Boys

"He's everything you want, he's everything you need,

He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be,

He says all things at exactly the right time,

But he means nothing to you and you don't know why.."

-Vertical Horizon-

This is a part of a song called 'Everything You Want' by Vertical Horizon. I knew this song for quite sometime but recently (and I mean very recent) I saw this bit of song in a fic. I was so mesmerized by the lyrics. It kinda touches something in my heart (and mind especially while imagining Albus singing this song). My interpretation of the song is that even if you find someone you you seem to think is perfect for you, it doesn't mean that you have to love/like the guy.

Which brings me to another dilemma. WHERE THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO FIND A BOYFRIEND? According to my best friend whose job is to corrupt my mind but somehow I love it, she says that all the good guys are either taken or gay. So the question is, where were they before they were taken or turned gay?

I know that there are a lot of fishes in the sea, but it seems that the fish I want is kinda off limits. So I don't know how to love somebody else when my heart is with another person. I can't be going on a date with someone while thinking of another person can I? So, if any of you readers see Kamenashi Kazuya, please tell him to return a piece of my heart. Oh, and if you see Heechul, please tell him the same thing too.

Seriously, people tell me to get a life. But they don't understand that this is my life. So I can't live up to their expectations of life because for one thing, I'm not them. So, all I can say is, suck up and live with it.

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++keep your friends close, keep your fics closer++

Art School

I don't know after how many years, I have decided I'm going to art school!

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I'm not feeling particularly happy nor sad...

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++something is wrong with my moods++

Amazing Discoveries

I FOUND IT!!!!!

here

OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!

I was surfing through the net like I did every other day and I found this awesome website which gives you all the 4-1-1 on the seiyuus. And apparently, Sugiyama Noriaki is an UKE!! (Character he plays in BL Drama CD) Sugiyama-san who has all the vibe of a seme plays an uke?? And also, Fukuyama Jun plays as a seme... The FukuJun who radiates the oh-so-lovely uke aura, he plays a seme...

And there's also a self ranking of seiyuus. I did it and Sugiyama is 1st in my ranking (no duh!) and FukuJun is 2nd... I could tell that myself even without the ranking thing... but the whole thing there is fun... For all you anime fans out there, check it out, okay?

link

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++I was half screaming when I wrote this++

Fandom+Me= Total Nutcase

Yeah, that's what I like to call myself. A total nutcase. Actually, I prefer to call it Sayko, but I'm afraid other people use the term nutcase.

Anywho, anybody who knows me know that I constantly change my fandom every now and then. A friend called me a 'lalang' (I don't know the English word for it so go google translate it yourself). I can switch fandom like, well, a switch. One moment I'm so into this, the other moment it's a different thing.

For example is my music fandom. I choose music because if I want to talk about my favourite fandom, which is yaoi, the entry will be really, REALLY long.

I started my hardcore fandom with UVERworld. I got to know them through a 'friend' who let me listen to her ringtone. When I first heard it, I thought to myself, "gawd, this band is awesome" so I got the song from her. Then I got to know the band, the vocalist especially and even bought a CD just because there's an UVERworld song in it. I'm nuts.

Then, went I went to collage, my senpai let me listen to Arashi. I knew Arashi before but since my mind was filled with UVERworld, I discarded them to the back of my mind. But, this senpai she ignited the fire of Arashi inside my mind adn boy, does the flame burn. I downloaded all of their PVs and even the whole series of D no Arashi and a few of their concerts. Long story short, never was there a day that I never spoke of Arashi, especially since I knew MatsuJun starred in Hana Yori Dango and Gokusen. I bought any DVD I found with any Arashi members in it. I'm nuts.

When my senpai gave me a few of the Japanese artist to listen too, she gave me NewS too. Long story short, I fell in love. Again. But some how for News, there is nothing I did that goes for a honourable mention. I just downloaded the songs and PVs. Nothing special. Maybe I going normal?

Wrong! Then there's Super Junior. Ah, SuJu. The first time I heard of SuJu was also from this 'friend' who showed me this scene from Explorations of the Human Boday ep.12. The one in the pool. My first reaction? Meh. Then, again in collage a kouhai of mine gave the the full series. Then I understood the whole thing. I fell in love once more. I began spreading the SuJu love to my other kouhai's.. It was very easy to spread. On top of that, I even had my first idol pairing here. Who could resist the love of Hanchul. A narcissist cinderella and the China prince. *drool* Too bad they didn't last long since Hankyung withdrew from the group in 2009. When i got the news, I cried. Seriously cried. I must be nuts.

Before I reach my recent fandom, there are lots of fillers along the way, such as Big Bang, FT Island, SS501, Inoue Joe, Hirai Ken and a lot more. All these fandoms are switched monthly, weekly or daily, according to my mood.

Then we reach to my recent fandom, KAT-TUN. I got to know KAT-TUN when I was watching SUMMARY. Their song that caught my attention was Fight All Night. I got to know them during my NewS fandom period. I like the song, and nothing else. Months later, someone lent me a drama titled Gokusen 2. Since I like the first Gokusen, I figured out that Gokusen 2 might not be bad. Of course it's not bad, it has Kame and Jin in it. Of course there is also Nobuto wo Produce. Don't get me started on that. But at that particular time, Kame looks like his underweight. as time moves on, I got to know the rest of the band members. There's the totally awesome Koki, Usankusai or Old Man Maru, Awesome packs Ueda and the not-so-funny Junno. But what I see from their progress, I can see that Johnny must really love KAT-TUN. They got their own record label (J-One), their own concert before debuting, and even their own Guinness record for the most consecutive days of concert in Tokyo Dome. Hell, they can even go ahead and imitate Johnny in public TV, which I don't see any other group doing it. And although Jin left the group in 2010, KAT-TUN is still active and still in my heart.

Which make me wonder, what fandom shall I go for next??

but for now, AKAME PIC SPAM~~~~~

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++kame is the king of emoticons and fanservice++