Alexandra Wallace

Again I was searching through you tube, and I found this video.

After watching it, all I can think of is "wow". Seriously, although I'm Asian and my language doesn't go that way, I still feel offended. The first thing that came up in my mind was "This bitch could really use a reality check." That was so racist of her. How can you use "All Asians". That is call labeling. Yes, I do label people sometimes but I don't make it public. Your mom might raise you to be a "nice, polite, American girl" but obviously you didn't turn out to be one.

Not to be hard on you or anything but the biggest mistake you did was posting the video on youtube. I suggest next time, just write it in your diary or something. Even if it was found out that you write racist stuff, the consequences won't be as bad.

In another totally unrelated but somehow have connections with the above, I find it offensive that people are putting all Asians into one stereotype group. I have you know that everyone is different. I don't learn psychology or anything but I feel it's just wrong grouping people up. They may have the same behaviour or something but I believe no two people are the same. It's like fingerprints. Each and everyone of us are different.

When someone acts some what different than what we're used to, we call the weird or freaks. This is so not cool. How would you feel if you were in their shoes. When I was in primary school, I used to be in one of the popular groups where every teacher knows your name. (I think) I know it feels all great and high and mighty. I dissed people here and there. But it all crumbled when I reached secondary school. That is when I knew what it's like to be weird so to speak.

When I entered a boarding school, some of my classmates were angry at me for being "too close" to the boys. Well, actually that is because I felt awkward talking with the girls since I was raised up in a neighbourhood where most of the kids my age were boys. Since I used to be close with the boys, I knew all the dirty jokes they used to tell. So when a male classmate tells a dirty joke in class and I joined in, I often get dirty looks from some of the female classmates. And when the boys shared the same joke with them, they acted all gross. It boggles my mind trying to figure out some women.

Oh, and don't go all feisty on me. I am a girl too but I don't believe in girls using their so called "girl power" to get what they want. It disgust me to no end when I see a girl using their girly voice to get what they want, and if all technique fails, they just cry their way through. I don't know why I hate it. Maybe it's because I never succeeded doing it or anything. Maybe I'm jealous. God knows why. A classmate of mine even told me before that my mind works like a guy's. I lol'd at the comment.

How on earth that we get from the topic of Alexander Wallace to girls? I know I'm ranting right now. It's almost 4, I'm half-awake, so forgive me. And if you notice, in this particular post, all I mentioned was my classmates said this, my classmates did that, and never my friends or anything. This is because I found that I don't need friends who stab other people in the back. I know friendship means going through obstacles and sacrifices together, but it says nothing about "stabbing your friend in the back while they're not looking". If that is what being a friend really is, I don't need a friend then.

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++I like to rant, so what?++

Night time rituals

So, do any of you guys or girls have any night time rituals? Stuff you do before going to bed? I have a few actually. It's kinda random, but so what. I'm a random person. If you don't believe me, ask my best friends. They know. Other people might just think of me as weird, but I really prefer the term random.

Before I go out of topic, this is what I usually do before sleeping~

1. Watch videos.

Watching videos is the first thing I do before going to sleep. And no, douche bag. Its not porn videos. I just watch any random Japanese videos that I have, just to improve my vocabulary. So, maybe I'd watch a few shounen-ai videos, but nothing hardcore anyway. I can't stand those stuff. Laling, shut up!

2. Read manga.

It doesn't matter whether if it's online manga or the ones I already store in my lappie. I like to read manga's especially the ones with scenes I find interesting. Oh, and I only read manga/chapter that I have read at night time. If it's manga/chapther that I haven't read before, I usually read them in the morning.

3.Read fan fictions.

I like reading fictions before sleeping. The one thing I like about fics is that they let you imagine the scene yourself. Its all up to you to view the scene, and imagination is such a subjective thing. It's different for everyone. And, although it's no surprise, I am a person who likes to imagine. I have been doing it ever since I'm a little girl.

4. Make up storylines

This is truly the last thing I do before I go to the land of nods. After I say my night prayer, I just summarize what ever I read or watch before and try to fit it into my story line for Kenji. (Kenji: No wonder my life is getting all fucked up) I like to make my imagination go wild in making Kenji's story just to end up forgetting it the next morning and repeat the process all over again~ :)

So, it's currently 1:12 a.m here in Malaysia. I've watched videos, read manga and fics, so it's off to imagination land before hitching a ride to dreamland.

Jya ne~~~

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++I hate dreaming about something I can't have++

Oh my GOD!!!

I was surfing thru youtube just now while totally laughing my spleens out watching nigahiga and shane dawson and I found THIS!!!!

I watched this when I was 4 or 5. Me and my older brother used to fight on who gets to become Tomatoman... God, I miss this show...

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++let go raid youtube for more pieces of my childhood++

[edit]Cuppycakes!!!

The pink and white ones

Cuppycakes for the ones in love and the ones out of love

Hana (flowers)

cuppycakes~

More cuppycakes~

Moar cuppycakes~~

Yesterday I bake the cupcakes and iced (what's icing in past tense?) it today~

Seriously, my thumbs are feels totally numb after 5 hours of icing~~~

Yay~ Now to eat them~

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++Om nom nom++

Faito!!! OH!!!

My resolution for this week is....

Fill this jar with lotsa colorful stars~~~ I'm already a quarter of my way through, and I just realized how expensive those papers that you use to make the stars...

Clean up this picture and color it... This is one of the artworks that was inspired by K-ON's ending.... Yes, he's holding a can of spray in his hands. Not some weird circular thingy.

And lastly, hopefully to improve my Japanese language and finish of the list of fics that Laling sent me... I'm only 30% through... Oh, all those lengthy fics... but FAITO!!!!

I just realize that there are still some douche bag someone out there who doesn't know the difference between English with Chinese accent and English with Japanese accent. If you don't know the difference, please, PLEASE don't flaunt it. There is a reason his name is NARUTO, not NALUTO! One of them is because it's a Japanese name. So don't write it in your fic

" "Your name," he said, voice heavily accented. The 'your' slurred to the end, making it sound more like "you'll name."

(this is supposed to be a Japanese accent)

or

"Drink, dobe?" (In Japanese accent)

"Huh? Dlin-oh, drink?"

Here is some info for you, the Japanese language doesn't have the letter 'L' in it. Even in Death Note, L is pronounce as 'Eru'. So, if you are not sure about the accent, please google or something. That is what the net is for.

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++I'm all mixed up++

Cliffhangers...

I hate cliffhangers... Really!

Everytime I came to a cliffhanger, I smack my head to the table/lappie/book and facepalm. That is just like when you are talking to someone about something...

So imagine were talking...

Miss A: I was walking around the other day, I came across Mr B. He asked me some things about you.

Me: What did he ask?

Miss A: He ask whether you....

Me: Yes?

Miss A: I'll tell you later, not now...

*situation end*

You see, it's this kind of situation that irks me. God!!! Actually I'm bitching about Bokura Ga Ita (BGI) chapter 62. For years after Yano left Nanami, now he's standing in front her house with more than the obvious reasons that makes you wanna squeal your heart out, but unsuprisingly knowing that next chapter won't be as you hoped.

Oh, and when I was reading BGI, I came across this logo

This is so WTF. I mean, why the heck are you angry with the site and the moderators? I have you know that MangaTrader is my saviour from all the old mangas I missed. The problem lies on your readers who downloaded the files and upload it on Mangatraders. This is bound to happpen now and then but please blame the right people and not a third party....

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++You know what, some people just never think when they are talking about stuff++

K-ON Addict

That's what I am... A K-ON addict.....

NOT!

Actually what I like about K-ON is their ending videos.

I love the poses they show there... Currently I'm attempting to draw 2 poses... I don't know when will I succeed, but yeah. Anyone who knows me will know what I want to draw when I see the vid.

Oh, and by the way, I'm not drawing girls. They are a pain in the ass difficult to draw. I need to get back on track with drawing Kenji. His hair is all messed up, and if he's alive which he is in my mind, he will keep bitching me about it...

Oh, and I'm into Glee too. Just a quite recent development. Ever since the "Furt" episode. Totally imagining Al and Scorp in my mind... *drool*

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++I so love horses, stables and a certain blonde and bastard++

Michyeo seo~~

Random question~ how frustrated are you today?

a.

this much?

or b.

this much?

Well... mine is kinda like adding both of them up... so you get

c.

I feel like destroying everything

it is all because of coloring...

I suck at coloring. well, yeah. So what....

So, laling, I really look up to you because you can color something so nicely without killing yourself...

This is a preview of what I am currently doing. Seriously, do we have to take into consideration all those lighting and stuff??

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++ARGHHHH!!!!+++

OH NO!!!!

The whole world knows about the earthquake and tsunami that struck Japan recently. My condolence to all of them.. I know it seems bad but I have faith in the Japanese. To me, they seem like the strongest people. And believe me when I said that by the end of the year, you'll see Japan up and rising again.

however....

The recent earthquake has effected a lot of people I like and/or admire... So far we got news that JE artists are okay (though some of the idols lost their homes), UVERworld is okay, And so is Masashi Kishimoto, Akira Amano, Himaruya Hidekaz, Sugiyama Noriaki and etc etc. Hiro Mashima is injured but he's okay. (I guess there's likely no Fairy Tail this week).

But I haven't heard anything on Obata Takeshi a.k.a the mangaka for Death Note and Bakuman. So if any of you guys out there who knows anything about Obata, please tell me~~

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++killing me softly++

Everything You Want

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++i could so imagine al singing this song++

Pata Pon!!

Pata pata pata pon... pon pon pata pon... pon pon pata pata... chaka chaka pata pon!

Translation:

I am addicted to patapon... they are so effing cute... too bad I only played the demo... but i get to watch this cute patapon!

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++patapon!++

Currently working on this right now... I spent more than 2 hours in the wee morning trying to figure out how to draw the hair. My imagination in drawing hairs are decreasing. There was a time where I can draw a character without hesitating on how to draw the hair..

And I do notice that my lines are kinda stiff. While it's true that I used a mouse instead of a tablet, but it's more obvious that I apparently need more practice. But it does seem better than my other failed attempts to draw using the photoshop.... orz

Noticed how I color in the eyes first? That is because I love drawing eyes and coloring them... not to mention that they are the easiest thing to color with multiple shades And apparently, without the color, it looks kinda freakish... Oh, and you also might notice that I drew the nose a little different that what I used to draw, and there is no eyebrows!!!! I'm sorry OTZ, I'm so lazy to draw them since it's gonna get covered by the hair anyways.

So, give me another week tops, and hopefully I'll be done with this by then~ Jya, mata~

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++how do I get platinum blonde color in the PS?++

Apakah?

setelah berkurun abad lamanya since aku last tulis dalam BM, so hari ni aku tulis dalam BM. First of all, aku nak ucapkan Slamat Hari Lahir buat my dad. Bah, Happy Busdae~

Next up is, aku tetibe terpikirkan satu benda. Mesti susahkan, orang yang kerja dye carik glamor. Oh no, I don't mean artist sebab keje dorang memang carik glamor and being paid for it. Orang yang aku maksudkan kat sini is orang yang carik free publisiti. Dalah kene blakon ala pelakon handalan, tak dapat duit pulak tu... What motivates them to do so?

Agaknye lah kan, dorang ingat dgn dorang blagak macam international pop star, adelah orang yang nak jadikan dorang ni pop star? Kalaulah aku ada syarikat rakaman or whatsoever, first of all, aku takkan ambik minah-minah yang gedik semacam or mat-mat yang berlagak terlebih macho.

Oh, and don't get me wrong. Aku tak kata yang perempuan tak boleh gedik. Kadang-kala, and I do mean sometimes, gedik ni can be used to your personal advantage. Aku pun sometimes gedik ngan adik aku. Tapi, yang aku tak tahan is all this minah yang gedik tak bertempat. Aku dah jumpe berlambak spesimen yang macam ni.. yang ala-ala Paris Hilton gitu..

Yang aku sedih nye, banyak minah gedik ni orang Melayu. Contoh yang aku boleh bagi kat sini adalah, dalam kereteapi. Dulu time aku duduk Melaka, slalu jugaklah aku balik rumah naik kereteapi from Seremban to KL. Kat situ memang korang boleh tengok ragam manusia zaman sekarang. Yang aku perhatikan, (kalau aku tak tido dalam tren) perempuan Melayu, kalo masuk dengan boipren dia, fuh~ gedik dia... melampau.. Pegang pegang tangan, sentuh sentuh badan, cakap manja-manja, macam nak tunjuk sangat yang korang tu murah. Senang je lelaki tu nak sentuh badan korang. Pastu yang tak tahan, campur lagi dengan dialog yang aku tak paham saje nak bagi satu tren tu dengar....

Aku pun Melayu jugak, aku pun perempuan jugak, tapi takde la aku nak buat camtu depan orang... Tapi, you know what, yang paling aku tak suka skali kalau seorang minah yang menalipon boiprennya pastu cakap macam nak bagi satu dunia tau yang dia ada boipren. Apa, orang yang tak de boipren ni hina sangatkah? Mundur sangat kah? Aku tau la dorang suka ada orang sayang, tapi harus ke nak main muah muah kat talipon tu.. Harus ke nak cakap "I lap u" kuat-kuat? Hey, be decent la sikit. Aku tak rasa the public nak ambik tau pasal percintaan korang yang ala-ala Shakespeare tu. Dan aku tak heran la kalau ade makcik-makcik ngan pakcik-pakcik yang kata "haish, budak-budak zaman sekarang"

Just think about it, korang nak ke buat bende tu depan mak bapak korang? Aku tak tau la pasal mak pak korang, tapi kalau aku main muah-muah kat talipon, main sayang-sayang, da lama da kene baling dengan periuk kat blakang rumah tu. So next time kalau korang ade nampak minah-minah yang carik free publisiti ke atas diri sendiri, cuba korang tegur sikit. Lagi best kalau korang punya teguran tu berhiasankan sarcasm yang tajam-tajam belaka...

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++sapa yang gedik memang tak boleh ngam dengan aku++