Doushite?

どうして…

君を好きになってしまったんだろう?

どんなに時が流れても

君はずっと ここにいると　思ってたのに

でも君が選んだのは違う道

I whip my hair back and forth...

...to get the tension out of my head...

Assignments are sure tough. If I thought taking accountancy was though, boy I had it all wrong. At least, in accountancy, I can do my assignments at the comfort of my own room, while rolling aroung on the floor, procrastinating as I like.

Now... I feel like dying.. =.="

At 7 a.m we'll be heading too the closest waterfall to capture the moment~ Pfft, no. To take pictures of the waterfall, as the subject matter. hah~ Waterfall ka? I haven't been to one since... PLKN? Even that was a bad memory for me.

Then there's the Bon Odori. Which I know I will be overly excited and do and overkill and will exhaust myself to death and will probably sleep throughout the next day and barely have anytime to do my assignment on VRC.

Not only that, but my meal schedule and sleep schedule is all mixed up too. I can only eat when I have the opportunity to, and sleep soundly somewhere at 4. I know that I am a total ass for complaining all this when I am the one who asked for it, but I just need to get it out of my system and continue with my awesomely insane life...

++saykoji89++

++ah... I need to burn new CD for tomorrow's trip++

Kamu n'gak sendirian (You are not alone)

When I was still i still is school, I listen to this song often enough. And recently, I just found this song on YouTube and when I listened to it, the feelings of when I first heard the song remains. The song kinda makes me feel like I'm not alone. In my teenage years, I was a lonely girl. And now, somehow, even with a lot of friends right beside me, I still feel somewhat lonely. This is the worst kind of loneliness. But when I listened to the song, I felt somewhat relieved? I don't exactly know, but it kinda lift a bit of my loneliness. And even if it sounds like a happy song, every time I listen to it, it makes me wanna cry...

I'm going to do a simple translation of the song to let you know what it means in English.

When I am no longer here,

Please continue to sing,

And when I'm gone,

Please be reminded of me

Please promise me

That you will be fine

Because in my every dream,

There is always you

Listen and feel

This song that I made for you

It might not sound melodious

But it's just for you

We have been together

Been through colourful days

Although not as beautiful as the rainbow

But we once dreamt

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

Listen and feel

This song that I made for you

It might not sound melodious

But it's just for you

We have been together

Been through colourful days

Although not as beautiful as the rainbow

But we once dreamt

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

This might be temporary

Or it might be for forever

But if I were to return

Make sure that you are here

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

++saykoji89++

++why am I alone?++

Help....

Right now I am doing my computer graphic assignment and I feel like shooting myself in the head.... I can't trace my own damn picture nicely... It kinda look like an old lady who's in the gang... It's an epic fail....

++saykoji89++

++can somebody do this assignment for me please?++

Me Talk Politics

Okay, so me and politics do not go well together, because for one, I lack knowledge. And two, I never seek knowledge for politics. I believe that our political party is corrupted. I believe the leaders are misusing the citizens money for their own motive. I believe that every time the elections comes near, political parties will be all goody-goody and tend the poor, visiting people in trouble and what not to gain votes, and abandon them once the election is over.

But, I also do believe that Malaysia is a peaceful country and by far the most wonderful place to live in.

Living in Malaysia, I don't have to worry about earthquakes, tsunamis, or volcano eruptions. But what I do have to worry is the act of people who have this kind of thinking that destroys the country. They say it's for the country's own sake, for saving the country, for saving the citizens. BULLSHIT.

Some random but intelligent dude will come out and say "I don't like this government, they suck" and another random but stupid dude will gather as many people as possible to overthrow the so called government. Now, why do I say that the first guy is intelligent and the second guy is stupid. The first guy is intelligent because he expressed his views peacefully. He does no rally or no hard core opposing. The second guy is stupid because he didn't even ask the first guy why he hated the government. When the second guy hears the first guy saying he hate the government he probably thought "Oh, that's right. I hate this government too. Lets gather as many people to join and protest this stupid government." And so, by default, the ones following the second guys are even stupider.

For once people, try to imagine being in the government's shoes for a second. They have a lot in their hands in order to run a peaceful country. Dealing with problems that needs attentions, maintaining relationships with other countries, dealing with shits that none of us citizens would voluntarily do. Why add more problems on their plate. Doing those kinds of rally, to whom does it benefits? The government? No. The citizens? Hell, no. The opposition? Probably. Countries that are waiting for the right moment to bring us down? Fuck yes.

We as citizens cannot be selfish. We need to be considerate. When we do is so called BERSIH rally, we might not lose anything from it, but what about those who worked in KL? Those taxi drivers, those hawkers, those bus drivers? We need to apply the give and take attitude. If you don't like how the government is running things, give them advice. If they still suck, run for the opposition yourself if you think you could do better. Don''t expect others to do it for you. Others' motive might not be the same as yours even if the sounds the same.

And also, the other thing, our Prime Minister had only took the position for 3 years. Give him chances to do what he sees fit to Malaysia. It took Tun Mahathir 21 years to create our beautiful Malaysia the way it is. We also need to be reminded that Rome wasn't created in one day.

I am by far, totally supporting the government. The government has fed me, gave me a home, and has gave me education. I see no reason to oppose someone who has done so much to make sure I'm alive even if my life sucks like hell. There are times I disagree with the government but after awhile, I kinda realize, there's a reason for every actions.

++saykoji89++

++I probably won't do anymore post like this in a long time++

More early morning artwork~

I was really, REALLY bored when I did this... This is basically me and Kenji taking picture together. You can see from Kenji's awesomely bitchy face that he was forced into taking picture with me~ *insert evil laugh here*

Me: Yah, take picture with me.

Kenji: Fuck off. Go take pictures with "Robin".

Me: Let me put it this way, if you don't take pictures with me, I'll seriously turn you gay.

Kenji: You wouldn't dare.

Me: Try me. *smirk*

Kenji: Fine! ...mumble...grumble...

*snap*

So, that totally explain Kenji's and my facial expressions. I love being able to threaten Kenji~

My moods for this week

Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Basically that's my mood for this week. It has been a total burn out week for me with rejected artwork and redoing the thing and my brain just went pfft.... It died on me...

But not all the stuff happens burn me out... There are a few good stuff along the way, with me acting all crazy and nuts than I usually am. I'm keeping up with my FTW thinking~

lalalalalalalala~~~

++saykoji89++

++I want a boyfriend!!!++

Bitchy Kenji a Plot Twist

Ever since I started obsessing over Young Justice's Robin, Kenji has suffered greatly. Now, I can't draw him because he's too busy being bitchy and sulking.

Since I can't draw him, I decided to continue this story line I did way back in 2009. And suddenly, *jyan jyan*, a plot twist!!!

Okay, to be totally honest, I had this plot twist for quite sometime already in my head. I just made it official when I wrote it down as a story line. The major plot twist? Kenji will not be marrying Kimie. I decided to pair her up with Heiji instead. I was already kind enough to not kill her off.

Next plot twist? Kazuma plays a major role in the story line. Who is Kazuma? He is the previous leader of UGz before Kenji. This is one smart dude, with attitude~ I think I posted a few of his pics candid strips up. Try finding them under my old artworks last year. It should be there. Or was it this year? I don't really know... orz

Oh, and now I am giving out random snippets of the new altered storyline... enjoy~

++sayko++

“I don’t have to answer to you.” Akira said as she turned away from her brother and that traitor. Heiji seemed to call her but Akira just ignored her brother. She felt both of them were traitors. Traitors to Kenji.

++sayko++

“Confess.”

“Confess what?”

“That you’re gay, stupid.”

++sayko++

Still flushed from the kiss but the sadness was still there. He lowered himself to whisper at her ears.

“Don’t be sad. Please. I promise, I’ll take away all the pain.”

++sayko++

Hope you enjoy the snippets, and I might be posting the new story line soon.

++saykoji89++

++This is all Kenji's fault++