Hahahaha.

I just heard something really funny today. Some person gave me a way to help heal broken hearts, depression and bipolar. That person told me to try weeding.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

NO!

No matter how depressed I am, no matter how emotionally unstable I am, and no matter how heart broken I am, that is NOT the answer. I don't care how healthy it is, but I'm still not doing it. 

Here's the thing, I don't like addictive things. That is why I don't drink coffee, because it's addictive. Once you get, addicted, you will probably do the same thing over and over again. And THAT is boring. I don't like repetitive cycle. 

I may sound like what my doctor use to tell me, but when you feel that all hope is lost, justr remember that there is this one more person who will stay by your side. Which is our God, Allah S.W.T. Rather than doing those things, I rather increase my zikr and solat. 

Those greens are not worth it but the Zikr and solat does. They will help me in the afterlife. So take your greens and get it out of my way. 

Day 22 - Favorite UVERworld album

THIS!!!

Why? Because all the songs in here are awesome!

Day 21 - One UVERworld song that you could listen to forever

I guess it's Awayokuba Kiru. Why? I have no idea. And for the past month, that has been the only song on my playlist. I play that song when I'm about to sleep, when I'm doing my work, when I have to do business in the toilet, and when I go for a walk. It has only been that song. Just recently I've been alternating between Awayokuba and The Over.

Day 20 - Favorite UVERworld lyric

You expect me to choose one??? Only one?? Why not just just ask me if I want water or air? Or ask me whether I want to keep my left hand or my right hand?

But dramas aside, all of their song have great lyrics. I'll just give my top 3 then.

"癒えない 痛み 悲しみで

キズついた 君

もう笑えないなんて

人嫌いなんて 言葉そう言わないで "

"Being hurt by pain and sadness that can't be healed

Don't say you can't smile anymore or you hate people"

_D-tecnolife_

"君がこの世から去れば 

僕は君を追いかけこの世から発つ

一人きりの寂しさは もうない 

そんな恋をあげるよ"

"If you decided to leave this world

I will also leave this world and follow you

I will give you the kind of love

that you will never feel the loneliness of being alone anymore"

_AWAYOKUBA KIRU_

"でも 君だけが離せない

何故君だけが離せない"

"But I can't let you go

Why can't I let you go?"

_THE OVER_

Day 19 - Favorite Nobuto picture

Since Nobuto is like this playful type, so I like it when he looks serious. It makes you think "Ah, this guy is really good looking"

Day 18 - Favorite Shintarou picture

This picture of him and Takuya together. They seemed like they are in high school, during recess browsing through a magazine. And Takuya will be like: "Oh, this band is awesome. I heard them before", and Shin-chan would say: "Eh, they don't look that sugoii to me *slurps drink loudly*"

Day 17 - Favorite Akira picture

It has to be this picture. Seriously, Akira, what the hell are you doing? Painting your shoes? In the middle of a hallway? Seriously? Seriously?

Day 16 - Favorite Katsuya picture

When he's doing the UVERjump with his guitar~

Day 15 - Favorite TAKUYA picture

Again I am undecided between 2 pictures.

The first one is this.

It's a picture of Takuya holding our baby his stylist's baby. I like this picture because of his facial expression. So genuinely blissful. And also how he gently holds the baby. I can tell that Takuya is going to be a great father to our children in the future.

The next picture is this.

Tell me who doesn't love those abs. He may not have a perfect 6-packs but it's perfect enough for me. I don't really like a guy who is too muscular. Seems too fake. Yes, although the muscles are real, I still don't like muscular guys. I prefer mine slender with the perfect amount of muscles in the right places.

Day 14 - Favorite UVERworld picture

THIS!

Ever since I start discovering UVERworld, this has always been my favourite picture of the group because for once, you get to see Shin-chan do the UVERjump as well. Usually he can't do it because for obvious reasons, he is the drummer. Anyway, the water effect makes it even much awesome. Oh, this may be a minor reason, but it's because I have the exact same shoes as Takuya is wearing in this picture except mine is blue.

Day 13 - Favorite music video

You mean, favourite music video so far. Hmm... it's a tie between Awayokuba and THE OVER. But from the story telling point of view, it has to be THE OVER. The song is already sad enough (for me at least) and when you add the video, it makes me want to marry Takuya this instant!

Anyway, here is the video of UVERworld's latest single, THE OVER.

Day 12 - Something you love about Nobuto

First thing first! The thing that I like about Nobuto is the fact he has the same birth date as ME!!! Yeah, for all you people out there who didn't know, our birth date is on the 14th February, which is VALENTINES DAY!!.  I have never known anyone who shares the same birth date with me before.

The second thing I like about him, is his ability, or in his case inability to sing. He sucks at singing. Any of you guys heard him sing before? If you haven't don't worry, I will provide a video. His singing may sucks as hell (but really cute in a way) but his bass playing is awesome!

And lastly, it's his clumsiness. Even Takuya had fun teasing about his clumsiness!

Day 11 - Something you love about Shintarou

His drumming skills. And his playfulness. And his hobby of reading manga. But mainly his drumming skills. Let me post a few videos to show off his drumming skills.

Day 10 - Something you love about Akira

If you can play this video, it shows all the awesome things I like about Akira.

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And if you can't, what I like about Akira is his goatee (obviously), his wicked guitar solo (my friend told me to do an acoustic guitar solo is difficult and Akira did it perfectly) and his UVERjump. Wait... I like everyone's UVERjump... =_=;;

Day 9 - Something you love about Katsuya

Ah, Leader-san wa ne...

I like how he seemed to be the mother of the group (Cooking for them)

I also like the playful and bakawaii leader~

Ka...KAWAIII~~~

I like the part where Takuya was surprised. He's so cute~~~ Oh, and Shin-chan is also cute in here....

P/s: I should really get my work done... Procrastinating at it's finest.

Another weird dream....

So to add to my collection of weird dreams, I had another one last night. And again, thanks to my scumbag brain, I dreamed of Hafiz. Okay, this is getting ridiculous. I am supposed to be over him. I hardly think of him. But why the hell is he in my dreams? Anyway, in my dream, there were all my ex-schoolmates from Labuan. 

I can remember my dream from one point. An accident. So, apparently Hafiz got into an accident and both his legs had to be amputated. (I know this is mean but believe me, it was not me who controlled the dream. It was my scumbag brain) After that incident, we don't talk at all because I'm afraid that I might say something insensitive to him. 

Somehow, after that, we had a class trip or something to Johor. (Is there no other place?) I was walking with a friend around a shopping complex when I went to wander around on my own when I saw Hafiz walking (yes, walking, even though he had his legs amputated from thighs down) with Rohaimin. Before I coukd get away, Rohaimin saw me first and asked me to join them. I wanted to decline but I don't want it to be super obvious that I'm avoiding Hafiz. So, I  accepted Rohaimin's invitation.

But with Rohaimin being himself, a few minutes later he excused himself by wating to go to the toilet, but moments later we saw him taking the escalator upwards toward the next floor. So, what is left now is this awkward me and Hafiz. To distract myself, I quickly went to this hobby shop which apparently sold SasuNaru item, I was hoping this would disgust him and he will leave on his own accord. But my thoughts were wrong. He volunteered to pay for this awesome  merchandise. 

And apparently, after that, the awkwardness began to loosen up. We chatted like we used to before my stupid mouth go ask him this question, "I thought you had your legs cut off. How come you can walk?" Lucky for me, he didn't kill me on the spot and just answered that he was wearing prosthetic legs. And after this, I woke up from this weird dream. I was like "fuck you brain. Is there no other person to dream of? You can always dream of Takuya, you know"

Then I went back to sleep again, only to dream that I went grocery shopping with Nien's sister. (well, seriously brain?) She drove the car super fast to a shopping mall that looks awfully familiar but I can't remember where. And the best part, we go lost in there. Then I woke up again. 

Moral of the story, my brain is a scumbag. End of story

Scumbag brain

Yes, scumbag brain. Dear brain, please just get over that guy. It is frustrating! It has been years, just get over him already! There is no reason to remember him out of the blue.  That guy also is probably happy with his girlfriend. 

Seriously, it is really frustrating to have a dream of him only to wake up and realize that you can't have him anyway. Just remember that he is no longer the person you knew... That person is gone. Everyone changes and no one stays the same. Not even me.

So, now I shall go back to my fangirling world. Which, I have no idea why, my heart aches for Takuya. Ini lagi tidak realistik. How can I have Takuya when he is all the way in Japan? But it's just that my heart feels empty and that emptiness hurts whenever I hear his voice. Ah, I want to marry Takuya. Shimizu-san, Kekkon shitai desu. Kekkon shimasu, Shimizu-san.

Day 8 - Something you love about TAKUYA

What I don't like about Takuya would be a shorter explanation. I love almost everything about Takuya. Especially is voice. When I first heard of the band, I was thinking to myself, "wow, the vocalist has an awesome vocal". It is as if whatever feelings he is trying to convey, had reached my heart properly. 

So, here's a video of Takuya singing an alcapella version of Core Pride so you judge his voice yourself.

Day 7 - Favorite song from “LAST”

It would be Kokoro to Kokoro. It would definitely be Kokoro to Kokoro. The main reason was because during a live, Takuya accidentally mixed up the first chorus of the song and the face he did later was so adorable. Now, whenever I sing this song, during the first chorus I would also mixed up the lyrics. Not on purpose, I swear! It's just the way Takuya did the face was UVERcute that it etched itself into my memory.

You are wondering which one? Play the video and you will know.