Happiness

“The three grand essentials for happiness in life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for” -Joseph Addison

so.... Let's test this guy's theory. 

Something to do = Get in touch with Takuya

Something to love = Takuya

Something to hope for = Get married to Takuya

So, theoretically, if I do all of the above, I'll find my happiness in life? This theory is going to be hard to prove since I already lack the part of "Get in touch with Takuya"

++saykoji89++

++sighsighsighsighsigh++

It's just a kid's show they say...

Since last month, I have been watching this one anime called Shirokuma Cafe (Polar Bear's Cafe in English)

For those who doesn't know, Shirokuma Cafe is about a world where animals walk and talk like humans. Polar Bear runs a cafe, Penguin hangs out there a lot, Panda works part-time at the zoo and Grizzly runs a bar. I've watched it since the first episode, and it was totally full of nonsense but funny in way.

These are a few examples:

New episodes come out every Thursday. So, during my birthday I was expecting a very stupid Valentine's day episode. Maybe Handa-san was trying to confess to Sasako, or Penguin being hunted by Penko-san and her 6 other siblings. But the episode that came out was totally different from usual. 

At first it was the usual Panda-kun and Joukin-san nonsense in the zoo with Handa-san scolding them. But as the episode goes on, it keeps getting sadder. When Handa-san first told Panda-kun Joukin-san will no longer be there, You don't see any changes in Panda-kun. But when he finally did break down, I realized that I was crying a long with him. How can someone who is so carefree be that sad? 

Then Panda-kun (who works at the zoo twice a week and keep hoping to work once a week) worked really hard, without complaining to forget his heartache. Penguin-san who saw how Panda-kun was destroying himself, decided to visit Panda-kun's workplace on a rainy Valentine's day. Because Panda-kun has overworked himself, he eventually feel asleep. One of the couples (a stupid one) was saying Panda-kun was boring since he was just sleeping.  Penguin-san was so mad at this statement that he scolded the couple for not knowing what Panda-kun has been through. 

By this time, I was already sobbing out loudly. I mean it's sad if you had to go through what Panda did, but it was sadder  being the friend that watches you destroying yourself and unable to do anything.

And those people says this anime is for kids? I doubt kids would have able to understand this much of feelings.

++saykoji89++

++Back to watching Shirokuma Cafe now++

I need more books....

As of lately, I find myself with nothing to do. I barely have internet access and the games are getting fairly boring. I defeated the Elite Four quite a number of times already, I drummed on Taiko too much that I'm afraid anymore further drumming might actually cause the screen to crack.

All I can do now is just reading some books.  I've reread Harry Potter series for the eleventy hundredth time, some Holmes, and my mom's Agatha Christie's. I even reread all these cheesy love novel graphics until I came to a conclusion. I need more books.

I love reading a lot. I actually prefer reading than gaming and watching TV. While you're reading, you kinda let your imagination take over and see them play in your mind as if you are watching a movie. But the thing is, a good book is hard to find. You might ask, what makes a book a good book. I'd say, a good book is when you started reading it, it's hard to put down, and when you do finish it, you get this feeling of parting with an old friend. That is my definition of a good book.

But sadly, there is not much books nowadays that catches my interest. Ever since Twilight came out, all these authors seems to be interested in doing stories about Vampires and Werewolves. And the love stories.... oh, god, they are getting more cliche than ever. Where did all the good books gone to?

When I get my BB1M, the first thing I will do is find some good materials to read. I will find them of die trying!

++saykoji89++

++My blog is very boring, why do you guys read it?++

I am just that...

Yeah, today is my birthday~ Thanks for all the wishes but somehow I secretly wanted a certain someone to wish me for my birthday. Who, you might ask? Well, if you know me well enough, you will surely find out in a blink of an eye.

Anyway, a blue bird told me this one hot gossip. It involves a certain someone-someone in a certain place. And anyway, I wanted to reply to that gossip.

First of all, the world doesn't revolve around you! Don't fucking make yourself the victim of this situation. You, only wanted people to play in the palm of your hand, dance to your rhythm. Well, other people have their own personal taste. Don't fucking decide everything until you hear all sides of the story.  And do not think you don't have any fault because trust me, nobody is perfect and that includes you.

Then, I would just like to comment on one thing. If you think I am a backstabbing friend, I seriously do not give a fuck. The only thing I would like to ask is, why do you think I am a backstabbing friend? What did I do to get that? Because from my point of view, you are one too. You only stay with people that will benefit you and once you are done with them, you dump them. You talk bad behind them.  What makes you a better friend than I am? At the very least I am not self-centred.

To be honest, I really don't care what you bitch about on twitter, on facebook or whatever other social network available.. If you have a problem with me, then talk to me. You don't have to involve other people, you know. By not attacking me directly, it shows such cowardly play.  I won't care what you do unless someone ask me to. I've said this once before and I shall say it again. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy.

Oh, and on another note, I am a type of person that does not know how to get angry. I do not know how to yell to their face when I am pissed off. I only know that if I am angry, I will distance myself from those people who made me angry.  I am also the type of person that will no hesitate to cut a friendship with people that keep testing my patience and irritates me. I've done it to a lot of people and I'm not going to stop there.

So, whatever word you want to put behind the title to describe me, I don't really care. Here, let me help you with a few:

I am just that cold-hearted

I am just that bitchy

I am just that mental

I am just that evil 

I am just that fucktard

I am just that sluty

...and whatever you want, I don't care, I don't want to care unless somebody tells me to. Until then, have fun with whatever relationship you have.

Oh, and just for your information, if your friends started leaving one by one, doesn't that make you think? Stop being so clueless and realize it already.

++saykoji89++

++fake friends she said. I wonder then what kind of friend she is?++

P/s: I would really love to tell you this straight to your face, but it seems energy consuming. So, I'll just tell it here. You don't count it as an "ex" if you haven't declared your relationship. Please don't give misleading information to people.

pp/s: And nobody really give a fuck if your boyfriend is American, European, Asian or even an alien. Stop emphasizing it every single time. This is not like the olden days where mixed marriage of different countries is rare. It has been done to death. People might think you are just after him because of his heritage, not because you really love him. 

I need money

So, after researching for quite sometime, I found a brand that Takuya has several clothing from. It's a brand called Reversal.Dogi.Design.Works. Although the design seems awesome but sadly, it's only available as a Japanese brand so far and no news about it going worldwide. 

I've wondered through the collection and I found this hoodie that Takuya is wearing here:

It's the exact same design, but the price of this hoodie (hoodie, not jacket hoodie) is JPY12,500 . That is equivalent to RM420. For a hoodie??? I can buy 2 UVERworld DVD with that money and still have some left for a magazine or two or three.

++saykoji89++

++I feel depressed++