who broke up with him because according to my diary, I was bored with him. Is that the reason I forgot him completely? Because he bores me? Oh God, I do that to people?? Luckily I kept those memories in my diary, if not I would probably have forgotten about him till God knows when...

Human minds are really capable of doing something we never thought of doing. Then mind, please help me erase the existence of this certain guy. I'm bored of him too...

++saykoji89++

++Pijo, I'm so sorry++

Please understand me

True story

Oh my heart...

I miss someone.. But at the same time, I don't think I miss him that much and yet I think of him all day... But it is not like I miss him all that much... But I can't get him of my mind...

WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO???

++saykoji89++

++please stop trolling++

p/s: Laling, it's penguin if that is what you're wondering.

You know what...

FUCK MY LIFE!

..sekian, terima kasih.

++saykoji89++

++why the fuck??++

I've experienced this before....

This makes me think

True Story

Story of my life

How true

100 Truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:

* Last beverage: Milk
* Last phone call: Laling
* Last text message: Twitter
* Last song you listened to: Numb by Linkin Park
* Last time you cried: Few nights ago for no reason

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Dated someone twice: Hah??
* Been cheated on: Not sure...
* Kissed someone & regretted it: Kiss my brother and he regret it.
* Lost someone special: Yes.
* Been depressed: Always, whenever I'm not high.
* Been drunk and threw up: Nope, never drank alcohol.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOUR:
Blue, Orange and Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2011):

* Made a new friend: Yes
* Fallen out of love: Yes
* Laughed until you cried: A few times
* Met someone who changed you: Yes
* Found out who your true friends were: Yup
* Found out someone was talking about you: Not this year coz I don't give a damn
* Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes, on the cheek
* How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: around 95%
* How many kids do you want?: 2
* Do you have any pets: My lovely, lovely red-eared sliders
* Do you want to change your name: Not for the time being, but I do want to change my nickname
* What did you do for your last birthday: nothing, literally.
* What time did you wake up today: 1 pm
* What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting
* Name something you CANNOT wait for: To get my own car
* Last time you saw your Mother: Just now
* What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: None
* What are you listening to right now: Music on my lappie
* Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes
* What's getting on your nerves right now: Something that I can't say here
* Most visited webpage: Facebook
* Whats your real name: Nur Sharain
* Nicknames: Sayko
* Relationship Status: Single but not available
* Zodiac sign: Aquarius
* Male or female?: Female
* Primary School?: SRK Sri subang Jaya 2 & SK Bandar Sunway
* Secondary School?: SMK Bandar Sunway, SMK SS17, SBPI Sabak Bernam, SM Sains Labuan
* High school/college?: Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, UiTM Shah Alam, UiTM Melaka Kampus Lendu, MMU
* Hair colour: Black wit kinda brownish
* Long or short: Short
* Height: Last check 170cm.
* Do you have a crush on someone?: At the moment?
* What do you like about yourself?: My randomness.
* Piercings: None
* Tattoos: None
* Righty or left: Now righty.

FIRSTS :

* First surgery: When I was six, but it was a minor one.
* First piercing: None
* First sport you joined: Badminton
* First vacation: The first one I remember is to Langkawi.

RIGHT NOW:

* Eating: Just ate homemade corn-in-cup
* Drinking: Nothing
* I'm about to: Tweet something
* Listening to: No Air by Jordin Sparks
* Waiting on: ....something

YOUR FUTURE:

* Want kids?: sure
* Get Married?: duh... see above.
* Career?: Animator

WHICH IS BETTER:
* Lips or eyes: of course both
* Hugs or kisses: both
* Shorter or taller: Taller
*Older or Younger: Older
* Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
* Nice stomach or nice arms: I'd say arms.
* Sensitive or loud: Someone in the middle
* Hook-up or relationship: Scandal~
* Trouble maker or hesitant: Someone who's not boring.

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Kissed a stranger: No
* Drank hard liquor: Not in my lifetime
* Lost glasses/contacts: Lost it... then found it... then lost it again...
* Sex on first date: Hell no
* Broken someone's heart: I don't know
* Been arrested: Not yet...
* Turned someone down: I think so..
* Cried when someone died: I'm not heartless
* Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

* Yourself: Sometimes
* Miracles: Probably
* Love at first sight: NO.SUCH.LUCK
* Heaven: Yes
* Santa Claus: No
* Kiss on the first date: No
* Angels: The real angel


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

* Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Yes?
* Did you sing today?: YES!!!
* Ever cheated on somebody?: Yeah..
* If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: My school days
* If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : None, apparently last year sucks
* Are you afraid of falling in love?: Not really...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY
Fly Me to the Moon

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
S.O.S

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Solo

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fall For You

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
4 in the Morning

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Today is Gonna be A Great Day

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lemon Tree

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Day You Went Away

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ghost of You

10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
I Don't Wanna Know

It's kinda funny

I just finished crying for no apparent reason. Now that I think about it, it's kinda funny... I was laughing and all and suddenly my mood drops. All of the sudden I feel sad and started crying on my own.. If other people saw it, they might think I'm nuts...

Actually, I'm just trying to cheer myself up but failing epicly. I might go cool my head in the showers if this feeling doesn't go away soon...

++saykoji89++

++I feel empty++

Promote~

This is the event I'm taking part in for next semester. Handling it makes me go crazy and I feel like killing myself for a few times but this will one day be a good experience for me. Kind of like a training before I go deal with the real world.

But anyways, come and join in the fun~~~

++saykoji89++

++hahahaha++

Be grateful

Last night, my friend asked, "What is your best experience?" and to which my other friend replied he can't say what is best or bad experience as anything he's gone through are interesting experience, both bad and good, but there's lesson behind it...

which makes me wonder about my own experience, and in every which one I have something to complain about... Which also makes me realize that I am a spoiled brat. I got (almost) everything I ever asked for. Why am I complaining?

Ever since small, my parents took me on vacations to all sorts of places while some people hardly even leave their own state. I got to eat delicious food every night while some people struggle to eat just for a day. I complain the lack of internet while some people do not even know how to operate a PC.

Just today, I was complaining about the "extreme" heat in Alor Setar ever since the plane landed. Complain and complain. Then my dad took me out to fetch my cousin from his collage. I was just about to complain about the super hot weather when I saw a little girl, around 9 or 10, walking home (which the nearest house I see is like 3 km away) under the hot sun. I was in the car, with air conditioner, and that girl is walking under the hot sun... I was speechless. Instead of being grateful that my dad had a car with a/c, I was complaining like some spoiled brat (which actually the type of person I hate)

So, I'm trying to change my ways and try to stop and think before I complain about anything...

++saykoji89++

++It hurts when sudden realization hits you++

I hate decisions...

I am on the brink of dying with this one decision that I have to make.

SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR OR NOT???

If I cut my hair short:

• I have to deal with the curl every day
• My hair will be a mess every morning thanks to Mr. Pillow
• No dandruff and falling hair

If I leave my hair long:

• It's gonna be extra hot on bloody warm days
• Easier to manage (use fingers oso can)
• NO BLOODY CURL
• Hair keeps falling off

So, I don't know what to do now... Like they say, "Rambut itu mahkota wanita" (Hair is a woman's throne) [my foot].

++saykoji89++

++Hair, y u give me problems??++

Have you ever?

Have you ever lived my life,

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't tell me why

You judge me like you do?

Have you woke up in the morning

Wondering if it was your last day on earth?

Have you ever left your house

Unsure if you'd return?

Have you ever sat beneath the stars

Hoping Good will hear?

Have you ever sent your loved ones away

When you wish that they could be near?

Have you ever considered suicide

As the only way?

Have you ever tried to hide yourself

Behind the things you say?

Have you ever wanted to protect

Your friends and everyone in sight?

Have you ever felt so much pain

That you cried yourself to sleep at night?

Have you ever lived my life,

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't tell me why

You judge me like you do?

formspring.me

Questions?... http://formspring.me/saykoji89

Hate this feeling

Not that I don't like having bipolar, I love them. I really do. But the pain in the ass thing is when I have been in a long period of hyper/manic mood. Not that I say being too happy is not good for me, well actually, that is what I'm trying to say. I've been too happy lately. And now the depressed mood finally kicks in, and I am in a total mess.

Because I was hyper for a long time, when my mood starts to drop, it's reaching rock bottom. I want scream, I want to cry but I can't. I want to hurt myself but I can't. I feel hopeless. I feel sad. I feel angry, but I can't find the reason for it. I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind...

Even with people around me, I feel lonely. I feel like I can't connect with anyone. I feel like I'm invisible.

++saykoji89++

++I hate this++

I Don't Understand

I don't understand you. One minute you're happy and the other you start getting pissed off. And I thought I had bipolar. Unless you tell me, I won't know since I'm too oblivious to my surroundings.

++saykoji89++

++I don't give a damn anymore++

In My World

Dark side in my heart is
a grief from the past that cannot be wiped away.
It's alright, for I don't actually give a damn.
I fired my blaster, and stretched out my hands.
I've detached my life from myself,
so that I could gaze into the picture frame.
However, in there, there's no proof of my existence,
and I can barely even protect my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has been like this for a while.
And then, everyone has disappeared off it...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

Dark cloud in my heart is
clearing up, and light is shining onto my path.
Let's fight, without any fear,
with a double-edged sword brandished over our head.
My life is not so lonesome,
for I am being guided by the voices of my comrades.
With the proof of my existence reaffirmed,
I released my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has always been like this.
Now my hesitation has completely dissipated...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
I will be a reckless daredevil and cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I can hear an aria of love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or weak grumblings, I have already crushed them with my hands.
The more I threw it away, the more precious it became;
it's my precious life.

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

I will simply repaint my destiny.
Even if I become covered in wounds, I'll try for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I still sing about love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or the bond and the future we are starting to build up and consolidate,
they are still precious in the end even when I have thrown them away.
It's my precious life.

Today~~

This morning, when I woke up I was like...

YOSH.... LET'S GET SOME WORK DONE TODAY!!

But after a few hours, I was like...

Aw, fuck.... Now I'm bored...

So, my cousin called and ask me to go out with her, and I was like...

Yatta! Saved from my awful boredom~~

Then, when we came back I was like...

Ah... now I'm bored again...

So, I turned on my facebook and saw the event I was supposed to do is now rolling in action and I'm swamped with tonnes of work. So, naturally I was like...

FFUUUUUUU!!!! Why so many things to do!!!

To release stress I now go watch Titanic, in which I was like...

Awwww..... How sweet.... Too bad they died..

So, that is basically my day today. How was yours?

++saykoji89++

++Boredom kills me++

Thank You

I'd like to thank this person I met somewhat during this year. Regretfully before meeting this person, I am sad to say that I have been neglecting my daily religious duties. But somehow after the meeting, I began to realize how I was wrong in so many ways.

This person taught me that you don't have to push away your duties to fully enjoy our youthful life. This person also taught me that you may ignore The Almighty, but He never ignores you. You might hate whatever challenges He puts you through, but it is only for your good later in life.

This reminds me of a story I heard before from the Ustaz that taught me when I was younger. There was a guy who asked from God a flower and a butterfly, but God only gave him a plant and a caterpillar. At first the man was frustrated but after time goes by, the plant bloomed the most beautiful flower and the caterpillar turns into the most beautiful butterfly. Moral? Good things comes for those who wait.

Anyway, to the person who may or may not read this, I'd like to thank you for making me realizing this although you might have not spoken a word about it, but it was your actions that made me realize it... Thank you.

Who Am I To Say - Hope

Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come and gone
Don't know why I'm still searching

Don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Hmmm hmmm mmm
Uhhh oohhh aahhh
Hooo aahhh ohh ohhh

Now you're a song I love to sing
Never thought it'd feel so free
Now I know what's meant to be
And that's okay with me

But who am I to say you love me
And who am I to say you need me
And who am I to say you love me

Mmmm Hmmm

I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all

I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

The best version I've heard by far... Makes me wanna go somewhere over the rainbow as well... Too bad I don't know when I'll get the chance too...

++saykoji89++

++somewhere over the rainbow, I'll find the nyan cat++

My New Babies~

For Raya this year, I got myself these new babes~

It's a Nike, although I do prefer Adidas, but who could resist the blue-ness~~~

Oh, and there was this one orange and blue Adidas shoes but my mom wouldn't let me buy them as she said they were an absurd colour combination. But, ma~ I learned in class that blue and orange are complimentary colours~~~

Whatever, as long as I have my new babies~~

++saykoji89++

++listening to Sinetron theme songs++

Raya? No mood...

For the first time in my life, I am in no mood for Eid. In fact I am in no mood for holidays too.. All I want is to be in Cyber and bore myself to death rather than being home and bore myself to death...

But since it's Eid, I'm gonna wish all the Muslims,

Happy Eid-ul Fitr or as Malaysians say it Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Now, I'm going to roll on the bed and do nothing out of boredom~~

++saykoji89++

++My laziness has peaked++

Fuck!

There's a saying that goes

"Thunder does not strike the same place twice"

You know what, fuck it. It just happened. First it was *****, now it's ****.

You know what, I give up. I totally give up. The same thing, same situation. How 'lucky' could I get?

++saykoji89++

++frustrated++

Trust

How to know if I trust someone? That's easy...

If someone I don't trust is driving the car, I don't sleep no matter how sleepy I am.

If someone I trust is driving the car, I sleep probably throughout the whole journey.

So next time, when you drive, see whether I'm sleeping or not to see if I trust you~

++saykoji89++

++I don't know why but this is the truth++

BORED

I'm bored~~~

That''s it for this entry~

trolololololol~~

++saykoji89++

++*rolling on the floor*++

So I heard you liek someone~

pfft....whut?

Yes, I like someone... He's cute and cute? I don't actually know how to describe him actually. All I know is that he's cute.

But what do like about him anyway? His smile? His laughter?

...

...

...wait...

*bangshead*

... I suddenly felt like I was describing someone else entirely.

..sorry....

But one thing what I do like about him is his personality. So carefree and yet so alert at the same time. And I like his face. (OMG, I feel like Kisa)

So, being in this collage has given me courage to do things that I never thought of doing in a hundred years, let's see if it can make me do one more miracle, confessing.

KYAAAA~~~

(I feel like a girl, oh wait. I am a girl)

++saykoji89++

++wish me luck++

My little fantasy world~

I'm really out of ideas on what to put in this blog, so let's do a little fiction related post. All the contents of this post may or may not be entirely true and may or may not have any connections with the people I may or may not know, but who gives a damn.

Do you know what Harry Potter and Voldermort have in common other than being in the Potter series and being created by J.K Rowling? Yup, both of them are in my collage. And they're roommates~~~ How cute~~~

But here's the tricky part, HP and Voldie are both females~ *shock*

You see, HP is my friend, and Voldie not so much. Let me describe Voldie and HP.

Hp is nice, obviously more mature than I am, a gamer (not so much of a Quidditch type of person), humble, loves cat and Dynasty Warriors.

Voldie on the other hand (I'm going to describe her from what I hear from HP) is self-centered, an OCD patient, a pain in the ass, a vain, and in short a bitch.. *gasp*

So, how do you make Voldie suffer when HP is her roommate?

1. Kill her off with love. HP, you got the power of love remember?

2. Stop her supply of Unicorn blood. She can't be immortal that way.

3. Write on a piece of A4 paper, "At least my face is way awesome than your noseless face"

4. Talk to Ron in your loudest voice possible about anime and see Voldie's face cringe in disgust and smirk.

5. Cut off this lovely thing call internet in your room.

And that's how you annoy Voldie~~~~

lalalalala~~

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