I am afraid

This is kind of related to my last blog post. So yeah.

Firstly, happy new year. If I have ever done anything during last year that annoyed you, pisses you off, said the wrong things or completely ignoring you,

....suck it up, because this year is not going to be any difference.

Okay, back to the original story, from what I've researched on the internet, and according to this quiz I take, I might have MS. MS is actually Multiple Sclerosis which means, there is something wrong with your nerves.

But nothing is confirmed yet. I first have to see a doctor about this. Too bad here in Putrajaya/Cyberjaya area there is no neurologist around. I may just have to suck it up and go to a government clinic to see what they want my diagnosis to be.

The thing about MS is, there is no known cure. This statement is what scares me the most. In fact, to be bluntly honest, when I first searched the internet and I found out my symptoms were similar to MS, just thinking that I might have this disease made me cry. Although you cannot possibly die of MS, but you can die of having complications due to MS.

But thinking on the positive side, (this will be very insensitive from my side) but at least MS is not as bad as ALS? And it's not even as bad as Spinocerebellar Ataxia? I don't know. Again, I might be over thinking some things. Maybe it's just a normal thing. Maybe it's nothing as bad of a disease. Maybe I'm just stressed out. I don't know... 

But all I know is that it is very frustrating when you don't know what is wrong with your body. And not to be mean to the medicinal practices in Malaysia, but these doctors expect you to know what is wrong with your body. It seems like you have to diagnose yourself, go to the doctor to get him to supply you with medicines legally. And sometimes, it seems like the patients know more than the doctors themselves... 

Anyway, enough ranting. Just by ranting here and there, I have 4 pain jolts in different area and muscle twitching all over the place. At first you might not seem to care, but I'm telling you, after more than a year of this, it is very very VERY irritating. I'll just pop by the doctor's office tomorrow.

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