Re: Birth

I hate quiet nights, my anxiety flares up and I can’t sleep
If I cried it out I’d feel better, but crying just makes me thirsty

The truth is, see, even now I can’t stop shaking

I feel like something’s about to break

Don’t just say “It’s OK”

I’m not that strong

In my heart, the words and feelings I’d locked away

Have shaken off reason and begun to run riot again

I get it, already! Don’t glare at me with such a scary expression

Please, just leave me alone for a little while

I don’t want to do the things I love, I’m so afraid of tomorrow I want to die

If I ran away I’d feel better, but if I run away I’ll just want to die of shame

I pretend to be enjoying myself even though I’m not

What for? Who am I doing it for?

What should I do next? Should I smile again?

I don’t know, I can’t find the answer

Shattered, I move to a high place, I’m almost there

But he always keeps getting in the way

There’s something I want so much to tell him, but I can’t say it well

Even though I’m screaming so close to him

I just want to feel better now, but I don’t want to give up

I asked myself again

I keep losing heart, thinking “I can’t go any further...I can’t walk anymore”

But I’ve still managed to keep walking, right?