People these days

Is there a tie when you wished you could just turn the time around? I have a lot of those feelings. Sometimes I just wanna be 12 again because honestly, that was the best year of my life so far. I don't give a fuck on how I look like, or give a damn what people say about me. As long as I am with my two trusted friends, I'm happy.

But as I grew older, life gets shittier. Its always full of shit. People back-stabbing here and there, criticism to listen to, and people to be nice to. Ah, how I want to be a kid again. If someone created a time portal, please don't hesitate to call me.

When I was 12, I didn't care of anything. How my drawing sucks, how boyish I am, how I hate hanging around girls, I didn't care about any of them. Now, I feel like my every action is being evaluated. I feel suffocated. It's kinda easy to see why people would start to give up on living. There are a few things that could make you put a gun to your head.

My mom once said that if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. Well, then why don't certain people just do that? Is t damn nice to say bad stuff about other people behind their backs? Don't their parents teach them the same thing? Or did their parents say "You know what, go ahead. Talk about bad stuff of other people. That'll make you live longer". I don't think any parents in their right mind would do that.

It kinda makes me wonder why human are like this. Can't they just be content of what they have. Must they be greedy? The seven deadly sins are not suppose to be our friend and yet I can see that most people are befriending them like they are the newest pop artist.

I have to admit, I'm not perfect. I have my own flaws. I like to read yaoi fanfictions. I'm lazy and sloppy and I like to wake up late and all. Yes, I tend to be jealous of other people. But it is something I take positively like when I see someone really beautiful I say to myself, "I'm gonna try to lose a few pounds and look as beautiful as that girl". I kinda make it my motivation although I don't follow through and give up halfway. Half the people I know would probably say something like "That girl is beautiful, but I heard she's been XXXX"

Why? Why downgrade other people? Downgrade them so they could be lower than you? Wouldn't it be better if you would just upgrade yourself? Well, that's human to you. Maybe I should try to be an alien? But a favourite band of mine once sang that

"The existence of the unknown world must be the top secret"

True. Maybe that's why we haven't uncovered it yet. It's not supposed to be touched by mere human like us. Maybe before we uncover the truth about the universe, we should learn the truth of mankind. The rest, just leave it to God. He knows how to handle it.

++saykoji89++

++before criticizing others, we must look at ourself first++