++Sayko's Asylum++

Please Understand

2020-02-14T03:30:00.000+08:00

If you found this by any chance, congratulations. You have finally found my blog where I usually reveal my utmost secrets to. Maybe not my utmost secrets, as those are reserved for my diary, but my blog comes second place close. And judging by your awesome skill of finding things on the net, it must have taken you a long way to find this. So once again I offer you my congratulations.

By the time you are reading this, you would probably have notice why I started ignoring you/ avoiding you. You must think that I hate you or there's a third person involved in this. Rest assured that this is all based on my own decisions and I don't hate you. No, seriously, I don't hate you. It's quite the opposite actually. I like you. I really, really like you.

And now you must think, if I really like you, why am I avoiding you to the point as if I hate you. It's simple really. That's because I'm giving up on you. Actually, I plan to give up on you a long time ago, but you are seriously making it difficult for me to do so. And, despite that, you also keep making me have high hopes for you. Every time I want to forget you, you'll come around, but when I want you, you're gone until the next time I'll try to forget you.

I just want to say, good luck in whatever you do, stop getting mad all the time and take care of your health. And that if you need anything, you know where to find me. Here. I'll be missing you a lot but I need you to understand that I have to move on. Thanks for everything though. I'll be in touch when I'm not so hung up over you.

++saykoji89++

++watching you with another hurts me++

I hate this error

2012-02-05T06:39:00.002+08:00

Random Picture

2012-01-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

Making plans

2012-01-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

So, it's already 2012. Happy New Year to all my readers (if I have any). So, since last night I have been making plans to travel to Japan in 5 years time. I started to look at the prices for airfare, hotels, transportation, theme park and what not. I just concluded that I need RM50,000 for the holiday. (This includes air tickets, hotel and 1,000,000 JPY)

Then I thought, I could give the holiday plans to my parents instead. You know, plan the holiday, pay for everything and on their anniversary hand them their tickets and say "Ma, you better pack your bags cause your plane leaves in 12 hours" or something like that. But than I thought, the surprise trip will be a bit hard, getting the visas and everything.... Hard, but not impossible.

So, my 2017 resolution is to send my parents on a surprise holiday. (If I'm still alive or the world hasn't end yet.)

Fuck This

2011-12-12T06:27:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what just happened. Okay, maybe not just happened, and maybe it's been dragging on for quite sometime now. I can't bitch at twitter, since some people will call it spamming with my mood swings. And I can't post it on facebook doesn't seem private any longer. I can only rely on my blog then.

Anyway, I was scrolling through FB just now and I found this comment left on a page by one of my supposedly friends on fb. When I read it, I was like "what the fuck?". I know it may or may not seem to target at me or my clique of friends but seriously, what the fuck?

Call me over-thinking or paranoid but I have a feeling there is a conspiracy somewhere. I get the feeling that people seem to think I hate them. When I want to hate, I'll hate. But for now, I don't see any reason to hate anyone. Even when I say I hate you, it's in a playful tone. If I really hate you, I wouldn't give a fuck about you.

And yes, I am random. I have mood swings. Happy? Wanna know why I have mood swings? Want to know why I am random? It's because I have ADHD and Bipolar. Have no clue about that, go google it. If you can read this why not google it, I have no time explaining to the likes of you. But, wait. Even if you did read about it on google, you would know how it feels, asshole. Cause you don't go through it.

You never did feel how it's like to cry for no apparent reason. You never did feel how it's like to be so alone in the most crowded place. You never know how it's like to have blades tearing your skin when you prefer physical pain rather than emotional pains. You never did feel what it's like to smile when all you want to do is cry and go rampage. You never did feel what it's like to be me. And yet you people fucking judged me. I never judged you.

Yes, I'm being emo, but who the hell cares. This is just crossing the boundaries. Even I have my limits to where I can tolerate this bloody thing. I don't give a damn if you're reading this or not, but I just want you to know, fuck you. Thank you for being the ultimate hypocrite. I have never expected that from you. Job well done. If you're being a hypocrite, I can be one too.

I don't hate people without a reason and this, my friend, is a good enough reason for me.

Twitter

2011-11-24T17:13:00.000+08:00

Not active here. Find me on Twitter.

Halloween event

2011-11-05T03:27:00.002+08:00

My Halloween night with the ghost house event rolling on. This is me and my club prez. Guess which one is me~ Hint: I wear a hoodie~ hahahahaha~

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY (although it has passed)

++saykoji89++

++tired and sick++

Itsuka kanarazu koto wa wasurena

2011-10-30T04:29:00.003+08:00

This is the PV for UVERworld's single Itsuka Kanarazu Koto wa Wasurena which if literally translated would mean "Don't forget that you will surely die one day"

This song is one of my favourite songs from UVERworld after Kami Atsume and before Hakuchuumu... Anyway, credit goes to ambersubs for subbing the video. Enjoy~

++saykoji89++

++UVERworld always comes out with a song that goes with my mood++

Giving all the fuck

2011-10-30T01:29:00.002+08:00

Wow, I am amazed by some people who doesn't know the word responsibility. You must have led an easy life. Anything that burdens you, dump it. Pass it to someone else. Leave the project. Wow, just.... wow...

I am not saying that I am the most responsible person on earth. I'm not even close. But here's the thing, I don't ditch it last minute. Yes, there are a lot of things that I've fucked up in my life. But I faced the damn thing until the end of the fucked up thing even if I know it will fail for sure. Why? Because I feel that it's not fair for me to give up easily when others have to face the failure.

Yes, I have been given a position that scares me if I fail, and yes, I did fail the position epicly. But the thing is I didn't gave up. And I was also given stuff that I hated and terrified of to handle. Yes, I was afraid but I took time to adjust and went on with it. Scared as hell, yes. Project complete, yes.

So I am really, really impressed with people who can leave whatever their working on without a single fuck. Impressed, I am but annoyed when they bitch about it to their other friends. Bitch, do you even think what shit you left for others who have to handle? You, my friend, deserve a clap, in your face, with 2 cymbals...

++saykoji89++

So fucked up

2011-10-26T02:30:00.002+08:00

My life at the moment is a big bowl of crap. Although it might not seem like it but that is exactly what I'm feeling right now. I want to scream, cry, throw something at someone, punch them till I feel better but somehow I can't bring myself to do anything... And yes, I also felt like cutting myself like I used to do but I promised myself not to. Cutting is kinda like a drug, at first you do it only a bit but sooner or later you'll get addicted to it and I'll be back at square one.

I am so fed up with everything that I can't even cry even if it hurts so much. Everyday I smile, I laugh with others but somehow it's all on the outside. On the inside, it still hurts. It's painful. I'm surrounded by people yet I feel very lonely. And that is the worst loneliness of all.

Currently everything pisses me off. Even things that I normally don't give a fuck to. But the thing that pisses me off the most right now is that everytime I try to get a proper sleep, there would be these annoying noises that will wake me up. Fuck those. I hate myself for unable to ignore all those noises and just continue to sleep like normal people would.

Moral of the story: I just need some proper fucking sleep before I drive myself insane.

To Kaizu and Kyoko

2011-10-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

I need this book

2011-10-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

Seriously....

2011-10-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

Oh so true

2011-10-13T00:54:00.001+08:00

But you can never be too careful so you come up with all this creative names to confuse him even more, just in case he's reading your blog.

Been there,

Done that,

Still doing it~

++saykoji89++

++damn flu++

Genius~

2011-10-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

'So long as we maybe;

Till the time we separate,

Always be with me.

You must never

At all forget your duties towards me.

While I am far,

Always think of me,

Yet still managing the house,

For me.

Rest assure that till the time you get,

Old, I will watch over you.

My time,

My strength, will be for us both for,

Ever.'

++saykoji89++

++I love daddy++

I don't know why I still do this..

2011-10-12T00:45:00.003+08:00

This is exactly how I feel when I get a text from someone I hardly knew or someone I like... I'll type and delete, then typed again and delete it again and the process goes on until I feel like the reply won't make me sound like some idiot psychopath or some bastard with sticks up their ass.

Usually the ones who'll get replies without me needing to edit and 'tapis' my text is my family and laling and kyoko since they already knew my crazy randomness, Even my mom say, if I start acting normal, something is wrong with me.

But for everyone else, especially the one I'm awkward with, yes, I'll stare at the text for 15 minutes trying to think of a proper response. The less awkward I am with you, the faster you'll get my replies..

++saykoji89++

++I'm anti-social++

The lies teachers told us...

2011-10-11T12:46:00.001+08:00

Half-assed doodles

2011-10-10T15:49:00.005+08:00

This are the doodles I did during the holidays.. I'm so lazy to use the scanner thus I only took using my phone camera. (My dad's actually) So... enjoy?

++saykoji89++

++so lazy to edit the pics++

No updates...

2011-10-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

Not much update for today, but I'll just upload whatever doodle I did during this holiday break....

....tomorrow.

It's not that I don't want to upload it, it's just that the scanner is in my parents room. So, I'll scan it tomorrow, and post it up tomorrow. If I don't.... I'll will never eat PB&J ever again...

++saykoji89++

++I failed my mission++

My name according to Urban Dictionary

2011-10-09T01:07:00.003+08:00

LOL, I didn't know people with the same name as me has this kind of characteristic? But I like the first definition, there's a bit of truth in there... I think..

++saykoji89++

++In so much pain++

Differences between now and 10 years ago

2011-10-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

Because I was bored to the point of dying, I managed to recover my past diaries that I have been keeping ever since I was still an elementary kid. When I compare them, it's funny to think how much I have changed over the past 10 years. Here are a few examples:

Bedtime

10 years ago: The latest is by 11 pm but I'd be asleep by 10pm.

Now: 3 am would be the earliest.

When I'm bored:

10 years ago: I take a pencil and paper and let my imagination flow.

Now: Internet.

Communicate with friends:

10 years ago: Hours and hours on the phone using the house line.

Now: Facebook, Twitter, etc

Going out:

10 years ago: As often as I could.

Now: I rather stay home.

Opinion of guys:

10 years ago: FRIENDS!!!

Now: Is he gay?

Opinion of girls:

10 years ago: Bitchy

Now: Sluts and whores

Swear words:

10 years ago: Stupid, idiot etc

Now: Fuck!

So, how have you change? I know I seem to change for the worse but all that is a part of growing up right? Right? Ah, who cares? Look at all the fuck I give. (which is none by the way) Till then, cheerio good sir~

++saykoji89++

++I'm trying to act like I'm a Brit++

Homaigod...

2011-10-08T01:06:00.002+08:00

I was searching for a good book to read just now and I found my diary that I kept in 2006. So I decided to read it and see what are the moments I had in 2006. It turns out that I used to have a boyfriend... Shocker that. Where was I during the entire relationship? Not kidding, I didn't remember a single thing.

According to my diary, I knew him somewhere in February 2006 and we broke up somewhere in May 2007. He gave me a lot of stuff (which I can't remember) through postage since I was in Labuan and he was in Shah Alam at that time, and I kept all his PosLaju slips in the diary...

Apparently, I was the one who broke up with him because according to my diary, I was bored with him. Is that the reason I forgot him completely? Because he bores me? Oh God, I do that to people?? Luckily I kept those memories in my diary, if not I would probably have forgotten about him till God knows when...

Human minds are really capable of doing something we never thought of doing. Then mind, please help me erase the existence of this certain guy. I'm bored of him too...

++saykoji89++

++Pijo, I'm so sorry++

Please understand me

2011-10-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

True story

2011-10-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

Oh my heart...

2011-10-07T00:30:00.003+08:00

I miss someone.. But at the same time, I don't think I miss him that much and yet I think of him all day... But it is not like I miss him all that much... But I can't get him of my mind...

WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO???

++saykoji89++

++please stop trolling++

p/s: Laling, it's penguin if that is what you're wondering.

You know what...

2011-10-06T02:27:00.002+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE!

..sekian, terima kasih.

++saykoji89++

++why the fuck??++

I've experienced this before....

2011-10-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

This makes me think

2011-10-04T23:46:00.002+08:00

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2011-10-03T18:58:00.001+08:00

True Story

2011-10-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

2011-10-03T18:49:00.001+08:00

2011-10-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

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Story of my life

2011-10-03T18:31:00.001+08:00

How true

2011-10-03T18:24:00.001+08:00

100 Truths

2011-10-03T17:51:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:

* Last beverage: Milk
* Last phone call: Laling
* Last text message: Twitter
* Last song you listened to: Numb by Linkin Park
* Last time you cried: Few nights ago for no reason

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Dated someone twice: Hah??
* Been cheated on: Not sure...
* Kissed someone & regretted it: Kiss my brother and he regret it.
* Lost someone special: Yes.
* Been depressed: Always, whenever I'm not high.
* Been drunk and threw up: Nope, never drank alcohol.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOUR:
Blue, Orange and Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2011):

* Made a new friend: Yes
* Fallen out of love: Yes
* Laughed until you cried: A few times
* Met someone who changed you: Yes
* Found out who your true friends were: Yup
* Found out someone was talking about you: Not this year coz I don't give a damn
* Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes, on the cheek
* How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: around 95%
* How many kids do you want?: 2
* Do you have any pets: My lovely, lovely red-eared sliders
* Do you want to change your name: Not for the time being, but I do want to change my nickname
* What did you do for your last birthday: nothing, literally.
* What time did you wake up today: 1 pm
* What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting
* Name something you CANNOT wait for: To get my own car
* Last time you saw your Mother: Just now
* What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: None
* What are you listening to right now: Music on my lappie
* Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes
* What's getting on your nerves right now: Something that I can't say here
* Most visited webpage: Facebook
* Whats your real name: Nur Sharain
* Nicknames: Sayko
* Relationship Status: Single but not available
* Zodiac sign: Aquarius
* Male or female?: Female
* Primary School?: SRK Sri subang Jaya 2 & SK Bandar Sunway
* Secondary School?: SMK Bandar Sunway, SMK SS17, SBPI Sabak Bernam, SM Sains Labuan
* High school/college?: Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, UiTM Shah Alam, UiTM Melaka Kampus Lendu, MMU
* Hair colour: Black wit kinda brownish
* Long or short: Short
* Height: Last check 170cm.
* Do you have a crush on someone?: At the moment?
* What do you like about yourself?: My randomness.
* Piercings: None
* Tattoos: None
* Righty or left: Now righty.

FIRSTS :

* First surgery: When I was six, but it was a minor one.
* First piercing: None
* First sport you joined: Badminton
* First vacation: The first one I remember is to Langkawi.

RIGHT NOW:

* Eating: Just ate homemade corn-in-cup
* Drinking: Nothing
* I'm about to: Tweet something
* Listening to: No Air by Jordin Sparks
* Waiting on: ....something

YOUR FUTURE:

* Want kids?: sure
* Get Married?: duh... see above.
* Career?: Animator

WHICH IS BETTER:
* Lips or eyes: of course both
* Hugs or kisses: both
* Shorter or taller: Taller
*Older or Younger: Older
* Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
* Nice stomach or nice arms: I'd say arms.
* Sensitive or loud: Someone in the middle
* Hook-up or relationship: Scandal~
* Trouble maker or hesitant: Someone who's not boring.

HAVE YOU EVER:

* Kissed a stranger: No
* Drank hard liquor: Not in my lifetime
* Lost glasses/contacts: Lost it... then found it... then lost it again...
* Sex on first date: Hell no
* Broken someone's heart: I don't know
* Been arrested: Not yet...
* Turned someone down: I think so..
* Cried when someone died: I'm not heartless
* Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

* Yourself: Sometimes
* Miracles: Probably
* Love at first sight: NO.SUCH.LUCK
* Heaven: Yes
* Santa Claus: No
* Kiss on the first date: No
* Angels: The real angel

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

* Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Yes?
* Did you sing today?: YES!!!
* Ever cheated on somebody?: Yeah..
* If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: My school days
* If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : None, apparently last year sucks
* Are you afraid of falling in love?: Not really...

2011-10-03T17:46:00.002+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY
Fly Me to the Moon

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
S.O.S

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Solo

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fall For You

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
4 in the Morning

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Today is Gonna be A Great Day

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lemon Tree

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Day You Went Away

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ghost of You

10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
I Don't Wanna Know

It's kinda funny

2011-10-02T03:07:00.002+08:00

I just finished crying for no apparent reason. Now that I think about it, it's kinda funny... I was laughing and all and suddenly my mood drops. All of the sudden I feel sad and started crying on my own.. If other people saw it, they might think I'm nuts...

Actually, I'm just trying to cheer myself up but failing epicly. I might go cool my head in the showers if this feeling doesn't go away soon...

++saykoji89++

++I feel empty++

Promote~

2011-09-30T19:05:00.001+08:00

This is the event I'm taking part in for next semester. Handling it makes me go crazy and I feel like killing myself for a few times but this will one day be a good experience for me. Kind of like a training before I go deal with the real world.

But anyways, come and join in the fun~~~

++saykoji89++

++hahahaha++

Be grateful

2011-09-29T18:40:00.003+08:00

Last night, my friend asked, "What is your best experience?" and to which my other friend replied he can't say what is best or bad experience as anything he's gone through are interesting experience, both bad and good, but there's lesson behind it...

which makes me wonder about my own experience, and in every which one I have something to complain about... Which also makes me realize that I am a spoiled brat. I got (almost) everything I ever asked for. Why am I complaining?

Ever since small, my parents took me on vacations to all sorts of places while some people hardly even leave their own state. I got to eat delicious food every night while some people struggle to eat just for a day. I complain the lack of internet while some people do not even know how to operate a PC.

Just today, I was complaining about the "extreme" heat in Alor Setar ever since the plane landed. Complain and complain. Then my dad took me out to fetch my cousin from his collage. I was just about to complain about the super hot weather when I saw a little girl, around 9 or 10, walking home (which the nearest house I see is like 3 km away) under the hot sun. I was in the car, with air conditioner, and that girl is walking under the hot sun... I was speechless. Instead of being grateful that my dad had a car with a/c, I was complaining like some spoiled brat (which actually the type of person I hate)

So, I'm trying to change my ways and try to stop and think before I complain about anything...

++saykoji89++

++It hurts when sudden realization hits you++

I hate decisions...

2011-09-28T15:44:00.003+08:00

I am on the brink of dying with this one decision that I have to make.

SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR OR NOT???

If I cut my hair short:

I have to deal with the curl every day
My hair will be a mess every morning thanks to Mr. Pillow
No dandruff and falling hair

If I leave my hair long:

It's gonna be extra hot on bloody warm days
Easier to manage (use fingers oso can)
NO BLOODY CURL
Hair keeps falling off

So, I don't know what to do now... Like they say, "Rambut itu mahkota wanita" (Hair is a woman's throne) [my foot].

++saykoji89++

++Hair, y u give me problems??++

Have you ever?

2011-09-27T00:24:00.004+08:00

Have you ever lived my life,

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't tell me why

You judge me like you do?

Have you woke up in the morning

Wondering if it was your last day on earth?

Have you ever left your house

Unsure if you'd return?

Have you ever sat beneath the stars

Hoping Good will hear?

Have you ever sent your loved ones away

When you wish that they could be near?

Have you ever considered suicide

As the only way?

Have you ever tried to hide yourself

Behind the things you say?

Have you ever wanted to protect

Your friends and everyone in sight?

Have you ever felt so much pain

That you cried yourself to sleep at night?

Have you ever lived my life,

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't tell me why

You judge me like you do?

formspring.me

2011-09-25T00:37:00.001+08:00

Questions?... http://formspring.me/saykoji89

Hate this feeling

2011-09-21T11:30:00.002+08:00

Not that I don't like having bipolar, I love them. I really do. But the pain in the ass thing is when I have been in a long period of hyper/manic mood. Not that I say being too happy is not good for me, well actually, that is what I'm trying to say. I've been too happy lately. And now the depressed mood finally kicks in, and I am in a total mess.

Because I was hyper for a long time, when my mood starts to drop, it's reaching rock bottom. I want scream, I want to cry but I can't. I want to hurt myself but I can't. I feel hopeless. I feel sad. I feel angry, but I can't find the reason for it. I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind...

Even with people around me, I feel lonely. I feel like I can't connect with anyone. I feel like I'm invisible.

++saykoji89++

++I hate this++

I Don't Understand

2011-09-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

I don't understand you. One minute you're happy and the other you start getting pissed off. And I thought I had bipolar. Unless you tell me, I won't know since I'm too oblivious to my surroundings.

++saykoji89++

++I don't give a damn anymore++

In My World

2011-09-09T11:37:00.001+08:00

Dark side in my heart is
a grief from the past that cannot be wiped away.
It's alright, for I don't actually give a damn.
I fired my blaster, and stretched out my hands.
I've detached my life from myself,
so that I could gaze into the picture frame.
However, in there, there's no proof of my existence,
and I can barely even protect my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has been like this for a while.
And then, everyone has disappeared off it...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

Dark cloud in my heart is
clearing up, and light is shining onto my path.
Let's fight, without any fear,
with a double-edged sword brandished over our head.
My life is not so lonesome,
for I am being guided by the voices of my comrades.
With the proof of my existence reaffirmed,
I released my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has always been like this.
Now my hesitation has completely dissipated...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
I will be a reckless daredevil and cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I can hear an aria of love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or weak grumblings, I have already crushed them with my hands.
The more I threw it away, the more precious it became;
it's my precious life.

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

I will simply repaint my destiny.
Even if I become covered in wounds, I'll try for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I still sing about love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or the bond and the future we are starting to build up and consolidate,
they are still precious in the end even when I have thrown them away.
It's my precious life.

Today~~

2011-09-02T21:29:00.003+08:00

This morning, when I woke up I was like...

YOSH.... LET'S GET SOME WORK DONE TODAY!!

But after a few hours, I was like...

Aw, fuck.... Now I'm bored...

So, my cousin called and ask me to go out with her, and I was like...

Yatta! Saved from my awful boredom~~

Then, when we came back I was like...

Ah... now I'm bored again...

So, I turned on my facebook and saw the event I was supposed to do is now rolling in action and I'm swamped with tonnes of work. So, naturally I was like...

FFUUUUUUU!!!! Why so many things to do!!!

To release stress I now go watch Titanic, in which I was like...

Awwww..... How sweet.... Too bad they died..

So, that is basically my day today. How was yours?

++saykoji89++

++Boredom kills me++

Thank You

2011-09-02T06:23:00.004+08:00

I'd like to thank this person I met somewhat during this year. Regretfully before meeting this person, I am sad to say that I have been neglecting my daily religious duties. But somehow after the meeting, I began to realize how I was wrong in so many ways.

This person taught me that you don't have to push away your duties to fully enjoy our youthful life. This person also taught me that you may ignore The Almighty, but He never ignores you. You might hate whatever challenges He puts you through, but it is only for your good later in life.

This reminds me of a story I heard before from the Ustaz that taught me when I was younger. There was a guy who asked from God a flower and a butterfly, but God only gave him a plant and a caterpillar. At first the man was frustrated but after time goes by, the plant bloomed the most beautiful flower and the caterpillar turns into the most beautiful butterfly. Moral? Good things comes for those who wait.

Anyway, to the person who may or may not read this, I'd like to thank you for making me realizing this although you might have not spoken a word about it, but it was your actions that made me realize it... Thank you.

Who Am I To Say - Hope

2011-09-02T05:41:00.001+08:00

Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come and gone
Don't know why I'm still searching

Don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Hmmm hmmm mmm
Uhhh oohhh aahhh
Hooo aahhh ohh ohhh

Now you're a song I love to sing
Never thought it'd feel so free
Now I know what's meant to be
And that's okay with me

But who am I to say you love me
And who am I to say you need me
And who am I to say you love me

Mmmm Hmmm

I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all

I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

2011-09-02T03:27:00.003+08:00

The best version I've heard by far... Makes me wanna go somewhere over the rainbow as well... Too bad I don't know when I'll get the chance too...

++saykoji89++

++somewhere over the rainbow, I'll find the nyan cat++

My New Babies~

2011-09-01T20:23:00.004+08:00

For Raya this year, I got myself these new babes~

It's a Nike, although I do prefer Adidas, but who could resist the blue-ness~~~

Oh, and there was this one orange and blue Adidas shoes but my mom wouldn't let me buy them as she said they were an absurd colour combination. But, ma~ I learned in class that blue and orange are complimentary colours~~~

Whatever, as long as I have my new babies~~

++saykoji89++

++listening to Sinetron theme songs++

Raya? No mood...

2011-08-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

For the first time in my life, I am in no mood for Eid. In fact I am in no mood for holidays too.. All I want is to be in Cyber and bore myself to death rather than being home and bore myself to death...

But since it's Eid, I'm gonna wish all the Muslims,

Happy Eid-ul Fitr or as Malaysians say it Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Now, I'm going to roll on the bed and do nothing out of boredom~~

++saykoji89++

++My laziness has peaked++

Fuck!

2011-08-22T03:20:00.003+08:00

There's a saying that goes

"Thunder does not strike the same place twice"

You know what, fuck it. It just happened. First it was *****, now it's ****.

You know what, I give up. I totally give up. The same thing, same situation. How 'lucky' could I get?

++saykoji89++

++frustrated++

Trust

2011-08-19T13:20:00.003+08:00

How to know if I trust someone? That's easy...

If someone I don't trust is driving the car, I don't sleep no matter how sleepy I am.

If someone I trust is driving the car, I sleep probably throughout the whole journey.

So next time, when you drive, see whether I'm sleeping or not to see if I trust you~

++saykoji89++

++I don't know why but this is the truth++

BORED

2011-08-16T23:54:00.001+08:00

I'm bored~~~

That''s it for this entry~

trolololololol~~

++saykoji89++

++*rolling on the floor*++

So I heard you liek someone~

2011-08-14T13:07:00.002+08:00

pfft....whut?

Yes, I like someone... He's cute and cute? I don't actually know how to describe him actually. All I know is that he's cute.

But what do like about him anyway? His smile? His laughter?

...

...wait...

*bangshead*

... I suddenly felt like I was describing someone else entirely.

..sorry....

But one thing what I do like about him is his personality. So carefree and yet so alert at the same time. And I like his face. (OMG, I feel like Kisa)

So, being in this collage has given me courage to do things that I never thought of doing in a hundred years, let's see if it can make me do one more miracle, confessing.

KYAAAA~~~

(I feel like a girl, oh wait. I am a girl)

++saykoji89++

++wish me luck++

My little fantasy world~

2011-08-03T22:50:00.003+08:00

I'm really out of ideas on what to put in this blog, so let's do a little fiction related post. All the contents of this post may or may not be entirely true and may or may not have any connections with the people I may or may not know, but who gives a damn.

Do you know what Harry Potter and Voldermort have in common other than being in the Potter series and being created by J.K Rowling? Yup, both of them are in my collage. And they're roommates~~~ How cute~~~

But here's the tricky part, HP and Voldie are both females~ *shock*

You see, HP is my friend, and Voldie not so much. Let me describe Voldie and HP.

Hp is nice, obviously more mature than I am, a gamer (not so much of a Quidditch type of person), humble, loves cat and Dynasty Warriors.

Voldie on the other hand (I'm going to describe her from what I hear from HP) is self-centered, an OCD patient, a pain in the ass, a vain, and in short a bitch.. *gasp*

So, how do you make Voldie suffer when HP is her roommate?

1. Kill her off with love. HP, you got the power of love remember?

2. Stop her supply of Unicorn blood. She can't be immortal that way.

3. Write on a piece of A4 paper, "At least my face is way awesome than your noseless face"

4. Talk to Ron in your loudest voice possible about anime and see Voldie's face cringe in disgust and smirk.

5. Cut off this lovely thing call internet in your room.

And that's how you annoy Voldie~~~~

lalalalala~~

++saykoji89++

++I got 3 screws missing and the 4th one barely hanging on...++

Doushite?

2011-07-20T00:13:00.003+08:00

どうして…

君を好きになってしまったんだろう?

どんなに時が流れても

君はずっとここにいると　思ってたのに

でも君が選んだのは違う道

I whip my hair back and forth...

2011-07-15T00:50:00.003+08:00

...to get the tension out of my head...

Assignments are sure tough. If I thought taking accountancy was though, boy I had it all wrong. At least, in accountancy, I can do my assignments at the comfort of my own room, while rolling aroung on the floor, procrastinating as I like.

Now... I feel like dying.. =.="

At 7 a.m we'll be heading too the closest waterfall to capture the moment~ Pfft, no. To take pictures of the waterfall, as the subject matter. hah~ Waterfall ka? I haven't been to one since... PLKN? Even that was a bad memory for me.

Then there's the Bon Odori. Which I know I will be overly excited and do and overkill and will exhaust myself to death and will probably sleep throughout the next day and barely have anytime to do my assignment on VRC.

Not only that, but my meal schedule and sleep schedule is all mixed up too. I can only eat when I have the opportunity to, and sleep soundly somewhere at 4. I know that I am a total ass for complaining all this when I am the one who asked for it, but I just need to get it out of my system and continue with my awesomely insane life...

++saykoji89++

++ah... I need to burn new CD for tomorrow's trip++

Kamu n'gak sendirian (You are not alone)

2011-07-12T03:24:00.003+08:00

When I was still i still is school, I listen to this song often enough. And recently, I just found this song on YouTube and when I listened to it, the feelings of when I first heard the song remains. The song kinda makes me feel like I'm not alone. In my teenage years, I was a lonely girl. And now, somehow, even with a lot of friends right beside me, I still feel somewhat lonely. This is the worst kind of loneliness. But when I listened to the song, I felt somewhat relieved? I don't exactly know, but it kinda lift a bit of my loneliness. And even if it sounds like a happy song, every time I listen to it, it makes me wanna cry...

I'm going to do a simple translation of the song to let you know what it means in English.

When I am no longer here,

Please continue to sing,

And when I'm gone,

Please be reminded of me

Please promise me

That you will be fine

Because in my every dream,

There is always you

Listen and feel

This song that I made for you

It might not sound melodious

But it's just for you

We have been together

Been through colourful days

Although not as beautiful as the rainbow

But we once dreamt

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

Listen and feel

This song that I made for you

It might not sound melodious

But it's just for you

We have been together

Been through colourful days

Although not as beautiful as the rainbow

But we once dreamt

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

This might be temporary

Or it might be for forever

But if I were to return

Make sure that you are here

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

Trust me

Even at the darkest night

You are not alone

And all of the stars

That I left for you

Will be with you till end of the night

++saykoji89++

++why am I alone?++

Help....

2011-07-10T05:20:00.002+08:00

Right now I am doing my computer graphic assignment and I feel like shooting myself in the head.... I can't trace my own damn picture nicely... It kinda look like an old lady who's in the gang... It's an epic fail....

++saykoji89++

++can somebody do this assignment for me please?++

Me Talk Politics

2011-07-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

Okay, so me and politics do not go well together, because for one, I lack knowledge. And two, I never seek knowledge for politics. I believe that our political party is corrupted. I believe the leaders are misusing the citizens money for their own motive. I believe that every time the elections comes near, political parties will be all goody-goody and tend the poor, visiting people in trouble and what not to gain votes, and abandon them once the election is over.

But, I also do believe that Malaysia is a peaceful country and by far the most wonderful place to live in.

Living in Malaysia, I don't have to worry about earthquakes, tsunamis, or volcano eruptions. But what I do have to worry is the act of people who have this kind of thinking that destroys the country. They say it's for the country's own sake, for saving the country, for saving the citizens. BULLSHIT.

Some random but intelligent dude will come out and say "I don't like this government, they suck" and another random but stupid dude will gather as many people as possible to overthrow the so called government. Now, why do I say that the first guy is intelligent and the second guy is stupid. The first guy is intelligent because he expressed his views peacefully. He does no rally or no hard core opposing. The second guy is stupid because he didn't even ask the first guy why he hated the government. When the second guy hears the first guy saying he hate the government he probably thought "Oh, that's right. I hate this government too. Lets gather as many people to join and protest this stupid government." And so, by default, the ones following the second guys are even stupider.

For once people, try to imagine being in the government's shoes for a second. They have a lot in their hands in order to run a peaceful country. Dealing with problems that needs attentions, maintaining relationships with other countries, dealing with shits that none of us citizens would voluntarily do. Why add more problems on their plate. Doing those kinds of rally, to whom does it benefits? The government? No. The citizens? Hell, no. The opposition? Probably. Countries that are waiting for the right moment to bring us down? Fuck yes.

We as citizens cannot be selfish. We need to be considerate. When we do is so called BERSIH rally, we might not lose anything from it, but what about those who worked in KL? Those taxi drivers, those hawkers, those bus drivers? We need to apply the give and take attitude. If you don't like how the government is running things, give them advice. If they still suck, run for the opposition yourself if you think you could do better. Don''t expect others to do it for you. Others' motive might not be the same as yours even if the sounds the same.

And also, the other thing, our Prime Minister had only took the position for 3 years. Give him chances to do what he sees fit to Malaysia. It took Tun Mahathir 21 years to create our beautiful Malaysia the way it is. We also need to be reminded that Rome wasn't created in one day.

I am by far, totally supporting the government. The government has fed me, gave me a home, and has gave me education. I see no reason to oppose someone who has done so much to make sure I'm alive even if my life sucks like hell. There are times I disagree with the government but after awhile, I kinda realize, there's a reason for every actions.

++saykoji89++

++I probably won't do anymore post like this in a long time++

More early morning artwork~

2011-07-08T06:23:00.003+08:00

I was really, REALLY bored when I did this... This is basically me and Kenji taking picture together. You can see from Kenji's awesomely bitchy face that he was forced into taking picture with me~ *insert evil laugh here*

Me: Yah, take picture with me.

Kenji: Fuck off. Go take pictures with "Robin".

Me: Let me put it this way, if you don't take pictures with me, I'll seriously turn you gay.

Kenji: You wouldn't dare.

Me: Try me. *smirk*

Kenji: Fine! ...mumble...grumble...

*snap*

So, that totally explain Kenji's and my facial expressions. I love being able to threaten Kenji~

My moods for this week

2011-07-08T04:27:00.002+08:00

Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Basically that's my mood for this week. It has been a total burn out week for me with rejected artwork and redoing the thing and my brain just went pfft.... It died on me...

But not all the stuff happens burn me out... There are a few good stuff along the way, with me acting all crazy and nuts than I usually am. I'm keeping up with my FTW thinking~

lalalalalalalala~~~

++saykoji89++

++I want a boyfriend!!!++

Bitchy Kenji a Plot Twist

2011-07-03T02:14:00.003+08:00

Ever since I started obsessing over Young Justice's Robin, Kenji has suffered greatly. Now, I can't draw him because he's too busy being bitchy and sulking.

Since I can't draw him, I decided to continue this story line I did way back in 2009. And suddenly, *jyan jyan*, a plot twist!!!

Okay, to be totally honest, I had this plot twist for quite sometime already in my head. I just made it official when I wrote it down as a story line. The major plot twist? Kenji will not be marrying Kimie. I decided to pair her up with Heiji instead. I was already kind enough to not kill her off.

Next plot twist? Kazuma plays a major role in the story line. Who is Kazuma? He is the previous leader of UGz before Kenji. This is one smart dude, with attitude~ I think I posted a few of his pics candid strips up. Try finding them under my old artworks last year. It should be there. Or was it this year? I don't really know... orz

Oh, and now I am giving out random snippets of the new altered storyline... enjoy~

++sayko++

“I don’t have to answer to you.” Akira said as she turned away from her brother and that traitor. Heiji seemed to call her but Akira just ignored her brother. She felt both of them were traitors. Traitors to Kenji.

++sayko++

“Confess.”

“Confess what?”

“That you’re gay, stupid.”

++sayko++

Still flushed from the kiss but the sadness was still there. He lowered himself to whisper at her ears.

“Don’t be sad. Please. I promise, I’ll take away all the pain.”

++sayko++

Hope you enjoy the snippets, and I might be posting the new story line soon.

++saykoji89++

++This is all Kenji's fault++

My Level of Otakuness?

2011-06-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

[x] You’ve seen at least one anime.

[x] You’ve read at least one manga.

[x] You watch anime/read manga on a regular basis.

[x] You think that anime and western cartoons are two separate things.

[x] You’re in anime club.

[ ] You’ve cosplayed at least once.

[ ] You counted Halloween costumes from when you were a kid as cosplay.

[ ] You’ve cosplayed in public.

[x] You’ve been to at least one anime convention.

[ ] You cosplayed there.

[ ] You traveled more than 200 miles to get there.

[x] You like Japanese food.

[x] You like any of the following in particular: sushi, pocky, cheap ramen, ramune.

[x] You know that sushi isn’t just raw fish.

[x] You’ve made bento lunch.

[ ] You’ve made a charabento.

[x] You go to the Asian shop on a regular basis.

[x] You’ve actually been to Japan.

[ ] You’ve been to Japan solely for the anime, videogames or idols.

[x] You’re learning/know Japanese

[x] You’re learning it to watch anime without subtitles.

[x] You have various Japanese artbooks.

[x] You have several doujinshis.

[x] You’re in love with a fictional character made by Japanese people.

[x] You claim you’re married to said fictional character. (Sasuke is my hubby)

[x] Anime is so much better than western cartoons.

[ ] You call all cartoons anime.

[x] Anyone who hates anime is dead to you.

[x] You call characters by their original Japanese names

[x] You call characters by their romaji spelling

[ ] You defend Pearl Harbour.

[ ] You think Pearl Harbour is a new anime that just started airing in Japan.

[x] You think Japan is the greatest country on Earth.

[x] You think that just because they make the best media.

[x] You listen to J-music.

[x] Exclusively.

[x] You know that it’s pronounced “Gakuto” and not “Gackt”.

[x] You can name all the Vocaloids.

[ ] WITHOUT looking it up.

[x] You like Hetalia.

[x] You think Japan is the best character. (and Iggy too)

[x] You wear items of anime-related clothing in public.

[x] You play/watch/eat Japanese anything.

[/] You use Japanese honorifics.

[ ] To refer to yourself.

[/] Your entire room is full of anime merchandise.

[x] You changed your name to something Japanese.

[ ] Legally.

[x] You want to give your kid a Japanese name. (Hell Yeah~)

[x] You want to name your kid after an anime character.

[ ] You’ve considered having surgery to look oriental. nope

[ ] You’ve had it done.

[ ] You stalk the Japanese exchange students.

[ ] You’ve been arrested for doing so.

[ ] You use memes in daily conversation.

[x] You watch abridged series.

[x] You get most of the jokes.

[ ] You use tildes while typing~

[x] You use Japanese emoticons

[x] You make attempt to Japanese sounding by the Engrish typing.

[ ] You claim you’re Japanese on your dA/Facebook/Myspace/whatever.

[x] You’re not.

[ ] You’re not even Asian.

[ ] You think doing Japanese stuff helps you get in touch with your heritage, even if you’re not Asain.

[x] You collect anime figures.

[ ] People call you a weeaboo.

[x] You prefer the term otaku.

[/] You break out into Caramelldansen in public. (It was one time~)

[x] You want to date a Japanese person.

[x] No other nationality will do.

[x] You watch Naruto. (Who doesn't?)

[ ] You wear the headbands.

[ ] Every day.

[x] You’re bitching at me because they’re properly called “forehead protectors”

[ ] You bought said headban- erm FOREHEAD PROTECTOR at Hot Topic.

[x] You act out scenes from the show. (sometimes)

[ ] FFVII is the best FF game ever.(FF8 is the best)

[x] Sephiroth is yours.

[x] Kingdom Hearts is awesome.

[x] AxelxRoxas is KAWAII DESU NE~~~!!

[x] You wish you owned a real Death Note.

[ ] Touhou rocks your life.

[x] Anime dubs are almost never as good as the original Japanese versions. (Say no to dubbing)

[ ] Vic Miginogna is God.

[x] It’s seiyu, not voice actor.

[ ] You use Gratuitous Japanese all the time.

[ ] You add “desu” to the end of every sentence.

[/] The only thing you draw is anime. (Used to, but Robin came along...)

[x] You’re taking an art course, and all you submit is anime.

[/] All your friends also like anime. (Some of them...)

[x] You want to become a mangaka.

[x] In Japan.

[ ] Most of your manga/anime is ecchi/hentai. (Hell no, most of them are either shonen or yaoi)

[x] You know that “hentai” doesn’t mean “porn”

[/] You write fanfics for English class. (when I was in school)

[x] Yaoi fanfics. (HELL YEAH~ YAOI ROCKS!!!)

[ ] You know nothing about Japanese culture except for anime, videogames, idols, music, porn and schoolgirls.

[x] Everyone says you have no life. (I lost count of how many times I heard this...)

[ ] And it’s true.

TOTAL: 62/101

IF YOUR TOTAL IS:

0-10: You probably hate Japan. You’re not a weeaboo at all, not even close.

10-20: You like SOME Japanese things but, still not a weeaboo.

20-30: At this stage you probably still hate weeaboos. Good news- you’re not one.

30-40: You keep your love of Japanese stuff sensible.

40-50: You’re very likely a Japanophile, but you’re not as annoying as a full-blown weeaboo.

50-60: You’re not a weeaboo just yet, but try and moderate it.

60-70: Weeaboo. <---I am HERE

70-80: Please stop it!!!!!!

80-90: STOP HUMPING THE MIKU/KAITO LOVE PILLOW!!!!!!11

90-100: STOP!!!!! FOR THE LOVE OF KAMI-SAMA STOP!!!!!

101: Insane asylum tiems.

At 5.30 a.m....

2011-06-26T11:35:00.002+08:00

I drew this picture... I was stuck on my assignment and ran out of ideas. So, spontaneously, I opened Photoshop and drew this at 5.30 a.m... Done by 6 a.m, then I went to bed... =_______="

++saykoji89++

++8 more sketches++

Out of Randomness: Movies

2011-06-26T03:35:00.003+08:00

Hi guys, I'm back with more randomness ~

Today's topic: Malay Movies

Ever notice that nowdays we're lacking good Malay movies? Seriously, what happened to all the good filmmakers out there? Are all of them dead?

When I was small, I remembered watching P.Ramlee movies with my family and had the time of my life. Today, even if I watch the same P.Ramlee movies for the millionth time, I'd still be laughing to the same thing. Now, that is a talented filmmaker.

The movies nowdays? I'd watch 15 minutes of it, and I feel bored. I don't get the story. It's either the story was ultimately lousy or I'm just that stupid, which I don't think so. The actors are so not convincing, and don't even mention about the special effects. Wow... Just wow....

Let me give you an example. Somewhere this year, I went to the movies to watch a Malay horror film (in my defense, I didn't pay for the movie ticket) called Kh*****t. The title seems decent but the movie, I rate it 2 out of 5. The monster in the movie was not that scary. Too heavy on the make-up. And the sounds effect, bleh... Sudden loud sounds at the randomness of scenes..

And the was also this one movie (also a horror story) which ended up with me laughing inside the cinema... Somehow the producer or editor or director overlooked the final product of the film and missed a lot of stuff, like the wire that is used to make the ghost fly, and the nails of the ghost (seriously, there is in this one scene where you can clearly see that the actress who played the ghost forgot to wear one of the fake nails. So it's 9 long black nails, and one polished short nail). Epic...

So, I don't know why when these filmmakers produce this kind of movie quality, the expect big profits. Seriously, do you even watch that movie yourself? Let's just say, I am not a big supporter of the local film industry. People keep saying "support out local film industry" but what is there to support? All there is out there is crap. Prices of a movie ticket is expensive nowdays and I certainly do not want to waste my RM15 on something that I know is not worth it. It's like asking us to pay RM15 for a cup of Kopi 'O when we can get Starbucks's for the same price.

The epic thing about all this is that when these filmmakers didn't reach their aforementioned profit, they'll put the blame on something else. On something that isn't relevant at all. The INTERNET. Okay, some of you might disagree with me here, but hear me out. The mentioned filmmakers blamed it on the MAJOR file sharing website on the internet. I feel like smacking my forehead now.... Are you stupid or are you stupid? Never in my life so far, have I encountered a Malay film uploaded on Pirate Bay or Megaupload. People go to the site to download games, which you are not a game developer so it doesn't concern you, and to download porn, which you don't produce one either. What the fuck is your problem?

Moral of the story here is that, if you want a bigger profit, make better films. Don't blame something else for your own mistakes. This goes the same to Malaysian artists.

++saykoji89++

++I love rants++

Late Night in Hostel

2011-06-26T02:54:00.002+08:00

1.45 a.m

Do assignment... *eyes the laptop*

*go to the laptop and check download*

"OMG, WTH download ni tak siap lagi?"

*open facebook ni new tab*

hmm... No new status update...

*check the time*

*uh, patutlah no update. Oredi 2 a.m"

2.00 a.m

*go back to doing assignment*

*eyes laptop again*

"No idea lah how to do this assignment, check the net la"

*open google in new tab*

2.15 a.m

*open dA in new tab*

*clear out dA inbox*

*search for new wallpapers*

*roommate tegur*

"Bukan nak wat assignment ke tadi"

*goes back to doing assignment*

2.30 a.m

*gets up, go to toilet*

*check download status*

*eyes the assignment that looks so bleak*

"Ah, later la do assignment. Submit lambat lagi~"

2.35 a.m

*reads latest manga chapter*

*checks email inbox*

"Oh, fic ni ada update baru... *click link*

2.50 a.m

"Dah lama x update blog...." *click blog link*

*typing useless stuff and click submit*

3.00 a.m

*open cybertracker for new stuff*

MORAL: Procrastination is your best friend and fuck priority.

++saykoji89++

++seriously, bile download ni nak abis++

Another Journal meme

2011-06-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

A - AVAILABLE: Yup, totally

B - BIRTHDAY: 14-02-1989

C - CRUSHING ON: No one at the moment

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Caramel Tea~

E - EASIEST PERSONS TO TALK TO: Laling~~~~

F - FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT: Perfect by KAT-TUN and Eternal by Akanishi Jin

I - IN LOVE WITH: My Lappie

J - JUGGLED: My schedule

K - KILLED SOMEONE: In games~

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 12 Hours? From Subang to Kelantan

M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: CARAMEL~~~

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 not including myself

O - ONE WISH: To work with PIERO Studios

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My brother =___________="

R - REASON TO SMILE: Yaoi, babeh. I have nice imaginations~

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Hitomi no Screen by Hey!Say!Jump

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: Not telling you this....

V - VEGETABLE(S):Ughhh~

W - WORST HABIT: Wasting...

(¬3¬)

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD MOST RECENTLY: Before going to MMU

Y - YOYOS ARE: Stupid.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Aquarius

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU

Your favorite number: 2

What color do you wear most: Black and Blue

Least favorite color: PINK...

ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ

What are you listening to: Song playing on my lappie

Are you happy with your life right now: Okay la....

What is your favorite class in school: English?

Who are your best friends: Kaizu n Kyoko

Are you outgoing: When I'm in the mood

Favorite pair of shoes: Sneakers

Can you dance:Not even if my life depends on it...

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth: YESSSS~

Can you whistle: Yup~

Cross your eyes: I used to...

Walk with your toes curled: I can but why should I?

Do you believe there is life on other planets: Probably?

Do you believe in miracles: Idk...

Do you believe in magic: ....wtf?

Love at first sight: No such thing.

Do you believe in Satan: I believe there's Satan but I don't believe in him/it/whatever.

Do you believe in Santa: The round, fat old guy? NO!

Do you know how to swim: .... no? A little? Idk...... OTZ

Do you like roller coasters: Do birds fly?

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows: Well in Fear Factor they once ask the contestant to eat Durian... So, probably..

Have you ever been on a plane: million times...I wanna ride them again~~~

Have you ever asked someone out?: So often that I lost count..

Have you ever been to the ocean?: Billions of times~

Have you ever painted your nails: Totally~ *giggle like some bitch*

Last color: Black~

THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside: Bloody hot...

What radio station do you listen to: Pelangi FM (Radio Brunei)

What was the last restaurant you ate at: Dominos Pizza?

What was the last thing you bought:FOOOODDD~

What was the last thing on TV you watched:I can't remember.... Long time never watch tv dee... orz

THE WHOS:

Who was the last person you took a picture of: my cousin

Who was the last person you said I love you to: My grandma

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out: Yes

Ever cried yourself to sleep: Yes... orz

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder: No...

Ever cried over the opposite sex: Yes. When Itachi died... When Jin left KT

Do you cry when you get an injury: Depends on how much it hurts...

Certain songs that make you cry: Utsukushii Namae and Eternal

HAPPY SECTION

Are you a happy person?: Probably?

LOOK AT ME:

What is your current hair color: Black?

What is your eye color: Dark Brown

What is your skin color: Typical Malaysian skin color

CURRENTLY WEARING:

What shirt are you wearing:The t-shirt I got from the Treasure Hunt

Pants: Some sleep pants

Shoes: None...

Necklaces: Not wearing any...

Underwear: ......

IN A BOY/GIRL:

Favorite eye color: Green/Hazel

Short or long hair: Not too long and not too short

Height: 180-ish?

HAVE YOU EVER:

Been to jail: In monopoly....

Mooned someone: Idk what is this... SKIP~

Thought about suicide: Too often...

Laughed so hard you cried: Yes...

Cried in school: Yup...

Thrown up in a store: Yes, when I was smaller...

Wanted to be a model: F*** NO.

Seen a dead body: Yup~

Been on drugs: Medicational drugs?

Gone skinny dipping: Pfft... no.

THIS OR THAT :

Pepsi or Coke: Coke~

McDonald's or Burger King: McD.

Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla all the way~

Strawberries or Blueberries: I hate berries....

Meat or Veggies: Meat~

TV or Movie: None. I prefer my lappie~

Guitar or Drums: Both?

Adidas or Nike:Adidas~

Chinese or Mexican: Japanese~

It's Like Insomnia~

2011-06-25T03:33:00.002+08:00

Remember that song? It has 2 versions actually, one is by Craig David and the other is the cover sang by Wheesung, a Korean singer. To be honest, I prefer Wheesung's version so much better.

Back to the topic, this is the 3rd night in a row that I'm still not sleeping even when it's almost 4 a.m!!! Something tells me that I need to stop my evening naps. But today I didn't even have my evening naps and yet, still not sleepy...

Oh, and based on whatever stories I heard from my relatives about me during my childhood days, I have concluded that I might have ADHD or also known as Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder. That will pretty much explain everything including the Bipolar.

More info on ADHD ---> here

More info on Bipolar ---> here

++saykoji89++

++No, seriously I have Bipolar++

Typical Gary Stu?

2011-06-24T21:22:00.004+08:00

This is a journal meme stolen from ChibiBakaNeko's journal.

I've tested this against my favourite OC, Harusawa Kenji... :)

Mary-Sue/Gary-Stu Test.
Subject: Harusawa Kenji

[ ] They are possessed by an angel
[ ] They are possessed by a demon
[ ] They are a werewolf/vampire/faerie
[x] They are physically strong.
[ ] They have a rare hair/fur color
[x] Their eyes are an unusual color
[ ] This happens to be red
[ ] Their eyes change color
[ ] They have wings
[ ] They can grow extra body parts/shapeshift
[ ] They are immortal
[ ] (if a female) they have large boobs (lol sometimes I even forget to draw the boobs )
[ ] (if a male) they are very muscular
[x] They are very attractive to the opposite gender.
[ ] They are telekinetic/pyrokinetic/etc (fire)
[ ] They have sixth sense/can mind-read/etc
[ ] They have an object of some sort that gives them powers
[ ] They have a special ability/power, but they don't know about it yet
[ ] They were bestowed/cursed with these powers
[ ] They are a healer
[x] They are from a very rich/royal family
[ ] They don't know that they are from a very rich/royal background
[x] They have lost one/both of their parents
[x] They ran away from home
[ ] Their parents are cruel, uncaring, abusive etc.
[ ] They witnessed one/both of their parent's death
[ ] They are part angel/demon/faerie/some other mythical creature
[ ] They never knew their parents
[x] They were abused/spoiled as a child
[x] They are very attractive to the same gender ()
[ ] They have lots of friends/no friends
[ ] They are emo/cutesy
[ ] They look much younger/older than they really are.
[x] They are currently in a relationship
[ ] They have lots of morals and state them a fair bit for example: 'I would rather be with my friends than with my boyfriend/girlfriend' 'Nothing matters more to me than my friends/family' 'I wouldn't hesitate to die in place of a friend' etc. It's fine if your OC has these beliefs/values, but if they constantly say them out loud/preach them to others, then we have a problem.
[ ] They have a mental disorder
[x] They have an emotional disorder
[x] They struggle to stay sane
[ ] They are a psycho
[ ] They have multiple personalities
[ ] They are very intelligent
[ ] They have hallucinations
[ ] They can summon spirits/demons/angels etc.
[ ] They have an unusual/unrealistic pet
[ ] They have a guardian spirit
[ ] They have a 'special type' of soul
[ ] Their soul is not the same as them
[ ] They can talk to spirits/ghosts
[ ] Some part of their body glows ()
[ ] They have a rare/unusual name
[ ] They were born on an important date, such as New Year's Eve, Midsummers Night, The Winter Solstace etc.
[ ] They have a twin/sibling that they were separated from at birth/a young age
[ ] They are connected with a certain element
[ ] They are connected with a certain animal
[ ] They always dress like a certain 'label'
[ ] They look quite a bit like a character from a popular anime/manga (idk, I just draw his design randomly)
[ ] They are a race/species that is discriminated against/misunderstood
[ ] They have a certain power that is misunderstood/feared
[ ] They live/lived on the streets at some point in their lives
[x] They are hiding from someone/something
[ ] They have a rare blood type
[ ] They cry blood (lmao nice ability )
[ ] Certain noises/smells/situations/etc make their powers activate/give them a nervous breakdown
[ ] They are from a different country to where they live
[ ] They are very mysterious/dark
[ ] They are very lively/happy
[ ] Their mood changes a lot/very quickly
[x] They are very patient
[ ] They are from a long line of (Insert profession/Power here: )
[x] They have a piece of jewelry/clothing that they always wear
[ ] They have amnesia
[ ] They have some sort of permanent medical condition
[ ] They have a curse upon them
[ ] They are involved in some sort of prophecy
[ ] They are 'the chosen one'
[x] They have insomnia

Overall points: 15

Take points off your OCs overall score if they fit any of the following statements:

[x] They smoke
[ ] They are an alcoholic
[ ] They are overweight
[ ] They are addicted to drugs
[ ] They have a short temper
[x] They enjoy bullying others
[x] They do not care much about others
[x] They are emotionless

Point Reductions: 4

Final score: 11
--
< 5 Anti-Sue
Your character may be a bit on the boring side. Of course, this does depend, but generally if they are scoring that low, it wouldn't hurt to 'spice them up' a bit ^^

6-15 Balanced Character
If your OC scored around here, then they are probably quite a well-balanced and interesting character. Those scoring in the higher end of this category may be a bit too much though.

16-25 Borderline Mary-Sue/Gary-Stu
We have a problem. You need to tone your character down. They are most likely a bit annoying to others, too.

26+ Mary-Sue/Gary-Stu

Oh nooooooooessss~

2011-06-23T01:57:00.002+08:00

Hell, no! This is so not happening!!! What have happened to my drawing skills? Why the fuck does all my characters look like some American cartoon instead of the usual manga style?

Ladies and gentlemen, this is what happen when you draw too much American superhero (namely Robin). So until I can go back to drawing Kenji to my usual style, I'm going to lay off from Robin. So, CN, don't put out any new Young Justice episodes till I require my skill back. Especially if it's a Robin-centric episode.

++saykoji89++

++c'mon Kenji, breath for me++

Oh DSLR...

2011-06-22T12:01:00.003+08:00

For my photography class, I had to buy a DSLR last weekend. I played around with it for a few times and concluded that that thing is fucking complicated and expensive for no reason. But yesterday, during class, my lecturer showed us a video on National Geographic photographers. Their job is difficult and tough but yet so rewarding. It almost made me feel like I wanna be a photographer, but I immediately remembered my ambition.

At the end of the class, the lecturer told us to bring our cameras and tripods to class next week as he would be teaching us on how to operate the ~~damn~~ thing. At first I kinda panicked since, well, we bought a small tripod. The height of that thing was kinda up to my knees. It was a midget!! I seriously thought that we've bought the wrong tripod, and I was kinda devastated. How was I to explain this to my brother. I could just go up to him and say,

"Abang, we bought the wrong tripod. I need a new one."

If, I said that, I'm sure my brother would beat me up half dead and blame me for not checking it earlier. (although he was the one who made the choice) But after having another look at it, I found out that the tripod's legs are retractable. Damn. I'm lucky I didn't jump the gun and straight away call my brother for a new tripod, or else I'd be needing a new head.

Anyway, I'm still trying to feel love with the new camera and trying to flirt with it. Oh, and my friends find it weird that I flirt with my laptop. Is it weird? Idk, coz I've been doing it for quite sometime now... But all I do know that it's effective especially if a program crashed or something.

++saykoji89++

++I have the feeling that this entry is a cliffie++

Last Weekend

2011-06-20T23:48:00.003+08:00

...I gave you my heart, and the very next day you gave it away....

NOT!

A little act of randomness there. Well like the saying says, If it ain't random then it ain't me. (Who's saying is that anyway?) Randomness aside, I'm gonna tell you how my weekend was like, whether you like it or not. If you have the sudden urgency to go somewhere else, by all means go. I'm not stopping you. Continue reading if only you're sure you want to read all the mundane thing I did.

So, basically, last weekend was my day out with my siblings. I forgot how fun it was just hang out with the three of us (even though they were being such ass for making fun of me). I kinda miss that. We went to buy my awesomely expensive camera (which till now I haven't got a clue how to fully function it.) and watch a couple of movies. Oh, my older brother also plans to buy a new car. You know what, go for it. Go buy the car of your dreams. Then you can be my driver~ hehehe... (^w^)

Also, I managed to finally get to finish up the 1st CD of FF9. Not that I haven't finish it before, it's just that I was replaying the whole FF series and I kinda abandon the game once I entered collage. pfftt... Typical me.

Oh, and I also want to go watch Harry Potter 7 Part 2 with laling and Kyoko. To be totally honest, I am not such a big fan of the Harry Potter movies. It totally spoils the book. But what makes me wanna go watch the last HP series is the appearance of the next generation. Kya~~ Totally falling head over heals for Al and Scorp. Speaking of which, JK Rowling is up for another project but it's not a new book on Harry Potter itself. It is said to be extra cutscenes from the book. I hope it's the adventures of the next gen battling up the mortal enemies of all teenagers, school, parents and relationship. Now, that'd be awesome to read.

Pottermore.com front webpage.

And see the awesome youtube countdown here

http://www.youtube.com/JKRowlingAnnounces

++saykoji89++

++I'm bored++

Shit Happens

2011-06-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

From my last blog update till today, a lot of shit has happened and I kid you not. But not all of them are bad shit, some good shit happened too but there is this one MAJOR bullshit that is currently happening.

First up, the MAJOR bullshit.

As all the Malaysians know (except for those who is a social retard and never read the papers or watch the news), our beloved government as supported by one of this bullshit production studio, has decided to ban the file sharing websites like ThePirateBay and Megaupload. For those noobs out there who doesn't know what a file sharing website is, it is a website where you share files with other people. If you still don't know what that is, google it. All my life, whatever decisions the government come up with, I don't give a damn. But banning the sites is just way.... i don't know stupid? The reason for the stupid ban? Of course, this has to do with the bullshit production studio I mentioned above. They think that it's destroying the country's "film industry" with all the pirated CD and movie downloading. Well, you know what, fuck you.

I, as being a totally honest and in sane of mind, think that the whole Malaysian film industry is a joke. Except of course, for those classics by Tan Sri P.Ramlee, now that is a movie. Not those bullshits up in the cinema. So your movie profit sucks, it's because of your movie sucks. No other reasons. Take time to go to the local CD store (I prefer Speedy) and observe. Even if the store put these Malay movies in the reduced bin pile, people will still ignore it because is a piece of crap. The plot sucks. The actors are awful. The quality of the film is like a home movie kind. Don't blame the illegal downloading or what not. And also to the Malaysian government, eh, hello, before you do anything, please read the basic human rights lah. Internet is somewhere there. This is a one big question to the Malaysian Government. Why ban file sharing websites and not the pornographic website? Which do you think cause more harm than good? Think about it. God gave you brains for a reason, douches. Think about it.

Next on the shit list is this awfully annoying cold that I have. Fuck this cold. Before I entered collage, I brought with me like 30 packets of tissues. Now I am down to 5? 6? I don't know. I feel like I'm a drug addict or something, with the red eyes and obvious sniffing. Am I a drug addict? No. My drugs are yaoi and yaoi only. The drugs are for losers with no life, except of course if you're taking them as medication.

Then, there's also this shit on DSLR cameras. For my fucking course, I have this fucking subject that requires a fucking DSLR camera. What subject? Of course, our favourite *rolls eye*, Photography. Usually I like taking pictures, especially scenery and candid, but using the DSLR? I haven't thought of it. I don't know about other countries, but in Malaysia DSLR camera is fucking expensive. With the accessories and all, you can get to buy a new car. I am not bullshiting you. So, hopefully this weekend, me and my brother will go look for a new camera while he will nag at me on why is my course so fucking expensive, or why I had to go to a private university or anything he wants to nag about. It might not seem like it, but my brother likes to nag. (yes abang, you do, and your reasons are all questionable) But, I still love you. (tangan di dada, mata pandang ke atas)

Now, on to the good shit. I have registered for clubs and I've joined the Japanese Cultural Society *big surprise* and a program called Sekolah@MMU or MMU@school in English? I don't know...orz. But basically, it's a program where you go to rural schools and teach the students to use softwares and stuff. They had this program in my school when I was in form 4 (OMG, my school is in a rural area?) and I was thinking, if these guys came for my school, why not I join and give back what they have taught me? Yeah, it's the conscience guilt or something.

Annnndd.... I'm going to the Bon Odori festival in July. Woohoo. Hopefully there is no assignments or submissions on the following Monday so I can have fun~ Oh, and I need to start saving money to experience the night to the fullest, and what I mean is to buy the food, and play the games and what not. I don't want it to be like my last Japanese cultural experience when I didn't get to taste much due to lack of dough.

My assignments are piling up and I haven't done shit but I'll get to it. I'm coming up for the ideas and seriously I have no idea that lines are gonna be so fucking hard. Urgh... Just kill me now.... The topic is so ... vague and I have like tonnes of ideas but I don't know which one will fit into the concept.

If I do not update in 2 weeks, consider me dead, buried deep under the pile of stress of overthinking. Oh, and I really love Fallacies new chapter. Fucking sweet.

++saykoji89++

++Hungry beyond recognition ++

Orientation Photos..

2011-06-07T02:52:00.005+08:00

OCs having fun for the last time

Mimicing DM Taseen

Forgot what all this is about... +____+

DM Shah mimicking DM Taseen, while DM Taseen just look on. DM Shah, you also the same de.. No need to mimic other people.

Again with the mimic

DM Shah and OC Punes? Not too sure...

OC Yousef and OC Danny making a heart(?) shape

Ok guys, look cool~

DM Shah keeping peace and punctuality among freshies.

Smile for the camera OCs...

1st things 1st, I didn't take any of these pictures, so I'm gonna credit the Owners here, especially OC Ck for the awesome pictures. It's not that I haven't take any pictures of my own... It's just it's all the in bloody phone with no cable... You can so totally see who is the most popular OC here (ps: I didn't take the pictures). But my fave OC has to be OC Danny, the emcee for the whole gig. He's totally awesome. But I have to admit, in my phone there are more pictures of DM Shah, since I can take he's picture with clearer view than OC Danny. Someday I'll post my own photos here...

++saykoji89++

++Hey, i think i took more pictures than this...++

First Day

2011-06-06T22:45:00.002+08:00

First day of collage is coming to an end, and all I can say is that I better study hard to make this damn worth it. I can't say I regretted entering a private collage because honestly I'm not. But I'm gonna have to do better than what I have achieved so far, to make everything worth while.

Today's classes were all introductory classes, nothing much. But I'm honestly afraid of the VRC class because it's more of a fine arts class and I'm no good in fine arts. But hey, that's why I'm here right. I'm learning and polishing my skills at the same time.

Oh, and after this I think I'm gonna have to reduce my stalking and breeding habit since I have no clue on how to connect to the "super insanely fast" net, so I have to settle for this average (more like below average) net speed. Well, slow net is better than no net at all.

First day went oh so well, so let's see what the second day has installed for us tomorrow.

++saykoji89++

++fallacies has just made my day++

Orientation

2011-06-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

Hey, didn't post for more that a week. Well, there's 2 great reasons for that. One is I was busy with my orientation week, two, I have no net.

As for the Orientation week, it was fucking AWESOME!!! The first few days was kinda hellish. Seriously. I didn't even eat the first few days. Whenever I see food, I feel like puking. I had to sleep really really late and wake up really REALLY early. Let's just say I'm surprised I'm not nuts yet.

But later it got fun. Seriously fun. No, scratch that, it was AWESOME!!!! The OC's (orientation committee) was really helpful and fun. The MC in the hall, which goes by the name OC Danny was a lot of fun too, although he retold Russell Peters jokes a lot, but still awesome. It must be hard for him to make us smile all the time after a fucking boring speech or after getting scold by the DM (discipline masters).

The DM's is another whole new story. Let's just say, on the second day, I figured out that the DM's are just plain acting. First, I got a peak of the Head DM smiling. Dude, seriously blowing your cover. Second, once I was late to arrive, the DM didn't punish me, yet she talk to me in kinda like a big sister way. And third, I saw something that only what few others notices... My roommate totally agrees with me on this one but I'm not gonna tell you guys. Laling, you already know since I sent you pictures. Live with it. If you want more, come hang out at my place.

In short, Orientation week was awesome. Lotsa fun, although I did miss most of the cultural night since my groupmate had to go to the hospital due to emergency. The closing night was a hell lot of fun too. My faculty, as the dean said it, is weird and fun but we are a SERIOUS faculty. Pfft, yeah right. Seriously fun you mean. Anyway, enjoying my weekends and my brother is treating us to a movie tomorrow. Have fun guys~

++saykoji89++

++I wanna be an OC for the next session++

5 Totally random facts about me

2011-05-29T01:35:00.003+08:00

1. Pillows are my best friend on the bed.
I can never have too many pillows for sleeping, trust me. I like to make a fort with those pillows and sleep in it, it'll become my personal nest. The rationality? When I was young I got to sleep on a queen size bed all by myself and I am a scared-y cat. So the rationality of having so many pillows around me when I sleep is that when I bumped into something on the bed in the middle of the night, I'll automatically think it's my pillow when it might not be.... *shudder*

2. When I smile my eyes are closed
Pfft... So totally not true. It appears as closed but it's totally open. My cheekbones are high so it covers my eyes when I smile.

3. I hate cooked fruits.
Yup, totally hate it. I hate fruitcakes, jams and all other sort of cooked fruits. Especially if it's cooked with rice. Dude, that is so wrong. Like there was this restaurant who cooked it's fried rice with apple. That is just.... speechless. I have no qualms about fruits, but I hate cooked fruits. I believe fruits are to be eaten fresh. Cooking them would totally spoil the taste.

4. I'm love dead bodies
I killed someone before. Okay, no actually.But I do love reading about all things like crimes and murders. Heck, Jack the Ripper is my idol. I love watching crime and investigation, and the more gruesome the crime scene is the more I love it. When I was young I wanted to be a coroner, but I never pursue it. Probably it's because I'll be demented or something.

5. Advertisement Jingles are loved.
I love the songs that people use for advertisement so much that I like to sing it to the top of my lungs when the Advert is on. When I was small I can remember almost all of the advert songs, but now not so much since I watch TV less and less. But I still love Advert jingles that I do watch, and everytime I hear the Ad showing, I'll start singing and annoy everyone around me.

++saykoji89++
++Hey, I'm random++

Nervous

2011-05-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

Well, tomorrow I'm heading to collage (again) and I don't know why I'm quite nervous... I have been through this like thousands of times... okay maybe not thousands but a few times already, and heading to this new campus makes me more nervous then ever... It seems like I have butterflies in my stomach...

Me: Mr.butterfly, what the fuck are you doing in my stomach?

Butterfly: Well, when you're nervous, I believe the expression is "butterflies in your stomach", so here we are.

Me: Well yeah. But why butterflies?

Butterfly: we could be dinosaurs, but I'm guessing you wouldn't be comfortable with them in your stomach. So butterflies we are.

Me: Point taken.

Long story short, the butterflies ain't leaving anytime soon. Hope you have a happy stay in my stomach, and try not to mess up the innards too much. My stomach doesn't come with any housekeeping services.

Oooh, and even my grandma thinks I'm a nutcase. She feels that engaging into a conversation with me will make her screw loose as well. Should I take that offensively or a compliment? Because seriously, I feel like it's a compliment because I can easily influence people to catch my insanity. And besides, I'm NOT screw loose for your information. My screw has been long missing. And if any of you readers find it out there, please tell it to come home because my brain is getting a draft from the hole it left open.

++saykoji89++
++screw, please come back++

Something I'm satisfied about

2011-05-28T01:03:00.004+08:00

This.

I'm glad that I made this artwork and color it, so now I can totally drool on it when I sleep at night. I have always wanted to draw robin without the mask, a.k.a Dick Grayson. Well yeah, if I'm in the right mood, I can do anything. Even do good coloring. Okay, it's not that good, but I'm still proud of it.

++saykoji89++
++can someone buy for me Robin action figures?++

huhuhu~

2011-05-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

I hacked the motions sensors~

++saykoji89++
++Head over heels++

New doodlez

2011-05-27T01:10:00.003+08:00

well, yeah.. I couldn't keep my hands off robin/dick. So this is based off episode 8 Downtime where dick was training in the gym.... except here dick has a happy face? I don't know. I can't draw angst. angst is so not my style. I might wanna ink it up and color it sometime soon...

++saykoji89++
++I want my YJ now!!!!++

Keyboard meme

2011-05-26T12:42:00.003+08:00

I stole this from ChibiBakaNeko's dA Journal just because it looks like fun~

Rules:
No backspacing
You have to tag four people.
Good luck!

What is your username?: Saykoji89
Spell it backwards: 98ijokyas
Spell it with your elbow: awsAQT6Y6YJII9YHUU8I8789
spell it with your eyes shut: saykoji89
Spell it with your forehead: dgftfyhyhg
Spell it with your nose: wsqawy6ioouui89
Slam your face into the keyboard: eorseghoifuuuuuuuuuuuuws

++saykoji89++

++This totally makes no sense++

Everybody Loves Me

2011-05-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

Totally replaying in my brain right now....

2011-05-25T15:23:00.003+08:00

Wake up in the morning feeling like Winehouse

Grab a Breezer, I'm out the door, I'm gonna be really loud.

I don't care who I piss off coz I real big sinner

Sometimes I eat my dessert before my dinner.

I'm talkin' bout odd socks on my toes

Taking off all of my clothes

Feeling over exposed,

so I put back on all of my clothes..

Yeah, well the lyric above is just snippets of the Tik Tok Parody by the midnight beast. I like singing this song out loud, it calms my soul~~~

Young Justice Related (mostly Robin)

2011-05-25T14:35:00.002+08:00

I'm just going to dump whatever I did yesterday here... There's a meme, doodle page and a sketchbook cover....

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++only dis, no aster++

Pairings I ship

2011-05-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

In order to compare who has a longer list of fandom, me and laling have decided to make a list out of it. The one who has the longer list is the one macam lalang~

YAOI

sasunaru
akame
1827
ASS
shizaya
hanchul
USUK
UKJapan

NON-YAOI

NatsuMikan
Robin (TT n YJ)
RenKyoko
UsuMisa
KazuFumi
Lelouch
Kyouhei
Chiaki
SebbyCiel
Cloud
Squall
Kyo from FuruBa
Bakuman
Oz from Pandora Hearts
Aram

I think that's all... If you think I left something out please tell me... So far I have 23 fandom laling. How bout you?

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++uh...brain so tired++

Going crazy over Robin

2011-05-24T15:48:00.004+08:00

Young Justice has totally flooded my mind. I have been doodling a lot of Robin a.k.a Dick Grayson lately.

Today, my craziness has brought me to a whole new level~

I went and did this not 5 minutes ago. No, I didn't do it in 5 minutes, I just finished it not 5 minutes ago. The whole thing took me about 30 minutes.

Oh, Robin, why you so..... shgfehwfy~

So, now, off I go to do more robin doodles in my "Robin" sketchbook~

Can't wait for 3rd June for a new Young Justice episode. Let's hope my new collage has wifi that allows me to watch it.

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++no more trolling for today.... I think++

TROLL~~~

2011-05-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Happily trolling laling's fb wall with all sorts different kind of troll. But there's one thing that stuck on my mind tho....

NANANANANANANA TROLL!BATMAN!!!

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KAT-TUN-holic

2011-05-23T01:41:00.003+08:00

I am seriously addicted to KAT-TUN. For the past few days, hyphens all over the world have been uploading every single thing that is connected to KAT-TUN and their WHITE single, and I am gleefully downloading them... I need to buy DVDs to store them all, please remind me...

And now I can't get their song DIAMOND and PERFECT out of my mind.

curse you handsome singing dudes.......

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++still feeling the aster++

Renovation~

2011-05-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna renovate the KsK blogsite~ And I think by now it's ok to make the blog open for public view again.

So, dear Kaizu and Kyoko@Reiko this notification is just to let you know. If you have anything else to change, go ahead. It's fine with me. Oh, and let's put up more post there and stop leaving it dead~~~

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++feeling the aster++

Totally whelmed~

2011-05-18T23:46:00.004+08:00

Although tomorrow I have my convocation, right now I'm being totally whelmed. Nothing over, and nothing under. Just whelmed.

The only song that suits me right now is this~

But tomorrow is my convo so, I can't really do nothing. I'm gonna have to iron my clothes, hearing people around me nag on how I should wear what properly. Luckily I'm on the evening session. Then, I'm gonna be free from my accountancy past.

Dunno why, but tonight I'm really tired so I'm going to bed now. Nitey nite.

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++sleep~~~++

English is weeping?

2011-05-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

“You’re overwhelmed, Freeze was underwhelmed. Why isn’t anyone just whelmed?”

“Well, we hate to see you disturbed, let’s see if you’re more turbed once we kick your can!”

“If dislike is the opposite of like, is disaster the opposite of aster?

Have you ever heard the quotes above? If you haven't obviously you haven't watch Young Justice. These quotes are spoken by the one and only, boy wonder, ROBIN *cue clap*

The awesome Robin a.k.a Richard Grayson

I so totally fell in love with Young Justice, after being introduced by an awesome friend whom I shall not name. But! Hear this. Ever since I was small, Robin has always been one of my favorite superheroes (others being Batman and Power Rangers) In fact, I broke my first teeth (My two front one too) while playing as Robin with my older brother (him being Batman), I think he pushed me off the couch and I knocked my two front teeth to a nearby coffee table.

When I was young, I was used to seeing this type of Robin.

(old Robin)

but, when you give me this Robin, of course I will fall head over heels (again) with the said character.

(The new Robin)

Now, I'm gonna continue doodling more Awesome Robin~ Oh, and guys, do not hit on your hot, blonde combat teacher or you will get served~

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++Go Robin Go++

THANK YOU HYPHENS~~~

2011-05-15T19:12:00.003+08:00

I'd like to express my greatest gratitude to all of the KAT-TUN fans who have posted (here) about KT's latest single, WHITE for people like me who doesn't have enough money to buy the single online and would probably have to wait around 2 years before the single would ever reach Malaysia.

The one that I really wanted to be thankful for is to natasiamarpaung for ripping a full version of DIAMOND. That is the best birthday gift that anyone has ever gave me~ (tho my birthday has long past, but who gives a shit)

I'd like to take an opportunity to thank all hyphens that are willing to rip the audios, videos and PVs . Without you guys I can't enjoy any KAT-TUN stuff.

Dream ON!

2011-05-14T13:58:00.003+08:00

Thanks to yuijbj's post, I finally got the lyrics to KAT-TUN's DIAMOND. This song is the best song I have heard so far during this year. This is actually kind of like a motivational song that lifts your spirits up.

I present to you, the song lyrics~

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一番熱い場所で
ICHIBAN ATSUI BASHO DE
At the hottest area

舞台が俺達を待つ
BUTAI GA ORETACHI WO MATSU
This stage is waiting for us

ベンチから届くサインに
BENCHI KARA TODOKU SAIN NI
The signal sent right from the bench

こんな時にエールなんて無いぜ
KONNA TOKI NI E-RU NANTE NAIZE
During this time that shouts/applauses aren't heard

明日なんて　見えないけど
ASHITA NANTE MIENAI KEDO
Even tomorrow isn't seen

夢を夢で託す瞬間
YUME WO YUME DE TAKUSU SHUNKAN
In the time that dreams still count on dreams

叩き込め　スタンドへ
TATAKI KONME SUTANDO E
We will hit it to the stand

* このドラマの先の未来は
KONO DORAMA NO SAKI NO MIRAI WA
Where the future of this drama is

見たこと無い　Heaven or hell
MITA KOTO NAI Heaven or hell
We haven't seen yet whether it's heaven or hell

抱きしめた夢の数だけ
DAKISHIMETA YUME NO KAZU DAKE
Just the number of dreams we embrace

強くなる　君の為
TSUYOKU NARU KIMI NO TAME
Can make us stronger for you

まだ、Dream on, Dream on, Dream on ,Dream
MADA Dream on, Dream on, Dream on ,Dream
Still dream on, dream on, dream on, dream

悔し涙をこえて立て
KUYASHI NAMIDA WO KOETE TATE
We will stand up against the tears of sadness

光集まるコノ場所
HIKARI ATSUMARU KONO BASHO
We will gather the lights up over here

約束の　ダイアモンド
YAKUSOKU NO DIAMOND
It's a diamond promise

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For you who have no clue, this song is imagining the feeling of being in a baseball tournament. But in my opinion, it can still be used in a real life situation. I especially liked the chorus where it goes:

KONO DORAMA NO SAKI NO MIRAI WA
Where the future of this drama is

MITA KOTO NAI Heaven or hell
We haven't seen yet whether it's heaven or hell

From my point of view, it can be used for your own dream/future plans. You'll never see how your dream will turn out to be. Some people might give up their dream since they thought it might be impossible or too far within their reach or simply because they thought that they are too mature for their childish dreams, but yet, they don't know will it be better or worse for us to chase our dreams.

The other part of the song tells us, "MADA, dream on.." From here, I fell like they're saying, it's okay for us to hope or to continue chasing our dreams. Well, anything can happen in the last inning right? (unless of course you lost by "mercy rule." Do they still even use mercy rule anymore?) So, don't ever give up hope in reaching for what you want!

I feel like I just gave a review of the song, but it's actually not a review. I just feel like quoting a few lines of the lyrics that I think is inspiring. Oh, and if you haven't heard the song yet, it's the song playing on my blogsite. Enjoy~

P/S: If the song is not playing, search for my old post here for the song and video.

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++I should really cut my nails++