Fuck This

I have no idea what just happened. Okay, maybe not just happened, and maybe it's been dragging on for quite sometime now. I can't bitch at twitter, since some people will call it spamming with my mood swings. And I can't post it on facebook doesn't seem private any longer. I can only rely on my blog then.

Anyway, I was scrolling through FB just now and I found this comment left on a page by one of my supposedly friends on fb. When I read it, I was like "what the fuck?". I know it may or may not seem to target at me or my clique of friends but seriously, what the fuck?

Call me over-thinking or paranoid but I have a feeling there is a conspiracy somewhere. I get the feeling that people seem to think I hate them. When I want to hate, I'll hate. But for now, I don't see any reason to hate anyone. Even when I say I hate you, it's in a playful tone. If I really hate you, I wouldn't give a fuck about you.

And yes, I am random. I have mood swings. Happy? Wanna know why I have mood swings? Want to know why I am random? It's because I have ADHD and Bipolar. Have no clue about that, go google it. If you can read this why not google it, I have no time explaining to the likes of you. But, wait. Even if you did read about it on google, you would know how it feels, asshole. Cause you don't go through it.

You never did feel how it's like to cry for no apparent reason. You never did feel how it's like to be so alone in the most crowded place. You never know how it's like to have blades tearing your skin when you prefer physical pain rather than emotional pains. You never did feel what it's like to smile when all you want to do is cry and go rampage. You never did feel what it's like to be me. And yet you people fucking judged me. I never judged you.

Yes, I'm being emo, but who the hell cares. This is just crossing the boundaries. Even I have my limits to where I can tolerate this bloody thing. I don't give a damn if you're reading this or not, but I just want you to know, fuck you. Thank you for being the ultimate hypocrite. I have never expected that from you. Job well done. If you're being a hypocrite, I can be one too.

I don't hate people without a reason and this, my friend, is a good enough reason for me.